Just came from seeing my dad at the hospital. it made me think of so many things just seeing him there. His appendix burst. So he is in alot of pain. he has been there for 2 weeks. And I just found out on my b-day that he was there and what happen. So saw him today. Docs say he was lucky. if he had been MORE stubborn and waited a few more days before seeing a doc, he would have died. If I was ever to lose my dad, idk what I do.
I went after work to see him till my mom got there. We talked for a lil about what was going on with him, then chilled watch "Enter the drangon" I think that was the name of it. It was with bruce lee. We were both getting hyped when bruce was on his ****.
I could not stand the sight of seeing him there on that bed. I got chills and nearly cried. But held it in. My dad is a strong man, really with all that pain he went through, so I had to do the same. He said 2 things to me thathit me hard inside:
"I don't want anyone to go through what I did, this is painful."
"All I have is you and your mother"
Afte I left and took the train home I started thinking. And realized I am a freaking dumb***. I'm going on about silly crap and been through crap for 8-9 years and I have my father in a darn hospital bed who was been through more pain then me within 2 weeks. Tha > my 8-9 years of BS. I really am a damm idiot. idk whatto do anymore. This just makes me more angry then I already was, and I been in a crappy state for over a week.