Yeah that's, that's fair. I feel my eyes kind of fogging up just reading it.
I just wish she'd understand why I'm upset. That it feels like she's literally the only one there that would care about me, that I'd basically just be a setpiece so all of my other relatives can feel like the room is fuller without actually acknowledging my existence. That I wish she'd treat me like an adult in some ways even if I haven't quite made it there in others, especially when the ways she treats me like a child end up feeling straight up uncomfortable.
Because I sit myself down and I know that deep down, I do want to have more of those little moments with her. And I love her, and I care about her, so much that I'm starting to have tears run down my face and blur my vision just thinking about it. I just wish she'd also treat me a little more like an equal instead of like a little kid that was just too mentally ******** to grow up, where all of the things that qualify me as growing up involve me acting exactly like she wants me to.