I've been really depressed lately... AGAIN.
Why do all the popular people on SWF (most of the mods, namely Teran17 and Xsyven) hate me so much? I just want friends, but if I can't get any on the internet, then how the hell do I make it through real life?
I suppose I know why Teran and Xsyven would hate me, considering the very first infraction I ever got on Smashboards (the one given to me for bashing gays). But, I want to tell all of you that I've changed. I don't hate gays. Actually, I never really did. But I suppose that you still hate me, huh?
Also, I've been burdened with horrible, horrible memories of my stepdad and people who have made my life miserable. I only have one friend in real life, and on the internet I don't even have any. I'll bet some people would even kill me they hate me so much.
I don't want to kill myself, and when I've tried in the past, I couldn't do it because I was subconsciously held back.
I'm just a crying ***** that will never get any friends, because Teran and all the respected mods and forum vets hate me and think I'm worthless. I honestly don't know how I got so much disrespect, but because of it all, I hope I die soon.
Oh and by the way, that infraction that I was talking about... I wish it never happened. I was such an idiot back in those days, and anybody who looks at that infraction now thinks I still am one.
Okay, I'm done.