I dwell on past mistakes to the point of silliness. Poor word choice that no one even commented on will bug me even now, years later. I can't watch home movies with the sound on even from when I was like 3 because I can't stand to hear myself. I do everything wrong, and it jsut gets to me.
I want to be a good person who spontaneously helps people just for the heck of it, because it makes me feel good. But I can be too scared to do it, because I'm full of irrational fear that I hate. Like once, I was walking under my umbrella in the rain, and I saw a girl walking without an umbrella. I had the room to share my umbrella and wanted to offer to do so, but I was too scared. I didn't even know her, but I probably won't forget for a long time that I should have helped her.