The Unhappy Thread

[Jon Farron]

I wish I COULD drop out of school and get a job. :l

 

[PsychoIncarnate]

I was doing nothing but a job for the last 2 or so years. But I wanted to get back in school. I didn't realize how bad it would be though.

I never truly get a day off because the days I get off from school I work, and the days I get off of work I have to go to school. With the middle being days I go to both

 

[Claire Diviner]

Isn't your job flexible, or do they not want to make any compromises? Worse case scenario, you can try finding another job, though that could be easier said than done depending on where you live.

 

[Venus of the Desert Bloom]

My bad luck returned. My girlfriend have resumed over fight over some stupid **** and currently on hiatus.

I just found out by a old lady that lives in my apartment complex that by November 2nd, the apartment complex I live in will be demolished. It will displace 3 English teachers like me plus 10 more families. My board of education, who is in charge of me, is too swamped to look for new apartments and I can't go look for my own because non-BoE sanctioned housing indicates that I have to pay the full rent instead of it being split by the BoE. I currently pay $300 but if I move into my own place, I could pay upwards to $600-900 a month for a smaller apartment. My GF wants me to move into a newer apartment and finds it unattractive that I refuse to pay my full rent. One reason for our hiatus. Plus I leave to go back to Ohio for Christmas for 2 weeks. I'll be busy getting ready so the timing sucks.

Near Halloween, my junior high school has a English recitation contest with the rest of the city. So everyday from 4:30 until 6:30, I have to coach 12 students in their English speeches.

I have a city wide demonstration English lesson on Oct 16 where me and a 6th grade teacher have to teach a English lesson to 200 people and then field questions.

Finally, in November, I have to give cooking class in Japanese. I will be making goulash, a cesare salad, and hot apple cider. I'll be teaching around 40 people.

Finally, I'm taking a masters diploma course online to get my TEFL (teaching English as a foreign language) certificate. It's a 140 hour course that keeps me busy during and after work.

And I'm drunk because all of this.

While I'm not necessarily unhappy, I'm dressed out and busy as **** which has put a strain on my GF, friends, and family. It's made me moody, scattered braun, and sour. Sorry to unload thus but typing it out makes me feel much better.

I found out last

 

[Jon Farron]

Yikes! Wow that is A LOT of stuff to have to do/worry about.

 

[Smooth Criminal]

Christ on a cracker, Venus.

When the bad **** happens in your life, it ****ing happens.

Hang in there, bro.

Smooth Criminal

 

[Holder of the Heel]

My GF wants me to move into a newer apartment and finds it unattractive that I refuse to pay my full rent.

Ironic how absolutely unattractive that mentality is.

Sorry Venus, we know that you'll make it through though.

 

[Venus of the Desert Bloom]

Thanks guys. I appreciate it. Things were going well into I found out about having to move out before my GF and I were going to go fishing.

Oh....yeah....my Wii cant read discs anymore （ーー；）

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

Dang Venus D:
That's awful! I hope stuff gets better soon!

Where in Ohio are you from? : o

 

[Venus of the Desert Bloom]

I'm originally from the Toledo area.

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

Nice nice : o
Toledo is so cool o A o
Just drove through that area this weekend. DAT BRIDGE. WOAHHHH.

 

[KRDsonic]

After some thinking I realized that I only have 3 friends that I trust that I still talk to. 1 IRL, 2 online. It's weird cause I used to trust a lot of people but as time has been going on I've been realizing that a lot of my friends aren't trustworthy. Well, I have another friend that I trust too but because of the way the internet out here is, I have no way to even get in contact with him.

I also keep having super-realistic dreams again lately X.x To the point where I'll wake up and have to tell myself several times that it was just a dream and wasn't real.

 

[Dooms]

I'm sure there are more people willing to talk to you and trust you out there, KRD! ^_^.

Venus whyyyy ;-;. Your life... T_T. I hope it gets better really soon!

 

[Construct]

Autumn's here. Are you ready, SAD friends?

 

[Holder of the Heel]

I ****ing hate how crippled I get when I think someone is beautiful and the idea of love comes up in my mind. The irrationality and stupidity of it all.. It's hard to avoid even when being a hermit. So unfair..

 

[Luigitoilet]

I'm pretty sure that's called lust, unless you're referring to how beautiful their soul is or something.

 

[ShroudedOne]

I ****ing hate how crippled I get when I think someone is beautiful and the idea of love comes up in my mind. The irrationality and stupidity of it all.. It's hard to avoid even when being a hermit. So unfair..

I agree. It sucks. I kinda wish I could choose to turn off my natural reactions/feelings sometimes, they're so annoying.

 

[Holder of the Heel]

I'm pretty sure lust involves me having sexual desires.

Could be wrong though.

At any rate, it's not her soul (those don't exist dude!), it was just from meeting someone who I really got along with, was really pretty, and we played with the idea of love (for fun, I think). The simpleton that I am reduced to with such a concept has riddled me dumb. I have a long history of making huge mistakes and being in general blind because with such things, nothing is more likely to make me angry than that at this point. And it's just embarrassing, the one aspect that I have a natural instinct to hide. I could only feel safe expressing my weakness here, so it's not surprising I posted here last night.

 

[GunmasterLombardi]

Going to the school dance...by myself...lol

 

[Master Xanthan]

I'm pretty sure lust involves me having sexual desires.

Could be wrong though.

At any rate, it's not her soul (those don't exist dude!), it was just from meeting someone who I really got along with, was really pretty, and we played with the idea of love (for fun, I think). The simpleton that I am reduced to with such a concept has riddled me dumb. I have a long history of making huge mistakes and being in general blind because with such things, nothing is more likely to make me angry than that at this point. And it's just embarrassing, the one aspect that I have a natural instinct to hide. I could only feel safe expressing my weakness here, so it's not surprising I posted here last night.

Don't feel bad. Everyone feels an attraction towards another individual at some point. If you don't want to pursue a relationship, just ignore the person you're attracted to.

 

[Holder of the Heel]

That's the rational end of it yes, and I am trying to rationalize how it is a bad idea. The only reason the irrational noise is so loud is because even rational side of it wishes it made sense. I'm sure I'll be fine, the noise will should die from starvation in the near future.

 

[Luigitoilet]

I'm pretty sure lust involves me having sexual desires.

Could be wrong though.

At any rate, it's not her soul (those don't exist dude!), it was just from meeting someone who I really got along with, was really pretty, and we played with the idea of love (for fun, I think). The simpleton that I am reduced to with such a concept has riddled me dumb. I have a long history of making huge mistakes and being in general blind because with such things, nothing is more likely to make me angry than that at this point. And it's just embarrassing, the one aspect that I have a natural instinct to hide. I could only feel safe expressing my weakness here, so it's not surprising I posted here last night.

Saying "she is pretty" indicates sexual desire, . These feelings are very often confused with "love". I feel like I've fallen in love many times, but I then come to realize that I don't even know these people beyond casual acquaintances. I'm in "love" with the beauty of their body and the attractiveness of their pheromones . I'm throwing this out there, just because the only thing you've really told me about this girl is that she is beautiful, and a flirt.

 

[Holder of the Heel]

Well, I get how you interpreted that way, I didn't really explain myself. My apologies.

A beautiful flirt, how lame of me to be struck temporarily by such a random, wild mare. Things started to slow down and I was able to dispel it with reason.

I guess it was a good thing to happen, reminds me I'm human. Easy to forget that living like a hermit.

 

[Smooth Criminal]

Lame?

Holder, you're young and you're human. It happens.

Smooth Criminal

 

[Shorts]

Mad at my friend, who I was supposed to hang out with tonight. I needed to pick something up before we could hang out, and the picking up of this something is currently taking longer than planned. Which is something she knows ALL TOO WELL can happen, but she's with her boyfriend, who, is a straight up brat. He knows that this can take a while too, but instead of patiently waiting he's making her blow up my phone and be a *****, when... if he wasn't around the few extra hours of waiting would have been nbd.

Just, bothers me that they know this takes a while, and they're being total ****s about the wait.

 

[Oneupsalesman]

Doctor Who just destroyed me.

 

[PsychoIncarnate]

I've never loved someone. Well that's a lie, but the people I loved I didn't have a sexual relationship with.

Wonder if it's possible to actually love someone and have a sexual relationship with them

 

[Shorts]

I've loved people, in both senses of the word. At the time, I can say I've loved an ex, and I currently love my boyfriend. And I love my family/friends

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

^ this. Family, friends, my boyfriend. And even if there wasn't anything sexual involved, my relationship with my boyfriend would still be a loving one. We have been friends since the first grade, best friends through high school, and have been dating almost two and a half years. Lotsa love xD


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And in an unrelated note....crazy people are the reason I hate politics. Take a quiz that matches me up with a candidate and it posts to Facebook. I get the candidate I've agreed with and life is good. Guy starts arguing, saying that he's trying to convert my friend and i to better ideals by saying we are going through our 'know it all college student' phases
.....I've spent MONTHS finding a candidate I can finally get on board with and my other friend is an army finance officer who is going through college for a second time for a new degree in order to do something he likes

There's a fine line between debates and political rudeness

 

[Hot_ArmS]

We have been friends since the first grade, best friends through high school, and have been dating almost two and a half years.

All i can think of was this

 

[PsychoIncarnate]

I'm not into this whole dating someone who was your best friend thing. I actually had a friend like that I liked and all. Let's just say I'm probably never going to see her again for the rest of my life and I'm not completely unhappy about that.

 

[Jasou]

I really hate it when i'm helping someone do something they can't do alone and they don't listen to the instructions you give them, especially when you say "Were you even listening?" and they say "no". All I got from my time was an unnecesary raise in blood pressure right before a smash tournament. Seriously?

 

[cannedbread]

haha that reminds me of a babysitting job i had once. this kid always asks for help with his homework, and then he's like no that's wrong hurr

 

[Hot_ArmS]

Im a tutor at my school and that happens alot

its even more annoying when they just want you to flat out tell them the answers and do their work for them, not my job bro.

 

[Vixen]

inhaled bug spray.

 

[Smooth Criminal]

I think I'm falling apart.

God help me.

 

[Holder of the Heel]

What's wrong Smooth Criminal?

 

[Luigitoilet]

He forgot to sign his post.

 

[quote]

Good news: finally over my last crush.

Good news: I have a new crush.

Bad news: has a boyfriend.

More bad news: this is a repeating pattern.

 

[PsychoIncarnate]

If she's not wearing a ring she's free game