Most of my tourny results are below 25th. if people keep recommending me as a top Peach, it is usually to fans or people I am cool with. its usually not legit. Even with all that, people still consider me top. I havent not placed like I use too.
I tell people I am no where near top and I keep being in debates about it. Even when I place like crap all the time. I just recently placed 7th out of 49 and a tourny here. That's nothing for me to brag out. Can i do it again? That could have been the reason I was not added to that top 5 list. I failed so much and apex came and I did fine. It could have been my lucky day. Am I able to do it again? results past that showed I could not and went back to failing.
I am not consistant cause of my mental problem. which I think seriously kills it for me. I think with what I know about this game and my character, I could be the best with her despite what others might say to that. That wont happen unless I fix the problem in my head, thus can't execute what I know.
But I think I came up with a way to actually deal with that. Which lead me to getting 7th at the tourny. So thus that dont know, my bro past away a year ago. Hw took his own life out of depression. So for this tourny I had an idea;
"For those that were wondering about that shirt I had where I put 2 cube comtrollers on it. That was a shirt of my brother who past away a year ago. He took his own life due to depression. And he was like a best friend to me. My mom had that shirt made for us. I decided to bring this shirt to the tournament and see if it would help me with my tournament nerves. I would have it near the tv my match is in and but 2 cube controllers on it. One from me to my bro and the other for my bro himself. Make a quick pray I made up and then go to my match. I lost my first match to link X but did not have the shirt. I wanted to joke around with my match with him to lossen myself up and see if that would just not remind me of tournament nerves. I did not have any at that point cause I was having fun, But had a bad controller. This point on I decided to use helprs (thanks again) and I just was doing better game 2. he got the last hit though. From this point on I decided to get my shirt.
This really helped with controlling my nerves and making so many cluch moments. the nerves were not as strong so this might help me destroy them once and for all. So I like this idea I came up with. I as gonna do this for Sktar but forgot my shirt a home. So was really pissed and not in high spirits to play. This game seems more interesing when my nerves are not hardly there in tournament. I wonder just how far I can get wit Peach once the nerves are seriously gone.
I am pleased with that set even though I lost. I felt I lost that cause I was going a lil too agroo and not being patient. My tourny nerves kicked in a lil but it was no as bad as usual. So controlling my nerves is getting better. I have a feeling I could have have if I was patient and could have hit top three. So with that I m not salty for losing to Jtails. And there was alot of matches I was losing cause I was getting a lil nervous and starting to play aggressive. but near the end I fought to control my nerves and make the comebacks.
Most of my matches I was playing so patient, really against snake and I been losing to all snakes cause of me bring aggressive.Being patient against campy characters is what I have to be doing to beat them. Cant just rushing them down cause then sending projectiles at you and wanna stop them. "
I have a tourny this weekend, so I am gonna try this again. I still had the nerves, but they were somewhat able to be control. Much better then my usually experience with them. I don't expect as of now to beat anyone good. There is no way in hell I am gonna beat anyone good with this problem. And I would keep losing to people I should be beating by now. I have to first kill the problem for these results. When I do, I'll target for top Peach.
As of now, I kinda wanna be left out of it. it kinda leads to me looking like a fraud and all fan based. Also gets me into alot of debates and useless insults. Kinda annoying.
