The Unhappy Thread

[Shorts]

So I don't really know what to do, and I want a little advice I suppose, but mostly, I need to vent.

I. Have never ever saw myself as a naggy, suspicious, or hypersensative person, but, recently, I've began to actually start caring for this guy. Like, of course I cared before, but now, my feelings are strong enough that he's saying things that actually sting a bit, and things he does are finally starting to make me sus, and jelly. And I don't ever want to be the sus and jelly bf. That's totes nt me, like omg. Anyways, so yeah. I've pretty much let the last weeks worth of stuff roll right off my back and not show him, too much at least, that I'm bothered. But, its starting to become a problem. Me actively trying to be not care is causing him to think I don't actually care. Go figure. I just, I don't want to be a nag, and I don't want to be a *****...

But I feel like some of the things he's assesed falsely about me, and some of the things he does, really are legitimate things to talk about. Should I open the floodgates finally? Or?

 

[PsychoIncarnate]

Why do only Augumon and Gabumon get to digivolve into Mega? ...Except Gatomon and Patamon in the movie but that SUCKED!

Also...Sora ended up with Matt. Tai is the superior character!!

 

[Froggy]

Stupid hentai making sex seem so much more incredible than it really is.

 

[Holder of the Heel]

Open the floodgates now, I mean, it'll inevitably happen eventually, best do it when it isn't too late. And the more you wait, the worse it will be when you open yourself up finally. That's why when people are passive-aggressive, they are generally a lot more crazy than those who are just aggressive.

 

[PsychoIncarnate]

After looking up passive-aggressive, since I hide my feeling most of the time you'd assume I was passive-aggressive.

But when I show my emotions it's usually extremely passionate and "loud"

Edit: I guess you could say I TRY and hide my feelings, but I'm REALLY bad at it. I don't think it's possible for me to express a passive aggressive nature.

If I hate you, I might not say anything hurtful, but I'll have an angry face and won't say anything nice. If you piss me off I'll say "**** you". If I'm in love...I basically blush and smile; I get embarrassed and try and hide my face. I could never tell someone sincerely I like them while secretly disliking them, which is basic passive aggressive nature.

Edit Edit: WTF did they do to Ninja Turtles!!!

http://www.nick.com/videos/clip/teenage-mutant-ninja-turtles.html?xid=Facebook

This is worse than the campy 1987 version and the 2003 version (Which I'm not sure what word to describe it as...)

At first I thought they did a good job despite my dislike of the stylization they are using. But THEN they threw in some horrid effects, which I swear is based off children's anime. WTF? ...also check out how splinter looks. Worst version yet

 

[#HBC | J]

I would say possibly open the flood gates a bit, but not like release EVERYTHING at once if you get me? See with me and my ex (heh not the best way to start this for your situation it seems but trust me I have a point!) we kind of had a similar thing you had. She would really like to keep me in the friend zone and make me feel really semi-awkward in public whenever I wanted to show even a little bit of affection towards her. However, I just kept it inside and said "nah, i don't wanna nag her and I don't wanna come off like a douche boyfriend." so I just kept it to myself (and my close friend, but yeah). Then one night we got into a tiny little conversation that started over a miniscule thing in terms of what we eventually ended up fighting about. I started to open the floodgates a bit with her and when I say a bit, I mean I let everything out pretty much. ('cept for another phone call on a later date where I REALLY let the floodgates open) But basically I ended up just seeing things in a different light after I let everything out because I learned some things about here where it was to the point where I could no longer be with her.

A bit of it that has to with us breaking up is that I just kept everything down and didn't really try and "nag" her about what I was feeling and when I let everything out at once, it turned disasterous.

I've also seen what you are talking about with my best friend and his girl. However that's a completely different situation because it has more underlying facts hahaha.

I hope everything works out for the best Shortie. Just stick with what your heart feels you should do and I know that sounds like a cop-out answer but it is true. I would just advise on not letting out all the pent-up things come out at once. At the bare minimum, definitely talk to him about it in a calm manner. If he acts defensive a tad, it's to be expected whenever any one is semi-"call-out".

Hope everything gets sorted for you. <3

 

[KRDsonic]

This is where you post if something bad happens right? I don't know where else to go and I just need to let out some thoughts because I have a lot going on right now.

Basically, last December, my mom went in for surgery to have an internal tumor removed. During the surgery, they discovered that there was more than just that 1 tumor, and that it was in several places, so it was stage 4 colon cancer (the last stage, where it's spread to multiple organs) and that she only had 2-4 years left to live. That obviously hurt a lot to find out, since my mom and I are about as close as family can get, since it's always been just me and her living together, and I keep no secrets from her at all because of how much I trust her. During this time, I was lucky that I had my boyfriend online to support me emotionally during then, and I was able to finish up that semester of college. They started chemotherapy in January on her, I think it was called Folfox. During this time, my boyfriend and I had some problems and I broke up with him after finding out he was having affairs with other guys online. During that time, I had interest in another guy online after the breakup, but he turned out to be an extreme control freak and jerk and managed to get me to the point where I no longer wanted to live, so I stopped talking to him, and I went back to my boyfriend that I had broken up with and forgave him and trusted that he would never do anything like that again. I actually spent the whole time while we were apart trying to figure out why he did what he did, so that I would be able to forgive him and go back to him. Well anyways, on the day that I stopped talking to that other guy, I found out that the chemo my mom was trying failed and that there were now about 20 tumors in her liver and 3 small ones on the outside of her lungs. And then after she told me that, the car broke down in an intersection. Bad luck, but I remember it because that was 3 things that happened at once that day. Anyways, my mom was told that they had another chemo they could try, which I think was Folfiri, and that although the side effects were worse, it would work because they tested it on one of the tumors they had removed and kept in storage and they saw positive results. My boyfriend was very supportive in the beginning of this time but gradually started growing distant. About 2-3 weeks ago, my mom got her test results back and it turns out this chemo failed too because her cancer is growing too fast, and that it's not only just in her liver anymore, but has also spread all throughout her lungs and spleen, and that she now only has 3-6 months left to live. After that day, my boyfriend started talking to me less and less and started staying out late and night, leaving me alone to deal with it. Then 3 days ago, he decided to break up with me, saying that he lost interest. That, plus the fact that my only remaining child-hood friend stopped talking to me (Last thing I told him was that I was gay, and I haven't heard from him since) has pretty much made me really alone and I don't have much in the way of emotional support. I've had to put college on hold so that I can try to get a job and help support myself and my mom since she's on disability now, and I've been having to take care of her. I've also gone to a psychiatrist twice now and am taking abilify to control my emotions, though still, with everything that's going on, medication isn't enough at all. I need people to talk to and things to do to look forward to the future because right now it feels like there's really nothing for me in the future and that it's pointless to continue on. I do have other family but they can't support me, so once my mom's gone, I'll be on my own and I'll be alone to deal with grieving. I'm pretty scared and not sure what all to do, and I really need people to talk to. I've been talking to a few people online here and there, and I had one of my friends come over yesterday, but he stayed awake the whole night here and was loud, so my mom wasn't able to sleep, so I can't really invite him over again. I don't really know what people do or where people go to get emotional help during times like this, so this thread is all I could think of.

 

[z00ted]

KRD, I honestly can't even imagine.
We barely talk, but you can hit me up on aim whenever, dude.

Even if I'm offline, I'll respond back.

 

[Dooms]

I'm with Illmatic. I may be off the computer at times, but my computer is always on unless it updates/a storm knocks the power off, so I'll always get your message and I'll always respond to it as soon as I see it. You can always talk to me about anything. I'll always try to be there for you to have a conversation with! I've done my fair share of ranting to you, so always feel free to rant back towards me!

Besides talking to people online, medication/therapy are both good ways to get in control of your emotions. From what I understand, most therapists will give you other options out of this stress, which from the way you worded things, is what you need. That's just what I've heard about therapy though. Those two when combined with talking to someone on skype or something would probably be a good thing.

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

I'm with them, KDR. My phone has internet access, and I'm basically attached to my phone, so I tend to be online frequently.

We got your back c:

 

[#HBC | J]

You may not know me KDR and I dont really know you but I know your pain to a degree. Something similar with my mother.

If you ever want a new person to talk to or just to chat, definitely hit me up wherever/whenever. I'm online a lot and can talk for hours on end if need be haha.

As Lokii said, people help each other out. =)

 

[Jasou]

As I've said before as well. You can talk to me when i'm online. As long as i'm not busy playing games with my friends i'll talk to ya :D

 

[Claire Diviner]

Cleaning my ears with a Q-tip when the cotton end breaks off and get stuck in my ear. I tried to dig it out, flush it out, but to no avail. *sighs* Guess I'll either have to wait until it somehow comes out naturally, or see a doctor and have them remove it professionally. >_______<

 

[Reizilla]

Use tweezers to grab onto the cotton?

 

[Pachinkosam]

Is everybody unhappy today because am sure i am.

 

[Claire Diviner]

Use tweezers to grab onto the cotton?

One would think I have tweezers in the house. But no, this household is so cheap and unprepared. \:<

 

[Reizilla]

Makeshift? Two toothpicks?

Don't be sad, sw! How come?

 

[Claire Diviner]

I could try two toothpicks and improvise, but I don't want to risk making it worse, so I just might go down to the clinic and get it checked out. Thanks though.

EDIT: Yeah, I'm definitely going to go to a clinic or a hospital. Not that I'm feeling complications or anything, but I read up on it, and I don't want to wait until complications arise. Plus, it feels uncomfortable as all hell knowing it's in there. D:

 

[Luigitoilet]

dear god my band's vocalist's girlfriend has the most rock solid perfect body I've ever seen. she's so out of his league it makes my mind boggle. I feel bad for even considering sexual things with her because it would **** everything else up but it's impossible not to when i look at her hips/thighs/stomach/breasts. it helps that she's pretty much the coolest person ever. I need to stop indulging my thoughts like this or I'm gonna regret it.

 

[Claire Diviner]

If she's already taken, you're better off just forgetting about her and moving on, as hard as that may be.

 

[¯\_S.(ツ).L.I.D._/¯]

I could try two toothpicks and improvise, but I don't want to risk making it worse, so I just might go down to the clinic and get it checked out. Thanks though.

EDIT: Yeah, I'm definitely going to go to a clinic or a hospital. Not that I'm feeling complications or anything, but I read up on it, and I don't want to wait until complications arise. Plus, it feels uncomfortable as all hell knowing it's in there. D:

Why don't you have anything tweezer-like in your house I don't understand

 

[Claire Diviner]

Why don't you have anything tweezer-like in your house I don't understand

Because my household sucks. The fact I'm living with an 89-year-old woman who only believes in buying cheap bargain brand items, and cannot see the convenience of things like tweezers and other things of the like also sucks.

Good news is, I'll be moving in with my girlfriend in about a month, so I no longer have to worry about things like that.

 

[Froggy]

More health problems.

I think my right ring finger is infected. It's very swollen and the has become very sensitive. Taking a closer look at it, I think I saw what may be pus around my finger nail. I have to wait tell tomorrow to schedule and appointment with a doctor. This could be a major problem if my appointment has to be schediled for late next week or something because I need this addressed now. I have to type a lot for my job, and this could really impede me. I'm also terrified about developing gangrene and loosing my finger, if I can't schedule and early appointment then I'll just have to hope this is something that my local hospital's emergency room is can help me with.

I hate how much money this may end up causing me, and I'm worried the pain is going to get worse. As long as I keep my finger against the force of gravity it seems to be ok, but I have expect to wake up tomorrow(just like I half expected today) with an incredible throbbing pain in my finger. It sucks that this had to happen on the weekend(started Friday), because of everything has been closed and had this happened during the week at least I could have tried to find solutions by now.

 

[-LzR-]

So I have been unemployed the whole summer. I haven't done anything useful the whole summer. Just wasting time playing videogames when it's sunny and awesome outdoors. I am running low on money and cannot seem to be able to get a job. Outside of Smashfests I am also lonely so I spend most of my time alone at home playing videogames or ****. ****'s depressing dammit. I'll have to somehow endure the time it takes for me to get a job and steady income, but I still feel it's yet another summer of my life wasted. I actually feel like I've wasted all my life to this point. Hard to make such changes in life. I'm also not confident in myself, I am afraid of getting a job and then not being able to do it well at all.
**** sux.

 

[Froggy]

Slept through my alarm clock today(which ****ing repeats, so I don't know how that happened). I was woken up by coworker calling me so that he could drive me to work. I had no breakfast, packed no lunch, and I don't have any money on me to buy lunch from anywhere. My breath stinks real bad, so I need to talk to people at a distance. And my finger still hurts.

On the way to work my coworker told me that it's probably best to keep my phone on vibrate. I can only imagine now what all my coworkers say of me. ''On top of everything else'' he walks away to answer his phone we can clearly hear ring''. Whatever everything sucks. I can only try and make the best of it.

dear god my band's vocalist's girlfriend has the most rock solid perfect body I've ever seen. she's so out of his league it makes my mind boggle. I feel bad for even considering sexual things with her because it would **** everything else up but it's impossible not to when i look at her hips/thighs/stomach/breasts. it helps that she's pretty much the coolest person ever. I need to stop indulging my thoughts like this or I'm gonna regret it.

Man I hear you. I'm having a hardtime not thinking of women as sexual objects anymore. When I see one kinda the first thing that comes to my is wondering how she would feel. Surprisingly though I don't really lust after women anymore though. Having been with so many escorts, I've come to think that most of em just feel the same. Just remember that she probably doesn't feel extraordinary, that should help you get over her.

 

[Venus of the Desert Bloom]

I was reading this thread when my girlfriend came out of the shower and peered over my shoulder. Of course, the first thing she sees first the froggy's avatar and is now convinced I go to message boards dedicated to sexual fantasies concerning high school girls or hentai....which are basically the same.

Thanks a lot froggy.

 

[Teran]

Why didn't you just scroll up and show her the banner?

 

[Venus of the Desert Bloom]

Why didn't you just scroll up and show her the banner?

She has no idea what Smash Bros. is. lol.

She did one of those ninja snoops from behind me.

 

[Teran]

Yeah but te banner has Mario and Bowser etc, pretty sure anyone in Japan could recognise those figures.

Women man, way too suspicious. On the bright side, maybe when you come back home one day she'll be dressed as a schoolgirl.

 

[Venus of the Desert Bloom]

Haha I've tried. She even has a nurse outfit and police outfit from
Halloween. But despite my pleas, she refuses on the grounds of "it's too perverted".

We played Mario Kart Wii today for the first time together. Of the characters, she only knew mario, Luigi, peach, yoshi, bowser, toad, DK, and Wario. Then we played Smash and she was even more confused.

So, I tried to explain the smashboards to her and it went in one ear and put the other. All I got was "so it's nerdy AND naughty....I see". She always assumes I'm looking at naughty and/or nerdy things.

 

[Claire Diviner]

More health problems.

I think my right ring finger is infected. It's very swollen and the has become very sensitive. Taking a closer look at it, I think I saw what may be pus around my finger nail. I have to wait tell tomorrow to schedule and appointment with a doctor. This could be a major problem if my appointment has to be schediled for late next week or something because I need this addressed now. I have to type a lot for my job, and this could really impede me. I'm also terrified about developing gangrene and loosing my finger, if I can't schedule and early appointment then I'll just have to hope this is something that my local hospital's emergency room is can help me with.

I hate how much money this may end up causing me, and I'm worried the pain is going to get worse. As long as I keep my finger against the force of gravity it seems to be ok, but I have expect to wake up tomorrow(just like I half expected today) with an incredible throbbing pain in my finger. It sucks that this had to happen on the weekend(started Friday), because of everything has been closed and had this happened during the week at least I could have tried to find solutions by now.

Eek! I know just what you mean, as I had a similar infection on my left index finger some months back. I had to get it cut open and drained. It was worse than I had thought too. My insurance only covered half of the price, and as a result, I have an unpaid medical bill for about $150. Blah.

 

[Froggy]

I was reading this thread when my girlfriend came out of the shower and peered over my shoulder. Of course, the first thing she sees first the froggy's avatar and is now convinced I go to message boards dedicated to sexual fantasies concerning high school girls or hentai....which are basically the same.

Thanks a lot froggy.

3 things

1. If your girlfriend is so ignorant to believe her rushed conclusions despite you telling her otherwise then is she worth being with in the first place?

2. Sounds like your girlfriend is living with you. And I guess she's sleeping with you for pretty much free? So you shouldn't be complaining.

3. The chick in my avatar is smoking hot and I make no apologies for it. The sexiness of Japanese schoolgirls isn't appreciate enough.

 

[Teran]

Haha I've tried. She even has a nurse outfit and police outfit from
Halloween. But despite my pleas, she refuses on the grounds of "it's too perverted".

We played Mario Kart Wii today for the first time together. Of the characters, she only knew mario, Luigi, peach, yoshi, bowser, toad, DK, and Wario. Then we played Smash and she was even more confused.

So, I tried to explain the smashboards to her and it went in one ear and put the other. All I got was "so it's nerdy AND naughty....I see". She always assumes I'm looking at naughty and/or nerdy things.

That's quite a lot of characters! Vintage Nintendo man, their old characters are actually pop culture icons.

You could just be snarky and allude to how freaky pervy stuff is mostly a Japanese thing. I mean sure we're no angels, but we're not into cow guts, tentacles, and aliens as specific things. That would be hilarious, probably bad for your relationship but hey I'm not too fussed.

 

[Smooth Criminal]

I could say something demeaning here about the source from whence this ****ty advice is emanating, but I'm not going to. Learn to read between the lines, Froggy. That's all I'm going to say.

Venus, mah doo...just know that I empathize. Lol. I've been down this road before.

Lmao @ Teran. Way to bridge the cultural gap, man. xD

Smooth Criminal

 

[Froggy]

Eek! I know just what you mean, as I had a similar infection on my left index finger some months back. I had to get it cut open and drained. It was worse than I had thought too. My insurance only covered half of the price, and as a result, I have an unpaid medical bill for about $150. Blah.

Yikes I don't even have insurance. I was hoping to spend about 150$ on this. But if this ends up the way yours did then I may be paying twice that.

I fricken hate this country and it's over expensive health care.

 

[Teran]

It's why you should get insurance.

 

[Venus of the Desert Bloom]

3 things

1. If your girlfriend is so ignorant to believe her rushed conclusions despite you telling her otherwise then is she worth being with in the first place?

2. Sounds like your girlfriend is living with you. And I guess she's sleeping with you for pretty much free? So you shouldn't be complaining.

3. The chick in my avatar is smoking hot and I make no apologies for it. The sexiness of Japanese schoolgirls isn't appreciate enough.

haha it's all cool. It was more sarcastic than actual anger. I found it pretty funny. No, she only stays with me during weekends. We have talked about living together but I would have to fight about moving out of my apartment with the board of education.

As for the sexiness of Japanese school girls, by law I can't touch high school students. I know a English teacher who got three of his high school students preggo. He ended up being arrested and deported. But yeah they can be sexy.

 

[Froggy]

I think the insurance I could have bought into with this job wanted me to pay 100+ every month. You must be ****ing crazy. Even with paying this I have still saved myself a lot of money.

EDIT: Dear lord in heaven it would have been 205 a month. I'm moving to Canada or somewhere once I work my way up.

 

[Smooth Criminal]

Look around. I've seen health insurance as low as $25 a month here in the States. Unfortunately, 100 bucks a month does sound about right on the average. It's not too hard to find a third party insurance company anymore, but to find it dirt cheap is exceedingly difficult.

One of the biggest things you gotta look at is coverage. Hospitals aren't too terribly picky about who you're covered by (usually), but doctors and other specialists usually are. They may not accept whatever insurance provider you have, and then it becomes a hassle to find out which doctor does take your insurance.

Also, compare and contrast. Some companies might have a larger area of coverage, but they end up paying for less, leaving you saddled with a bigger expense. The inverse could be said, as well: They could pay for more, but they aren't as widespread when it comes to coverage. It all depends on what you need, really.

Shop around. Do some research. That's the best thing I can say.

Oh, and budget.

Smooth Criminal

 

[Claire Diviner]

I have two different kinds of insurance, one of which is provided free of charge. Of course, it does help that I have a limited income and have a mental disability. The point is, if you do what Smooth Criminal said, and look around, I'm sure you can find some insurance at a reasonable price with good coverage.