Ben Holt

If you drink Diet Dr. Pepper after eating raw onion slices and burp, it tastes like onion rings.

I literally just told a reactionary a fact, that Transgenderism has been recognized by Psychologists since the 70s. He called Transgenderism (and homo/bisexuality) a mental disorder, and I listed a few ACTUAL mental disorders positively linked to political Conservatism.
He then said, "You obviously watch CNN, and that's all I need to disregard you completely."
First off, I DON'T watch the Capitalist News Network; I get my news mostly from various print outlets.
But secondly, what the f*** is with reactionaries and CNN? It's no worse than any other corporate-owned TV network, but it's as if it's a mental shield to justify being proven wrong.

"We believe in Science, which has proven the white race to be the most intelligent, but not the Science that says that Transgenderism is real. Those aren't real scientists; they're all SJWs paid by the Jews!"
(Dear mods, this is not my real views; this is my mockery of reactionaries.)

I like bears.
Not large, hairy, homosexual men. I mean literal ursids. They're basically dogs that can kill you, but they're so fluffy and loyal.

Proof that ALL Trump supporters are bigots:
He has failed by every measurable metric except making life miserable for those he and his supporters deem inferior, yet they STILL support him and say he has been successful, because he succeeded where it matters: upholding white supremacy.

I want my own custom ring with a winged demon skull with a golden cigar in its mouth, my "D" logo in red on its forehead, a functional butane lighter with the flame coming from the mouth, and a bottle opener on the back. And it'd be black, of course.
That's the most Metal ring I can think of.

In honor of the five Neo-Nazis that harassed me on Twitter (Not speculative; these were literal open Neo-Nazis that shared racist and anti-Semitic memes. One even had a Swastika as his banner.), here are a list of things I value more than the lives of all Nazis on Earth:
Mosquitoes, belly button lint, my toenail clippings, broken guitar strings, used condoms, rusty nails, the food scraps that get stuck in the kitchen sink pipes, dirty diapers, my skin cells that get lost in the air when I scratch my nose, unflushed piss water, receipts from fast food restaurants, used tape, dead batteries, booger napkins, the completely unusable toilet paper you find in grocery store bathrooms, and the hair in my drain.

Today has been much better than the last 4 days.
Maybe it's because I actually started putting on cold sore medicine instead of just tolerating the pain.
Cold sore medicine: Soothes cold sores AND depression!

Things have gotten worse.

Just watched Mary and Max, and holy ****, I haven't cried that much during a movie since Plague Dogs!

All people should see this. The parallels between post World War 1 Germany and the United States post-Nixon are striking. ANY concession to reactionaries is a concession toward genocide.

Today I woke up, and I hate myself.
Death doesn't answer when I cry for help.
No high could save me from the depths of hell.
I'll drown my mind until I'm someone else.

Don't take care of me.
Be scared of me.
My misery owns me.

I don't wanna be...
My enemy.
My misery owns me now.

Under the graveyard, we're all rotting bones.
Everything you are, can't take it when you go.

To call BLM "political" is a tacit admission that there's a systemic injustice against black Americans, and to change that requires a change to the way the state governs.

Anyone wanna play Smash online?
I'm as bored as a plank of wood.

Just not feeling it today.

Is it normal for a musician to listen to their own songs?
I hum out tunes I wrote while showering, and I think they're pretty catchy.

I told my co-workers that we should start striking until our demands are met.
Why are they all outside with picket signs?
I'm the only one that even brought a weapon to strike the boss with!

Writing a new Metal song called "Drowning Machine".
Once I found out what these were, I HAD to write a song about them. It's such a Metal sounding thing like "Iron Maiden" or "Head Crusher".

I'm not completely against the idea of literally firing all police in America and replacing them all with newly trained officers under new standards.
Not all at once, but the problem is so widespread that the entire police force must be cleansed and replaced.
There aren't just a few bad apples. Quite frankly, there are only a few GOOD apples, and as unfair as it is to the "good cops", the purge must happen, and any of the few good cops can reapply under the new standards.

I'm starting my own religion.
Here's a verse: "Verily, I say unto you, for the kingdom of salvation has already brewed within my gut and is resting in my sphincter. All you have to do now, my child, is pull my finger!"

Ms. Pac-Man, Proto Man, Dry Bowser, Coco Bandicoot.

Welcome back, SmashBoards!!!

Geno, Dante, Rayman, Doom Slayer, Crash Bandicoot.

Whew. Two hour set today. I drank so much water that if you slapped my belly, I would have puked.
Gotta stay hydrated.

Cancer must be destroyed at its root, and the root of our world's cancer is Capitalism.

I really want a Tama Bell Brass snare drum, but it costs $5,000.
Why must the world's greatest drum be so elusive?

Maybe Newt Gingrich was right when he wanted to make the Moon a United States territory.
We need a place to deport all these morons saying the Covid is a hoax.

C'mon gubment! Gimme my next stimulus check! The new gun I'm looking at is exactly $1200!

SMALL Battlefield?!
I thought this was a ****ing joke!
But this does make me hopeful for more FreeLC, specifically Echo Fighters.

Finally got my vinyl records displayed nicely, and I need MOAR!!!!
Seriously, I just started a vinyl collection, and I only have 9 records.
Ace of Spades by Motörhead and Walk Among Us by The Misfits are getting new pressings soon, so I intend to order those, but my favorite 90s and 2000s records are so hard to find (at a decent price). Iowa by Slipknot, Antichrist Superstar by Marilyn Manson and City of Evil by Avenged Sevenfold are eluding me at the moment.

Cool trailer idea for Bill Rizer:
Regular footage of Mario alone on Battlefield.
Mario is practicing a "combo" on Sandbag.
He starts with 2 up-tilts, then two down tilts, left side-tilt, right side-tilt, left side-tilt, right side-tilt, Neutral B, then Jab.
The game then pauses, revealing a military dude playing the game. The screen then reads, "Konami Code Activated!"
The military dude is then sucked into the game where various characters attack him.
After defeating them, "Bill Rizer Enters the Code!"
Then gameplay montage.

Who says that 90 minutes is too long for an album?

Having a bit of self loathing right now.

Oof. It's just been one of those days.
Unfulfilling.

We're stuck with Biden, arguably the worst choice we had, with the exception of sub-human Bloomberg.
But as the Left, we must vote him in to get rid of the Trump cancer, then we must be Biden's worst enemy and bombard him with Leftist legislation.

Andre Segers is pissed off on Twitter.
GameXplain is a comrade.

Nothing makes my blood boil more than when a person (usually a woman) is told that they're not attractive enough to be sexually assaulted.

While I love Facebook and Twitter as much as anyone, there is an unfortunate side effect of social media where people can say hateful, odious s*** with little to no consequence.
If you say that kind of s*** in person, you're liable to get popped in the mouth.

Damnit! I missed the Bug Off today in Animal Crossing!

Day 4.
Random thing I like: Fast food. Between fast food today and Walmart yesterday, I must be a true blue American. But I confess, I like the taste of greasy unsophisticated food. I don't always need nice atmosphere or fancy cutlery. Sometimes I want a Taco Bell burrito to eat in the car so I can get to the gym at a decent time. I also love Hardee's, as I am a vegetarian, and their Beyond Thickburger is WAY better than Burger King's Impossible Whopper. Their shakes are also way better. But Dairy Queen and Sonic shakes are also delicious. McDonald's fries are also pretty good. They can also be used as a beef replacement on Big Macs to make an awesome potato burger.

Random thing I dislike: Freemium games. Not necessarily all freemium games, but most. Believe it or not, I liked Super Mario Run, as it had a free demo and charged for the full game instead of harassing me with ads every three seconds. $10 was steep, but I much prefer to pay for a full game rather than downloading a glorified ad service with three seconds of braindead gameplay (pretty much every game in Facebook ads). But what's more? Games like Sonic Dash that are complete microtransaction scams. No amount of game currency should cost more than $60, as a FULL RETAIL GAME costs that. But selling $100 bundles of coins for a freemium game should be a crime. They prey on addicts, and that is immoral in every sense. Hell, microtransactions have slipped their way into home console games like GTA and Crash Team Racing. I understand that video games have been $60 since the 1980s, and DLC is a way to counteract rising development costs, but goddamn. I would not mind paying $100 per new video game if all the predatory microtransactions went away! F*** microtransactions. F*** freemium scams. And f*** Capitalism!

My girl's talking to me again! <3
I wuv her so much! '3'