Well, just first off, there's no need to apologise, I really do appreciate it.
The course itself generally isn't that complex, Scottish first year is notoriously easy. There's two issues: lecture attendance, and coursework. My sleeping pattern is irregular to say the least. A lot of the time I'm just tired in the middle of the day and I'd rather go to bed than sit through a lecture. Also I often have my own personal projects that I'd rather stick to than attend lectures. he lectures are fine, they're usually interesting enough for me to pay attention. It's just attending them in the first place that's the problem.
I guess this isn't too difficult to fix, if I can sort out the sleeping issue.
Sleeping issues can be fixed fairly easily, so I believe you are in luck there. Is your course in the morning or noon? Try to give yourself plenty of time before your class to get ready. Even if it means simply setting your alarm 20 minutes earlier, that is still 20 minutes more than you had before. It can and will probably be difficult to adjust to a new sleep schedule if you desire to make one. Over time though, continuing to wake up at a specific time, your sleep schedule will develop on its own until it becomes a natural habit. At least that is what the goal would be.
If you don't mind me asking, what personal projects are you working on? I know I said that you should set goals to get into a career that you want to do, but first you need to set priorities to get there. There are things you
want to do, and things you
need to do. Even if those things you need to do aren't fun, and in most cases they aren't, just know that in the end you'll be done, and ready to move on to newer and [hopefully] better things.
Maybe it is more of a problem with keeping attention during his lectures. You said "
his lectures are fine, they're usually interesting enough for me to pay attention" but then "
It's just attending them in the first place that's the problem" and finally what you said before, "
A lot of the time I'm just tired in the middle of the day and I'd rather go to bed than sit through a lecture." So really I see a connection between the three quotes, which seem to all revolve around being sleep deprived. Having a good
night's sleep is very important, it gives you the energy you need to be able to focus during those lectures. Sometimes even the most interesting things can be uninteresting if you are focused to much on wanting to rest.
Coursework is a different matter. The coursework you do throughout the year makes up the majority of your grade, the final exam is around 40% I believe. Honestly, I find a lot of it dull. The course material is so general in first year that most of the time it's of no interest to me. And if I'm not interested, I struggle to work.
I'm not too sure what to do about this. I know that in later years the course will be more specific to my interests, but it doesn't make the current bland work any more exciting to do.
(If you don't suffer from procrastination, skip the next 2 paragraphs)
Coursework, 9 times out of 10, will be a complete bore to do. No one likes it, and hundreds of million people fall prey to the term "procrastination." Are you given a specific due-date to turn in a bundle of these assignments, or is it more of a nightly workload? The reason why I mentioned procrastination is because a lot of the time when people are given a large amount of work they need to do, all they can think about is "there is so much here, I'd rather be doing that, I'll have plenty of time tonight to finish all this." No they won't, because all the time you find people struggling to finish, staying up until late hours into the night, and struggling to get a 'good night's sleep.'
I am not sure if you fall prey to procrastination or not, but try to get at least half of your work done before 'your' schedule. Doing this may not seem like fun, but at least you won't be up all night, stressing out about trying to get your work done, and losing even more sleep than you already are.
If you aren't a victim of procrastination though, and simply just do not want to do the work, then just know that any grade, no matter if it is 0.01%, is better than a zero. Professors and teachers like seeing you at least attempt to do the work. Having a bunch of zeros or incompletes on your transaction is definitely not a good thing. Even if you don't want to do it at all, at least try to do
some of it.
Or maybe you are struggling with the material? Even though you mentioned that the course is easy, there could always be some bumpy steps along the way. Tutoring should always be available to help you, please use it if you are struggling, you won't regret it. Sorry to sound very corny, lol.
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I know that in later years the course will be more specific to my interests" - Always keep this in mind. "It will get better"
The dreams thing is something I'm seriously going to have to sit down and think about for a while. I've never been sure about what I wanted to do with my life. I pretty much chose my university course at the last possible moment, because I had to. I went to a private high school because my parents wanted me to, and I just accepted it and just cruised through school with no concern for grades. I don't know where I want to live, what I want to be doing, nothing.
I guess that's bad, huh. I understand the need for goals as a motivator. I'll try and work on it.
Dreams are what keep people alive. Everyone has something they have always wanted to be, even while children are young they dream of becoming a cowboy, or an astronaut. Personally, I never knew what I wanted to do, I grew up completely oblivious to the world around me, and what power I held in my decisions. I had people always telling me how caring I was. Really, I never thought about being uncaring, it just came natural to me. Truthfully, I never thought about actually using that natural act to my advantage. I always said "I want to become a blah and make tons of money!" That thought in my mind lasted for a long time until it literally clicked, and I knew that even if I could be making tons of money doing something I feel like I
need to do, I could be doing something I
want or like to do instead.
If you noticed, I replaced the saying I had earlier. If you do what you need to do, you are rewarded with what you want to do. Just imagine it as a huge set of stairs. Sure you wish you could take the elevator and get to where you want to be with no effort, but that won't give you the knowledge you need to do what you want to do. You have to get up those stairs and learn the
steps to become what you want to be. Besides, not to worry, those steps don't go on forever, there is eventually an end
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I guess that's bad, huh." - It's not bad, it is simply being human. Everyone has to start somewhere.
Anyway, I appreciate all the help guys. I don't expect to get it sorted anytime soon, but I'll start working on it. Thank you.
You are very welcome
, just please know you aren't the only one dealing with this. Like I said I am in the same boat as you. Everyone worries about the future at one point in their life, and how they are going to overcome it, but everyone does. You just gotta stay strong though this
On a semi-related note, I decided on taking Psychology at Uni to go into counselling for the same reason as you. I just didn't want to take medicine haha.
Well that is awesome! Good luck!