As much as I'd love to, I'm not sure I can make it to the wake today.
It really boggles my mind, why it takes someone dying for me to really realize just how much I cared about them, and enjoyed being around them.
He really did do a lot for the community here. It's so admirable, the way he hosted tournaments, and even when the power went out at his place, he used his girlfriend's house to keep the tournament going. Everyone who's reading this should really appreciate that tournament. That's dedication.
Perhaps the thing about Bry that I admire most is the way he played Smash. He did want to get better. He talked to me about improving and how he wanted to be one of the best. But, he never let that interfere with his love for the game, or his friends... And even though sometimes he saw slow improvement, man, that guy kept at it. I can't count how many people quit because they feel they weren't getting better fast enough. Not even that, but some people don't quit, but they just don't enter tournaments, or maybe not even go to them.
I laid in bed all night last night thinking about him. This weekend I will do the same. I think there's a lot I can learn from Bry's life, the way he acted and the way he did things. I think sometimes I need to be less selfish, and sometimes be more in the moment, instead of always worrying about how good I'm playing.
His girlfriend was incredible too. When I first met her, it was clear why they were dating- She's such a cool girl. She came all the way from Syracuse just to pick him up, and not once...Not once, did she ever say anything about it. The only thing she talked about was how excited she was to try Rochester food haha. It just made so much sense man, when I saw them together. They're both so laid back, and I know Bry would do the same for her at any time. To be honest, I was a little jealous of the way they got along, but more so, I was inspired.
Man, I don't even know what to say. Sometimes, no matter how much you think about something or someone, it still doesn't make sense. Why he had to leave. I have a very analytical mind, and I get so frustrated trying to figure out why he had to die. I don't think I'll ever find out why, I think that's impossible and I'm an idiot for trying.
But man, that guy changed the way I think about a lotttt of things now. I'm more than honored to have met him, hung out with him, and played with him.
Even though he's dead, he's not gone. Not to me at least, and I don't think he should be gone to any of us. The only way Bry will ever be gone is if we forget about him, and I know that will never happen. Instead, we need to keep him in our thoughts and hearts, always and forever. If anyone ever wants to talk about Bry with me at a Smashfest or a tourney, or on AIM even, please do. I'm hoping to preserve the way Bry thought about things and acted on him, his mindset and attitude, through myself at least, by taking on a lot of the same mentalities that he did.
And I think this community would be even more amazing now if we all put a little Bry in our lives, and did the same.
R.I.P Bryan, I'll never ever forget you.