ToferTheHuman
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Link to original post: [drupal=4531]What is pushing me.[/drupal]
Today, in just a few hours, I will be burying my sister, Kristie Nicole Diaz Martinez. She passed away Thursday August 11, 2011 around noon time from a bad seizure she'd been suffering her whole life. She was 21 years old, her birthday was July 3, 1990, she was mentally handicap, always smiled, and made everyone around her smile. I haven't told anyone, except for a select few, because it was hard for me to wrap my mind around the reality of not having my sister with me anymore.
But now that I come to except that she is in a better place now, I realize that life truly is too short to let small things get in the way. She was not able to express herself, she was not able to do the things that each of us are given the privilege to do. I see that I can no longer let small things in life bring me down, and that I can no longer allow myself to be stopped by the "I can't do it" mentality. She struggled her whole life, she was caged in her own body, no way of letting out her true emotions and feelings, and I cannot allow myself to be the same way. She helped me push myself to trying harder, I am just sad that it took her death to make me finally realize it.
She was a perfect sister, daughter, cousin, niece, and granddaughter, and she will be missed dearly.
I want to tell you all that I appreciate each and everyone of you, and that I truly love the group of friends that I have gained from this community. Thank you all for everything you've done, and thank you for reading this. Take care of your families and loved ones, and let them know that you care for them.
Thank you.
Today, in just a few hours, I will be burying my sister, Kristie Nicole Diaz Martinez. She passed away Thursday August 11, 2011 around noon time from a bad seizure she'd been suffering her whole life. She was 21 years old, her birthday was July 3, 1990, she was mentally handicap, always smiled, and made everyone around her smile. I haven't told anyone, except for a select few, because it was hard for me to wrap my mind around the reality of not having my sister with me anymore.
But now that I come to except that she is in a better place now, I realize that life truly is too short to let small things get in the way. She was not able to express herself, she was not able to do the things that each of us are given the privilege to do. I see that I can no longer let small things in life bring me down, and that I can no longer allow myself to be stopped by the "I can't do it" mentality. She struggled her whole life, she was caged in her own body, no way of letting out her true emotions and feelings, and I cannot allow myself to be the same way. She helped me push myself to trying harder, I am just sad that it took her death to make me finally realize it.
She was a perfect sister, daughter, cousin, niece, and granddaughter, and she will be missed dearly.
I want to tell you all that I appreciate each and everyone of you, and that I truly love the group of friends that I have gained from this community. Thank you all for everything you've done, and thank you for reading this. Take care of your families and loved ones, and let them know that you care for them.
Thank you.
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