I've only been to one funeral with my uncle who... I sorta liked.
Didn't feel anything, but I was young, only like 10 or something, so I don't think I was supposed to feel too much with an uncle's death.
I'm sure I wouldn't cry at the funeral, but I would become lonely, probably, and end up being sad over that, since I hate being alone, yet at the same time I hate being around my family/people for too long.
I'd cry for a couple of people, maybe, but I don't really care much about people dying, like how Nick (Moose) feels.
It's sort of like, people are going to die, there's nothing you can do about it, and the older they get the more likely, so... Plus it makes it easier on yourself not to cry.
At least, I think so.
On another note, psychologists/psychiatrists/therapists and the like are useless.
I've gone to 6 (wow, thinking back, I've been to a lot, first one when I was 12 lolll) and 3 school counselors for the majority of those school years, and none of them have done anything.
It's their whole... "I know how you feel/felt at this point in time, because it's my job." attitude.
No, you don't know how I feel, no one does, you can EMPATHISE and THINK you know, but you don't, really, because you haven't experienced the EXACT same thing, nor do you think the way I do, nor do you live the way I do, nor HAVE you lived any of my life or thought any of my thoughts or ANYTHING OF THE SORT.
SO NO, YOU CAN'T HELP, BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL AND YOUR WORDS ARE MEANINGLESS BECAUSE THEY'RE NOT FROM YOUR HEART THEY'RE FROM YOUR PAYCHECK OR THOUGHT UP ON THE SPOT TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER SINCE THAT'S WHAT YOUR IMAGE IS SUPPOSED TO DO SO STFU AND GET OUT OF MY FACE BEFORE I CONTINUE ABOUT HOW WRONG YOU ARE AT WHAT YOU DO.
C:
I'm a terrible patient, because all I do is reverse what they use against them.
... Which is pretty much why I won't ever get 'help'.
But I've found out that getting through things on your own (mainly), or with a friend, or something like that, is much more... 'enlightening', if you will.
Doing things solo seems more of an accomplishment than with some d!ckhead telling you what to say or do or feel.
Plus, the way I am, I hate telling people my problems, because all they ever do is say the same generic thing and it's so pointless, so when people ask me OVER AND OVER WHAT MY PROBLEM IS FOR SO LONG BECAUSE THEY'RE WORRIED BUT DON'T "THINK" ABOUT WHAT THEY WILL SAY OR DO OR EVEN THINK THAT MAYBE I DON'T WANNA TELL THEM BECAUSE IT'S THAT PERSONAL OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT AND THEN I FINALLY TELL THEM AND ALL THEY F*CKING SAY IS SOMETHING LIKE "Don't feel that way/do that/be sad" or "Sorry I can't help/I don't know what (else) to say" or anything like that... THEN WHY THE F*CK ASK FOR SO LONG AND THEN NOT HELP YOU STUPID TOOL THAT'S WHY I DIDN'T TELL YOU BECAUSE I KNEW YOU'D JUST SAY SOMETHING TO SET ME OFF WITH YOUR INCREDIBLE INABILITY TO SEE YOUR OWN PATHETIC ACTIONS SO GO BURN IN A FIRE AND THEN LET ME SHOOT YOU IN THE KNEECAPS SO YOU ROT.
Ironically this isn't me venting.
I'm just bored and need to burn time before I leave to go to the citaaayyy~
...
My back hurts.
That's me venting.
Ouch.