I think I need to take some time to really evaluate myself as a player. I know I'm good, but I let my past accomplishments, smaller as they were, get in the way and my expectations were not met in the process.
This isn't about my pride as a Sonic player and being recognized for such. For me, I think I need to look at myself as a player, and don't think of who else makes it out or not when the going gets tough.
Whether that means I stay with Sonic or not, I'm not sure. Knowing me I'll stick to what I know best and just keep on fighting with Sonic.
I thought I was ready for APEX, and I almost was. I just need to discover what's holding me back and unlock that. Once I've done that... I'm not sure where it'll take me. I want to come back to APEX, go to the next Genesis, but I may have to hold off on all of that until I know for sure I've hit the next level.
I still wanna be the level of player that people like X and Espy have gotten to, but like all of us, there's still a lot to learn.