ZGD: Livin by a thread.

[zeldspazz]

Mmm, relationships?

Well the only person that I found out legitimately liked me posted it on an anonymous college forum. I found out who it was, but she wasn't looking for a relationship like we're talking about. She just wanted... uh, something else........ like my car, yeah.

Ouch..........

 

[mountain_tiger]

Jeez Ive had like 10 already and Im 13......

But dont worry, Im sure youll find that perfect person that makes you happy Im trying to be helpful go with it.

You've had 10 boyfriends/girlfriends? If that's not an exaggeration... bloody hell.

 

[zeldspazz]

You've had 10 boyfriends/girlfriends? If that's not an exaggeration... bloody hell.

Yeah, people start dating in like 4th grade in my area (my first was in 5th grade.)

And, Im a guy remember, so yea girlfriends

 

[mountain_tiger]

****, I'm really behind the times. I should probably go out more, but I'm really shy so I'd probably end up not socialising with anyone.

Practically all of my friends (who are all 16, BTW) have had girlfriends, but IMO they don't really count as proper girlfriends because they never stay with them for more than four months (sometimes as little as one month). Also, they all lost their virginity at 15 or below. Plus they all think that one night stands > long term relationships. Yeah...

 

[zeldspazz]

****, I'm really behind the times. I should probably go out more, but I'm really shy so I'd probably end up not socialising with anyone.

Practically all of my friends (who are all 16, BTW) have had girlfriends, but IMO they don't really count as proper girlfriends because they never stay with them for more than four months (sometimes as little as one month). Also, they all lost their virginity at 15 or below. Plus they all think that one night stands > long term relationships. Yeah...

Don't be shy, I used to be reeeally shy, it took my like an entire year to make a friend when I moved schools, Im much happier being out there and having fun =)

Its illegal to lose ur virginity before 17 here (.........not that I looked that up or anything........) ,15 is pretty sad.

So is the one night stand thing, its so wrong.

Edit: Im gonna go take a shower, I feel gross

 

[mountain_tiger]

Well, the age in this country is 16. Not like it makes much difference to the situation.

In a way I feel sorry for some of them. It feels like they're all beign pressured by each other implicitly, in a sense. And they've often embarassed themselves too. In fact, one of them ended up getting really drunk and stuff, and after that... actually, I'm not sure I can say it without being modded. Let's just say it involves a webcam.

 

[Kataefi]

Remember guys that this is a family-friendly site so try to be less explicit in certain posts - keep it general and nice

Mountain, dump your friends they sound absolutely awful judging by your descriptions. When you're older and you take up an interest, you'll meet a lot of crazy people worth your time.

What are your plans after school? I like hearing people's plans

 

[zeldspazz]

Remember guys that this is a family-friendly site so try to be less explicit in certain posts - keep it general and nice

Mountain, dump your friends they sound absolutely awful judging by your descriptions. When you're older and you take up an interest, you'll meet a lot of crazy people worth your time.

What are your plans after school? I like hearing people's plans

Pssh, I think Im about as young as it gets here....

And, schools out ftw?

 

[JigglyZelda003]

Mmm, relationships?

Well the only person that I found out legitimately liked me posted it on an anonymous college forum. I found out who it was, but she wasn't looking for a relationship like we're talking about. She just wanted... uh, something else........ like my car, yeah.

hmmm car eh? i sense moar story than that >.>

im still single and no ones ever interested in me usually beyond asking: "can i borrow a pen/cil?" well there was this one time that....this story is inappropriate for this forum, but Shedgy has heard it.

and to top all that someone always thinks i have a kid, even when im clean shaven (i even got happy fathers day comments from like 4 people on that day) the worst its gotten to is someone thought my friend who was walking w/ me was my son and not only do we look nothing alike, imo, he was 14!!! why must i look like im 30+ already?

i have like no offline friends and the two i do have are always busy. trying to make moar friends never works for me.....

i think im insane.

i want to kill D:<
*goes to get shotgun*

Spoiler

i don't really own one, i'll probably go play DW6E and kill everything in site for satisfaction

 

[zeldspazz]

hmmm car eh? i sense moar story than that >.>

im still single and no ones ever interested in me usually beyond asking: "can i borrow a pen/cil?" well there was this one time that....this story is inappropriate for this forum, but Shedgy has heard it.

and to top all that someone always thinks i have a kid, even when im clean shaven (i even got happy fathers day comments from like 4 people on that day) the worst its gotten to is someone thought my friend who was walking w/ me was my son and not only do we look nothing alike, imo, he was 14!!! why must i look like im 30+ already?

i have like no offline friends and the two i do have are always busy. trying to make moar friends never works for me.....

i think im insane.

i want to kill D:<
*goes to get shotgun*

Spoiler

i don't really own one, i'll probably go play DW6E and kill everything in site for satisfaction

Dont make me feel so sad Im already moodswingy today, and I want to stay on the happy side. I know I dont know you in real life, but Ill be your friend

 

[GodAtHand]

i'll probably go play DW6E and kill everything in site for satisfaction

I like that game. Good choice! I play as Zhen Ji. You?

 

[SinkingHigher]

So guys.

I just finished FullMetal Alchemist. D:

Someone discuss it with me. I'm downloading the movie, Conquerers of Shambala or something, but now I'm hearing about alternate versions and shorts and such. Any of it worth it?

 

[JigglyZelda003]

Dont make me feel so sad Im already moodswingy today, and I want to stay on the happy side. I know I dont know you in real life, but Ill be your friend

lol thats why i like my online friends, they come so much easier.

I like that game. Good choice! I play as Zhen Ji. You?

my personal fav is Diao chan but i use a whole lot of people.

Spoiler

all of shu and more

lol
whiping china into submission is priceless.

So guys.

I just finished FullMetal Alchemist. D:

Someone discuss it with me. I'm downloading the movie, Conquerers of Shambala or something, but now I'm hearing about alternate versions and shorts and such. Any of it worth it?

wish i could SiHi, but im not really a fan of FMA, i just watched it from time to time.

 

[DTP]

So guys.

I just finished FullMetal Alchemist. D:

Someone discuss it with me. I'm downloading the movie, Conquerers of Shambala or something, but now I'm hearing about alternate versions and shorts and such. Any of it worth it?

......


!!!!!

FMA you say? I could go on forever about that **** show. It's amazing. But I'm not in a talkative mood today.

I didn't about alternate versions though....
hmm....

 

[KayLo!]

Going to vet school after undergrad.

Also, I'm quitting Brawl for a bit. This game.... is not fun, lol. I'll still be around to test and stuff, though, because I like helping -- when I'm not too lazy. =X

 

[mountain_tiger]

Well, at the moment I'm waiting for my GCSE results (they're exams that you do when you're 15-16). I keep worrying that I didn't work hard enough. I was supposed to do 6 hours revision a day, but I usually did 1-3 hours instead. I also intend to start looking for a Saturday job soon (after my birthday), but considering the economy at the moment my chances aren't looking good.

After GCSEs, I'm going to do A Levels, and hopefully go to university after that. But atm, I'm juts waiting for my GCSEs and hoping I didn't **** up all my chances already.

 

[sniperworm]

What are your plans after school? I like hearing people's plans

I'm already out of school, so I don't have anything to add.

So guys.

I just finished FullMetal Alchemist. D:

Someone discuss it with me. I'm downloading the movie, Conquerers of Shambala or something, but now I'm hearing about alternate versions and shorts and such. Any of it worth it?

FMA was great and so was the movie. I don't know anything about the alt. versions and whatever else though.

Going to vet school after undergrad.

Also, I'm quitting Brawl for a bit. This game.... is not fun, lol. I'll still be around to test and stuff, though, because I like helping -- when I'm not too lazy. =X

Brawl isn't fun cause all you mainlanders are too serious, lol.

 

[Kataefi]

Going to vet school after undergrad.

Also, I'm quitting Brawl for a bit. This game.... is not fun, lol. I'll still be around to test and stuff, though, because I like helping -- when I'm not too lazy. =X

nuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! This saddens me deeply

I know why you're staying though

Spoiler

It's obviously the pleasure of fulfilling kataefi's frame-by-frame wishlist

 

[sasook]

I have a story. Let's all sit down for sassy's story time now.

Once upon a time (6th grade) I made some new friends (6th grade starts in a new school for me). As the year progressed, they started talking about girls. They would ask who had a crush on who and whatnot. I dunno why, but I felt like I should have a crush too. Well, it wasn't hard, I picked a girl who I wanted to go out with and... yeah. We'll call her PL (her initials).

Problem was, I actually started developing feelings for her. And eventually, it got leaked. You guys know how it goes in 6th grade. Everyone freaks out about everything. So of course, the news spread like wildfire. Now, I wasn't exactly normal in 6th grade. I'd wear geekish clothing, my hair was sorta nerdy, and I wasn't actually muscular. I'll save you from the details but basically, I acted like a creep. I left notes, found out her phone number, etc.

Regardless to say, she had no interest in me, and that was that. But everyone in school was following our "situation" similarly to how fans of anything follow a tournament as it progresses. I greatly embarrassed in her, in the end. She was bugged about it.

To this day, I thank PL. She was the reason reality gave me a slap in the face. I thought dating and stuff was how you see it in the movies, where they fall for each other and everyone's all happy and the girl always thinks the guy is sweet and all that garbage. She made me wake up.

So anyways, 7th grade comes along. I decide to do Track that year, in the spring. About halfway through the season, my friend and I are talking about the girls on the track team, and we're just going through each one, discussing who we find attractive and whatnot. He mentions this one girl, we'll call her KR.

Now, I had always thought KR was very pretty. So I said to myself, alright I'll give it a shot. But this time, I'm not gonna mess up. I'm gonna wait for the proper moment, I'm gonna make sure she doesn't get embarrassed. I'm gonna make sure she doesn't get hurt by this.

Now, the year was basically over. There was 2 months left, and she wasn't single. But I at least wanted to get noticed by her. Again, to this day, I thank KR. I decided to change who I was, and IMO, I changed for the better. For one thing, I started listening/paying attention to music. I started dressing more fashionably. I changed the way I wear my hair. But none of these got her attention. It did get me a lot more friends for some reason. But not her. She knew who I was by name, that was it. It didn't help that she wasn't in any of my classes, and her locker was very far from mine. Plus, she wasn't single. She was going out with a friend (friend, not close friend) of mine.

Now, I didn't wanna mess this up like last time. So I waited. And waited. And waited. 8th grade passed by, no progress. On the last day of 8th grade, I managed to get enough courage to ask her to sign my yearbook, but I couldn't find her. I was pretty bummed about that. 9th grade was high school, and I prayed she wouldn't go to a private school. She didn't, and luckily, her locker in high school is only 6 away from mine. I thought this was awesome. But something I noticed is that the guys she went out with were very athletic. This wasn't really her fault - just about everyone in my school is jacked. I live in a very athletic town. She's not one of those cheerleader-who-only-goes-out-with-jocks kinda girls. And I noticed, I'm not athletic at all. I never was. I still am not today. But it bothered me. So I did cross country fall season that year, attempting to become a bit more fit. I'd stay after practice and do pushups, situps, and core workouts, all on my own. Meanwhile, she was on the soccer team.

Still nothing. Granted, I hadn't really talked to her all that often either - partially because of lack of chances, partially because I never knew what to say. She was always the one girl I could never talk to. Any other girl, I could strike up a conversation no problem. I was friends with everyone in my grade, save her. And she was/is equally as popular as I was/am. So winter came along, and I heard she was doing winter track. I figured I'd do it too, and that helped me talk a little to her. We would mostly talk about just that though, so there was never -that- much to say. What scared me a little is that her newest bf, whom I had never met before, "knew" me. When they would hang out at their locker, he'd say hey to me or something. I had never introduced myself to him, nor met him. It was weird. And the way he said (could have just been my imagination) was sort of a mocking or tempting tone. That was the first time I got a bit scared that KR knew I liked her.

It was at this time, when we were both doing winter track, that another person came into play. We'll call him AM. He was an 8th grader, doing winter track for the high school team (he was really good). Of course, both of us made friends with him pretty quickly. My friends would always make fun of how she's friends with my friends, and I'm friends with her friends, but we're not friends. Anyways, he was better at talking to her than I was from the get-go. Now, I'm 100% straight but, I can tell, this kid is one that a girl would like. He's handsome and has a good face, and stuff. I think she was a little impressed by him. He'll come into play later on.

Winter track went on, nothing came of it. KR was in my German class, but she sat far away. I hated German class too, my teacher was terrible. Spring came along, she did track, I made the JV tennis team. AM made the varsity tennis team (he's a godly tennis player, he and his twin brother were in the top 100 national rankings at one point for their age group). Now, don't get me wrong, AM is a reeeeally cool guy. I'm still friends with him today, he's so chill. But like I said, he'll come into play later on.

Lo and behold, 9th grade was over. And look at me - still no progress. Not only that, but I still hadn't become athletic. So 10th grade rolled in. I was injured during the fall, so I couldn't do cross country. Not much happened during this period at all, really. She wasn't single, surprise surprise. She's had a lot of bfs. But most of them have been her friends beforehand, so I dunno if they were ever serious relationships. Anyways, winter came along, and so did her birthday. I remembered from the previous year when it was, and so I had bought her a pair of Juicy Couture earrings (cost me $60). The day before her birthday, I left them in her locker (her lock is broken). I left a note, and wondered whether I should sign my name. Eventually, I decided not to because 1) she barely knew me 2) she might think it's creepy and 3) I didn't really care for credit. I just wanted to put a smile on her face. Eventually, she thought it was one of my best friends (whose locker is next to hers). He knew it was me, and did his best to convince her that it wasn't him, but she wouldn't hear it. Ah well, I said. It's alright, she's happy, and that's what matters. My friends were ticked about my attitude for that though. She wore them for a good month, she must have really liked them. Then she stopped wearing them, but I had heard from my friends who are girls that that's normal.

Anyways, winter came along, and I did winter track. That season, AM told me he liked KR. And, I've always been a person who has put others in front of myself. I'd sacrifice my happiness to see a friend gain theirs. So I said he should go for it.

Eventually, he asked me why I stayed after practice to do extra work every day (yes, I continued to do this). I said I had a crush on someone, and I wanted to look better. He asked who. I said I'd tell him on his birthday (June 3rd). But man, he was like, dying to know. It was pretty funny lol. Soon I noticed he and KR would talk in the halls sometimes, and I'd see he was making more progress than I was already. I still had the same problems - little to no classes with her, and hardly any opportunities to talk with her in the halls (why do girls always have to be groups?). But she had a bf (not AM) so I ignored it.

Spring came along, I made JV, he made varsity. But this year, she'd pay attention to him a bit. Sometimes when I walked in from practice, she'd ask me if I had seen him. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I didn't talk to her at all. I had talked to her more in 10th grade than any other year. Just still not nearly enough, or so I felt. I was still waiting for that opportune moment to ask her out, but I couldn't unless I got to know her at least a little. That was the hard part.

So finally, I tell AM on his birthday. He guessed it before I even told him. He said he "had a feeling it was her." He was chill about it, and asked how long have I liked her. I said since 7th grade, and he was just like "wow...that sucks." He didn't mind at all.

So now it's the last day of 10th grade. I'm pretty ticked that I still haven't made any REAL progress other than various snippets of small talk here and there. So that morning, I make up my mind (school is only an hour on the last day). I will get her screen name that day, no doubts. So I go into school, and I see her, with some friends. I figured I'd go get my final grades first, then come back and find her. Got my grades, but then...couldn't find her. Now I'm panicking, going around the school, searching for her. School was almost ending anyway (you can leave whenever you want) and I got scared that she had left already. I didn't want a repeat of 8th grade's yearbook. Finally, at what seemed like the last 5 minutes, I saw her in the hall. And thank god, she was alone. I asked her how her grades went, and we discussed those for a minute, then I said I had to go. She said "ok bye, have a good summer," which I expected, so I paused and said "hey, do you have a screen name?" She gave it to me. I cannot express in words how happy I was that day. I felt so charged up, so ecstatic. Luckily, I'm very good at hiding my emotions.

I talked to her over the summer the few times she was on. This is when things started to pick up, and I felt like I was making real progress. The school year came around, and we got new seats in German class. This time, she sat right in front of me! My most hated class became the high point of my day. Ironic, isn't it? I'd talk to her every day, and near the end of September, she started hanging out with AM a lot. Like, more than she used to. She told me she'd hang out at his house over the weekend and stuff. She had a bf as well (different guy), but it was just something I noticed.

Something else I noticed, is that during the first 2 weeks of October, our conversations in class and online would get shorter and less frequent. She'd give one-word replies and such. I wondered why. October 18th, the PSAT rolls around. Due to her and my last name, by chance, she sits right in front of me. Something I notice is that she's wearing my earrings that day - the first time since 10th grade. I was pleased, but thought it was sort of peculiar. I knew something was up, but wasn't quite sure what yet. I brushed it out of my mind, and during the break, complimented her on her earrings. This was the first of many mistakes. I think that compliment sorta "sealed the deal" on her suspicion, little did I know.

I had always been scared that she knew about my secret. There had been so many instances where it seemed like she knew, but they never amounted to anything. Anyways, a week later, I get a message from a friend. "Did you tell (we'll call him TJ, he's her bf) TJ you liked KR, ever?" I replied no. They said "that's not good. I heard him today in Spanish class, saying how you've liked her for 4 years and still haven't asked. Dude....she knows." Those last 2 words hit me so hard. I started panicking, I didn't know what to do. I eventually calmed myself and remembered my intentions - I'm not gonna embarrass her, I'm not gonna mess this up.

I went out, and bought an $80 necklace for her. I planned to give it to her on her birthday, and decided, I was gonna ask right then and there, because to be honest, I didn't have it in me to wait another year. I know it just seemed like waiting, but it was painful waiting. I can't tell you how many times I felt miserable because I couldn't seem to make any progress, or get her to notice me, or successfully have a long conversation with her. And I can't tell you how elated I felt when we did have a long conversation, and whatnot. I really liked her.

So I said to myself, "look at this like a test. You can still pass, it's just a bit more tricky." But, our conversations got shorter. She'd look at me differently. She knew, and I knew she knew. I don't think that she knew, that I knew, that she knew. I'll give you a minute to figure that out, if you're still reading this gigantic story. But anyways, things would just feel a little weird. We both tried to act like nothing had changed, but mentally, things had. What's more, she and TJ broke up a few days after his Spanish class talk and whatnot. And AM had still been talking to her, A LOT. They were pretty much unofficially dating.

I trusted him, he's one of my closest friends. Some of my friends say trusting him was my biggest mistake. They say he snitched, he blabbed, he spilled my secret. When I asked him about it, he said "I dunno dude, I can't promise that I didn't say anything." I like to give him the benefit of the doubt, but meh, what was done, was done. I started asking her close friends (who were close friends with me) if they had heard anything, and they said something about me liking her.

At this point, the situation was dire. I was losing hope, fast. There were 2 weeks until her birthday. And things would just randomly happen to make it worse. Like, my friend and I went to the school play, and chose some seats (we came in a bit late). One row ahead of us, and a few seats to the left, she was sitting there, just by chance. After intermission, she sat directly behind me. At one point, she dropped her phone and I picked it up. Turning around and giving it to her, we made eye contact, and that was a little awkward.

Getting closer to her birthday, I discussed and made a plan with my closest friends. I had spoken to AM, and he had told me he doesn't think I have a chance. He said she knew I liked her. I told him I know, and asked if there really was any chance at all. He said he didn't know. So.... the plan. The plan was, the day of her birthday, I'd talk to her before 1st period, give her the necklace, and ask her out. I was expecting a no, so I figured I'd just get it over with, and she could enjoy the rest of the day.

This girl was smart. She always seemed to be one step ahead of me. I dunno who snitched. I dunno how she found out all this. But the day before her birthday, she tells one of my best friends (who's a girl) "I need your help. He's asking me out tomorrow, before first period. And he's giving me a necklace."

....

She knew EVERYTHING. I decided to stick with the plan regardless, since I knew the answer would be no anyway.

So the day of her birthday comes. She's just turned 16. Hooray and stuff. So I'm standing there, waiting at my locker, waiting for her to show up at hers. She appears, and within a minute, a huge group of friends crowd her locker, screaming happy birthday and all that jazz. I would later find out that she had that planned. It looked pretty real to me, she had me fooled. The next time I usually saw her in the day was right before 4th period. This time, she took her 4th period books straight to 3rd period, and avoided her locker. Then I saw her in German class. We didn't speak the entire period. When the bell rang, she ran out quickly before I could say anything.

After 8th period, I met up with AM. I said "she seems to be avoiding me." He goes "dude...you're taking this too far. She's avoiding you because she doesn't wanna hurt your feelings." I said "can you tell her, that I would rather her say no to my face, than to ignore me and let me not know forever?" He said he would.

After last period, I waited by my locker. She didn't show. Even AM didn't know where she was, he was looking for her too, because he had a gift of his own. 15, 20, 25 minutes passed. Finally, after a half hour, she and some friends came to her locker. She noticed I was there, but ignored me. Finally, just as she was leaving, I finally turned to her and said "can we talk?" She said "yeah." Her friends moved away. I said "you know what it's about." She said "yeah." Then I told her I have something for her, and took out the box with the necklace. At first, she tried to refuse it, but I made her take it. I told her, I didn't wanna do this anymore. I was tired of the pain, of the waiting, and I'm ending it. No more crush, I'm moving on. Lastly, I said "I'm not gonna ask the question, because we both know what the answer would be." I apologized for everything I put her through, she nodded, and left.

I had failed. Again.

So I packed up my bag, and started heading towards the exit of the school closest to my house (I walk home). As I turn the corner into the hall where the door is, I see her and AM talking. And they were so involved in that discussion that they didn't even notice me. Her friends were there, waiting for her. I walked past KR and AM, and I turned. I began to raise my arm to wave goodbye, then decided not to, and dropped my arm. I turned, and walked out. Her friends said goodbye to me, and I went home.

About 45 minutes later is when it really hit me. It's over. 4 years of waiting for nothing. 4 years of perseverance, of pain, for naught. Now, I don't usually cry at all. Even when my grandpa died in 8th grade, I cried for about 5 minutes or so, that's it. So to show you how hurt I was, when it hit me that it was over, and I had failed, I cried for 35 minutes straight. My family never knew about KR. And they never caught me crying about her either. But I still remember the pain from that day, vividly, when I cried. It was the worst I've ever felt. I was heartbroken, and it hurt.

She messaged me later on that day. She was upset too. She had not only had a "fight" with me, but she had also fought with AM. So she was miserable too, on her sweet 16 birthday. She was majorly ticked at me, because it was my fault, for the most part. AM said he'd take the blame but, all 3 of us knew it was mostly my fault. The thing with AM was, her parents didn't like him. So both of us were miserable, AM and I. Me, because I had waited so long, and failed. He, because he was SO CLOSE, but wasn't allowed.

That night, I felt better. Credit to my friends, they were really supportive. When I needed them the most, they were there for me. They told me about how much stronger this entire experience had made me, that no one else could possibly wait 4 years and endure all that pain, that overall, I had become a stronger person. And it's true. The VERY NEXT DAY, I was over her. I was surprised, but I had no feelings for her anymore.

However, we didn't talk for 5 months straight, with the exception of a few times. In January (her birthday is in November), she tried to talk to me, but I brushed her off. She tried communicating through AIM away messages. It was a Monday, and her message was "How to Save a Life -The Fray." Now, the first line of the chorus in that song is "Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitterness." I ignored it. The next day, she sent me a Youtube video of her and 2 of our friends in a car, with one of them singing without knowing he was being recorded. It was pretty funny. She sent it to me, saying "you might enjoy this." I saw it, but didn't reply. The next day, she turned around in German class, and asked if I had seen it. I dunno why I lied, but I did, and said no. That night, her away message was the chorus of "You're Not Sorry" by Taylor Swift. I knew it was directed at me, but I ignored it.

Truth was, I wasn't ready to talk with her again. I didn't want my feelings to return, and needed more time. But I didn't tell her that (another mistake of mine), I just ignored her. We continued to act like the other didn't exist (handing up papers, or handing back papers, we'd exchange them without looking or speaking at one another). And what made it worse was just straight up karma. All of a sudden, every time we did group work in German, she was in my group. All of a sudden, every time we did partner work, she was my partner. And no, the teacher wasn't assigning us in the traditional sense, she was picking names out of a hat. So yeah, that's just karma.

This ignoring/awkwardness lasted until, in May, I asked if we could talk. I had been missing her as a friend, and friend only. She said "Ok, maybe" which I knew meant no. So in June, I sent her a long facebook PM with a very heartfelt apology that would probably make anyone cry. Her new bf replied "I'm deleting this, because although I can tell you're very sorry, if she read this all it would do is make her cry. And we both don't want that. I think it's best if you leave her alone, because we don't want her getting hurt." So I let it be. AM was ticked about that. He said if he were in my shoes, he'd tell that guy he doesn't know anything about me and should mind his own business. But it was alright, I let it be.

The very last day of school, I saw her in the hall and confronted her. I asked if she wanted to call a truce, because it was the end of the year. She replied that she wasn't mad at me, so there's no reason for a truce. I asked why did we both ignore each other then, and she said she ignores me because I ignore her. So I said "oh....so.....then we're cool?" She said yep.

But she hasn't unblocked me from AIM or facebook, so I dunno if she meant it. Still, overall, it sucks. That's my story. And that's why I've never had a girlfriend. My friends and I discussed the several ironies that arose from this experience.

-I believe no person can not be hated by anyone. IRL, I'm very friendly, and am friends with just about everyone. So I always wondered those 4 years who the person was that hated me. Ironic it turned to be KR.

-The necklace I gave her was one of a peace sign. I realized later it sort of represented that the entire drama between us was finally put to rest, and we could both be at peace.

-All that time, I had wanted to be with her in class, whether for classwork assignments or projects or whatever. Now, (thanks to karma) after the incident, she was. But I didn't want it anymore. Be careful what you wish for, I guess.

-I never actually asked her out.

-I liked her for so long, but was over her in a day.

Funny, huh?

If you read this entire story, you have my gratitude, and you get a cookie:

Practically all of my friends (who are all 16, BTW) have had girlfriends, but IMO they don't really count as proper girlfriends because they never stay with them for more than four months (sometimes as little as one month).

In my school, 3-5 months is pretty average.

 

[KayLo!]

Brawl isn't fun cause all you mainlanders are too serious, lol.

That may be, but there's nothing I can do about that since I can't change other people's opinions. But when tournaments for games that I don't even play (Melee, Street Fighter, TvC) get me way more excited than Brawl tournies too, I think that's a sign I need a serious break.

I could say more, but, yeah, this isn't the place to hate on Brawl. No disrespect to people who still enjoy the game, though. <3

nuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! This saddens me deeply

I know why you're staying though

Spoiler

It's obviously the pleasure of fulfilling kataefi's frame-by-frame wishlist

Lol, I love how you're "saddened" but put a face. XD <3 Kata.

That could be one reason why I'm staying.

 

[Kataefi]

I read it all sasook - I really appreciate how you're able to write this all out to a bunch of aquaintances on the Internet - then again I think that's the beauty of it so props to you.

It does sound like you've learnt alot from these experiences - I think that girl did become the object of your affection for 4 years, and I see that as a very long time. Would you have been happier if things turned out as you wanted in the 'filmic' sense?

Talking generally, I think teenage/very young relationships inevitably fail and are overrated in the grand scheme of things. I see them only as little flings and nothing more. I'm not stereotyping - there are definitely some that stand the test of time.

I think not having a girlfriend or a boyfriend at this age is something not even worth concerning over If it happens it happens. I don't think one should ever feel desperate for a partner and throw themselves over cliffs fulfiling their short-term desires. There's a lot more to one's youth and as you get older you'll meet a more varied set of people.

I sound bittersweet from the above - there are reasons. I'm a very private person in general, but yeah, I think I'll assume the role of agony aunt kataefi.

 

[DeTa]

why does Sasook like to tear at our hearts

 

[JigglyZelda003]

I have a story.

.

cookie. mine. lol

interesting story, too bad everyone i've liked seriously has been offlimits.

 

[Brinzy]

Good god, you waited 4 years to talk to her? I don't even know what the hell I would've done... except maybe not have a girlfriend like always.

hmmm car eh? i sense moar story than that >.>

Yeah, you can probably figure out what I really meant.

And lol, you get those type of comments, too? I don't think I look particularly older, but whenever I go somewhere with my mom... ugh.

I remember back when I was 16, we were outside at a flea market. It was getting cold out.

Mom: It's getting cold out. We should go back to the car.
Random guy: Well I would warm you up, but your husband wouldn't like that.

... and everyone thought that we were married. Then one day, someone topped it off.

Mom: I wonder what Father's Day specials they have here.
Woman: Oh, that's so sweet!
Mom: Yeah, I can't wait to see how he likes his gift!
Woman: ... Err, isn't he with you right now?
Me: WHAT. THE. F- screw it. -_-

My mom is 47 years old for crying out loud. That doesn't even make any sense. :\

 

[adumbrodeus]

Following up the other conversations...


Sort of lost count of my relationships at this point, must be getting old. Well actually it's more because at one point I had a lot of short ones.


Law school after college, hopefully Columbia.

*pretends to know what adumbrodeus is talking about* x.o

Google it, great comic. The protagonist works for a mad scientist, just use your imagination.

Probably one of the funniest comics I've ever read.

 

[KayLo!]

Number of posts everyone has in this thread (Kataefi, you spammer -- although I'm ahead by a good bit in the Pika social thread):

Kataefi 184
Red_Bandit 124
GreyFox86 87
KayLo! 80
GodAtHand 75
Sonic The Hedgedawg 66
Ochobobo 57
MrEh 53
Darkmusician 49
JigglyZelda003 47
Villi 37
SinkingHigher 37
ScaryLB59 31
marsulas 30
zeldspazz 29
MdrnDayMercutio 25
sniperworm 25
Snakeee 24
Half-Split Soul 23
Successor of Raphael 22
XFadingNirvanaX 21
Samusbrawler 20
Oh Snap 18
sasook 17
Dark.Pch 17
mountain_tiger 17
adumbrodeus 15
RoyalBlood 12
Icyo 12
Super Angry Luigi 12
AlMoStLeGeNdArY 11
GKInfinity 11
<3 10
goodkid 10
powuh_of_PIE 10
Kaffei 8
Mocha19 7
gm jack 7
SuSa 7
choknater 7
Takumaru 6
TheBuzzSaw 6
Dayzin 6
ArkiveZero 6
Microbe 6
RoguefanAM 4
Pgh-M@v-Pgh 4
Aerodrome 4
RedSnowman 4
Elder Sister 4
DarkThundah 4
Tsuteto 4
lythium 3
AGuyNamedRaf 3
PhantomX 3
AzNfinesse 3
Veggie123 3
Overclassed 3
ethanrodgers223 2
HipsterKid 2
L-T! 2
Furbs 1
Rickerdy-doo-da-day 1
VSion 1
-Tempest- 1
-spAzn- 1
popsofctown 1
Tezmata 1
DeTa 1
Kuro1991 1
Matador 1
lil cj 1
Kinzer 1
n88_2004 1
professor mgw 1
MochaMew 1
Rhaz 1
knuxrouge 1
MRTW113 1
Miamifinz 1
00000 1
Thinkaman 1
Radarr 1
Shadia 1
Dekuu 1
Jdietz43 1
Timbers 1
stealth3654 1
illinialex24 1
Chis 1
Canvasofgrey 1

 

[AfroTwist ShadowPie]

Sasook, I hate you for making me read all of that. Seriously.
(Not really)

 

[Kataefi]

wat?!! How have I posted so much??

 

[Darkmusician]

Probably because you're the mod here. That and ever since this became a social thread lots of back and forth conversation.

 

[zeldspazz]

This is not Spam.......

This is my 30th post in this thread XD

I feel......empowered being so high on the list XD

 

[SinkingHigher]

Well, at the moment I'm waiting for my GCSE results (they're exams that you do when you're 15-16). I keep worrying that I didn't work hard enough. I was supposed to do 6 hours revision a day, but I usually did 1-3 hours instead. I also intend to start looking for a Saturday job soon (after my birthday), but considering the economy at the moment my chances aren't looking good.

After GCSEs, I'm going to do A Levels, and hopefully go to university after that. But atm, I'm juts waiting for my GCSEs and hoping I didn't **** up all my chances already.

lol

I've been there.

GCSEs really mean nothing. They're like the end of year exams and such you did around year 9. Your A-levels are what matter. At least, for the time being. Once you're out of highschool, you'll never look back.

I'm sure you did just fine though.

What are you planning on taking for A levels btw?

I urge you not to make the same mistakes I did, though. Study hard and in advance. Do EVERY past paper you can get your hands on. Don't over work yourself.

Life story.

As for you, sas, that kinda sucks. I know what you mean, though. At times I was practically reading my history.

Here's another bit of irony for you, though. I can always pick up patterns and understand the way a person works at the first time I meet them. Ironically, it's taken me forever to realize my own and they still haven't changed. If you're interested though...

You really shouldn't have been so hard on yourself. I think your problem in life was that you waited and waited for the opportunity to come to you, but that's not how the world works. Opportunities are there for the taking, but you need to initiate these things. You need to create the "right time" by just performing an action.

From the leaving the notes in the lockers to presenting yourself better to avoiding people to asking their friends about them indirectly, etc... Maybe it would never have worked out from the beginning, but you would have saved yourself 4 years of wondering "if" if you had just told her you liked her the first time you realized it, whether you knew she had a boyfriend or not.

I think, though, that everything happens for a reason, and until you realize the answer, this kind of pattern that followed you everywhere will never leave you. Like you said, if anything it made you stronger and let you know for sure which friends were there when you needed them, which ones you know you can trust.

As for the AM guy, the one you shouldn't have trusted... well, in all honesty, it was fair game. He knew you'd never make the move so he went on instead. If he did betray you, then in the end, he lost the girl and his friend. AM has his own lessons to learn his own way.

As for her new boyfriend, well, dude has a point I guess, but a person needs closure. As he found it, it wasn't his place to do that. Imo, sharing your password with your bf/gf is never a good thing, whether you're trustworthy or not. People get jealous and people get paranoid.

You really need to stop apologizing so much. She led you on, for one thing, and your friend AM probably told people a thing or two, whether it was her or someone else. The only mistake you made here was not saying something sooner, and the only person you should apologize to for that is yourself.

To conclude, I guess I'll say...

I hope you've learned the lesson and that the next time you meet someone, you don't wait around hoping that things will just come to you. They never do. Don't worry about the way you look or what people will say, to an extent. The kind of girls you want aren't the ones that are just looking for a one-night stand with some hot guy. They want a guy that's sincere, someone to make them laugh and be there for them when they need it, and who knows who he is and what he wants. Don't be so down on yourself and stop blaming yourself for things that weren't your fault. Just get up and move forward.

 

[zeldspazz]

Man, this thread is so full wisdom and nurturing words......

*hugs everyone who has posted in this thread*

This is why I main Zelda

 

[KayLo!]

wat?!! How have I posted so much??

Lol, when you beat my 504 posts in the Pika social thread, then you can be surprised. XD That's a challenge!!!

@Sas: I read your post, but everyone's pretty much said everything I could say and more. Besides that, I have the most unromantic, unapologetic views on love and relationships out of anyone I know, so I'd probably come off pretty harsh.

That being said, everyone finds someone someday unless they close themselves off to it.... I really believe that.

 

[GodAtHand]

KayLo! Send me your reasons for quitting brawl. I am interested because I have felt the same way at some points (especially when new games come out). I'm not gonna give you any advice or anything I am just... like a cat, and thus curious.

I haven't read anything larger than this:
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on the past 4 pages because I am lazy, someone create a "last time at kakariko's pub" update for me.

 

[KayLo!]

Sure thing!

 

[Sonic The Hedgedawg]

Yeah, people start dating in like 4th grade in my area (my first was in 5th grade.)

And, Im a guy remember, so yea girlfriends

yeah if you aren't 16 yet, you don't have a girlfriend. Iunno what it is, but y'ain't datin'

 

[MrEh]

Man, this thread is so full wisdom and nurturing words......

I'm somewhat flattered.

 

[XFadingNirvanaX]

Man, this thread is so full wisdom and nurturing words......

*hugs everyone who has posted in this thread*

This is why I main Zelda

I main Zelda because I love losing.

...

Seriously though, I like the 2 chars in 1 thing and I like Zelda. Granted I don't use sheik a lot. I just wish I didn't get rusty after 2 days and there was no such thing as lag/button delay. It always kills me. Heavy loss of morale ftl ._.

 

[Sonic The Hedgedawg]

I'm somewhat flattered.

I'm sure somehwere in the fine print there's SOMETHING about that nature of "kind words"

 

[sasook]

It does sound like you've learnt alot from these experiences - I think that girl did become the object of your affection for 4 years, and I see that as a very long time. Would you have been happier if things turned out as you wanted in the 'filmic' sense?

Well, I can't say for sure, but probably yes, for a short time at least.

I think not having a girlfriend or a boyfriend at this age is something not even worth concerning over If it happens it happens. I don't think one should ever feel desperate for a partner and throw themselves over cliffs fulfiling their short-term desires. There's a lot more to one's youth and as you get older you'll meet a more varied set of people.

True, it's just like....all my friends have/had one, and I just want one. You know? I'm like that person who stands there among everyone else wondering "what's it like?" I'm that person who is friends with everyone. But just that, a friend, nothing more.

Sasook, I hate you for making me read all of that. Seriously.
(Not really)

Lol, sorry Afro.

You really shouldn't have been so hard on yourself. I think your problem in life was that you waited and waited for the opportunity to come to you, but that's not how the world works. Opportunities are there for the taking, but you need to initiate these things. You need to create the "right time" by just performing an action.

Yeah, I've started to realize this recently. This was my mistake, I kept thinking there would be a proper time and I had to wait for it.

From the leaving the notes in the lockers to presenting yourself better to avoiding people to asking their friends about them indirectly, etc... Maybe it would never have worked out from the beginning, but you would have saved yourself 4 years of wondering "if" if you had just told her you liked her the first time you realized it, whether you knew she had a boyfriend or not.

I think, though, that everything happens for a reason, and until you realize the answer, this kind of pattern that followed you everywhere will never leave you. Like you said, if anything it made you stronger and let you know for sure which friends were there when you needed them, which ones you know you can trust.

Thanks for this Sihi. =)

As for the AM guy, the one you shouldn't have trusted... well, in all honesty, it was fair game. He knew you'd never make the move so he went on instead. If he did betray you, then in the end, he lost the girl and his friend. AM has his own lessons to learn his own way.

Well, AM and I are still pretty close friends. I was never mad at him, even though he -probably- was the one who spilled the beans.

You really need to stop apologizing so much. She led you on, for one thing, and your friend AM probably told people a thing or two, whether it was her or someone else. The only mistake you made here was not saying something sooner, and the only person you should apologize to for that is yourself.

To conclude, I guess I'll say...

I hope you've learned the lesson and that the next time you meet someone, you don't wait around hoping that things will just come to you. They never do. Don't worry about the way you look or what people will say, to an extent. The kind of girls you want aren't the ones that are just looking for a one-night stand with some hot guy. They want a guy that's sincere, someone to make them laugh and be there for them when they need it, and who knows who he is and what he wants. Don't be so down on yourself and stop blaming yourself for things that weren't your fault. Just get up and move forward.

Thanks for this too. =)

@Sas: I read your post, but everyone's pretty much said everything I could say and more. Besides that, I have the most unromantic, unapologetic views on love and relationships out of anyone I know, so I'd probably come off pretty harsh.

Lol, it's fine Kaylo. Thanks for the sympathy everyone =)

Sorry for the making the Link mains who read this story sad. Now they're all yelling at me in chat. xD