The Unhappy Thread

[#HBC | Acrostic]

I take it beunhaas never took the opportunity to go to college

Just being a ****.

 

[Yonder]

I can't get rid of the stupid Wajam extension off my Google or Youtube search no matter what I do (not in the uninstall list, google extensions, etc)

My ipod, full of valueable info, crashed into a usb cord screen with the itunes symbol picture, can't use it until I "connect it to itunes and do a factory restore" . Can't restore it because it gives me the 9006 error "There was a problem downloading the software, check network connection yada yada"/ Even though mine is fine.

So now my computer and ipod are becoming unusable. I could, really, really use some help. *Sigh* I hate my life...

 

[DtJ XeroXen]

I wrote out a bunch of stuff then smashboards decided it hated me. >_<

tl;dr: I've been really depressed lately (issues), and I get a text saying my grandma who has always been an important person to me only has a few days to live. It isn't possible for me to see her until Monday and I'll feel like an awful person if I can't see her and she dies... So now I'm even more depressed.

I wasn't sure where else I could post about this so I put this here... not having people to vent to really sucks.

 

[Xiivi]

Damn Xero that's sad to hear. Losing a loved one is very tough; and knowing a loved on is about to be lost but you can't be there is even worse. I don't know anything about her condition; but if you're able to call/video call her that would be something that can help prevent lack of closure. Stay strong; but don't bottle up your feelings either, it's possible to be strong and still sad/upset at the same time. Alone time to reflect can help; but don't corner yourself in your room. Take a long walk outside in the fresh air and sunlight and use it to reflect; it'll help prevent you from becoming too tense. Last year a relative of mine was perfectly fine one day; the next night we're in the hospital; and then the next morning she was gone. The funeral was a lot easier than seeing her on her deathbed like that. Don't rush yourself to get past the grief; time will do that on its own.

 

[Trick or Treat]

I might lose my job because I snapped and told off one of my coworkers today.

 

[Smooth Criminal]

Feels like my life's imploding. I don't even know what rock-bottom is anymore; I just keep falling without end.

Smooth Criminal

 

[Lore]

@ DtJ XeroXen : Sorry to hear that, mate. Feel free to vent here.

@Envy: Remember to kill them all before it's too late.

 

[Trick or Treat]

@ DtJ XeroXen : Sorry to hear that, mate. Feel free to vent here.

@Envy: Remember to kill them all before it's too late.

It sure was tempting, I'll tell you that. After I posted this, I was about to ***** out 3 other employees and like 8000 customers. Everyone just pissed me off today...

 

[Lore]

Remember, just be beautiful like... a rainbow in the dark.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zQzNBTukO0w

 

[Jon Farron]

It sure was tempting, I'll tell you that. After I posted this, I was about to ***** out 3 other employees and like 8000 customers. Everyone just pissed me off today...

Do you work retail too!?

I FEEL YOUR PAIN QQ

 

[Trick or Treat]

Do you work retail too!?

I FEEL YOUR PAIN QQ

Thank you!

Normally I'm fine, it's never gotten bad enough for me to lose my cool. But today was just horrible. Was honestly about to walk out, myself.

 

[Jon Farron]

Thank you!

Normally I'm fine, it's never gotten bad enough for me to lose my cool. But today was just horrible. Was honestly about to walk out, myself.

Oh god, I've definitely had moments where I felt like just ditching the customer, clocking out, and walking out the door.

 

[Trick or Treat]

Oh god, I've definitely had moments where I felt like just ditching the customer, clocking out, and walking out the door.

For me, what really did it was a few certain coworkers. The customers pissed me off too, but those coworkers really needed someone to shove their collarbone up their asses.

 

[Smooth Criminal]

I feel your pain, ya'll.

/retail lyfe

Smooth Criminal

 

[PsychoIncarnate]

Today a customer was filling out a form and he skipped most of it

I told him he had to fill out the rest of the form

He asked why

I told him, because the form says it needs it

He got pissed at that answer

I was like ask a stupid question, get a stupid answer

If everything on the form was optional, you wouldn't need to fill out a form

 

[Lore]

**** retail.

Also, I'm not sure if I like this avatar at all.

 

[Trick or Treat]

Does being emotionally confused to all hell count as being unhappy? 'Cause that's where I'm at.

 

[Shadow the Past]

I can't get rid of the stupid Wajam extension off my Google or Youtube search no matter what I do (not in the uninstall list, google extensions, etc)

My ipod, full of valueable info, crashed into a usb cord screen with the itunes symbol picture, can't use it until I "connect it to itunes and do a factory restore" . Can't restore it because it gives me the 9006 error "There was a problem downloading the software, check network connection yada yada"/ Even though mine is fine.

So now my computer and ipod are becoming unusable. I could, really, really use some help. *Sigh* I hate my life...

I'm guessing you've already seen this, but figured I'd link it anyway lol https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5qP65-RJjLY

Also relevant:

 

[Creo]

Does being emotionally confused to all hell count as being unhappy? 'Cause that's where I'm at.

I would say that it could lead towards unhappiness, so in this situation, the difference is probably negligible. I can personally relate; I've been feeling kind of lonely with mixed emotions. Things on my mind at times lead to over-thinking and / or pessimistic thoughts. . .

 

[Yonder]

I'm guessing you've already seen this, but figured I'd link it anyway lol https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5qP65-RJjLY

Also relevant:

I fixed the problems for Wajam and my ipod. Turns out Wajam was still embedded in my programs even after uninstalling it. Fortunately I found it's folder hidden in the very depths of my computer after extensive searching. But yeah...not a single video or anything on the internet tells you that after uninstalling it in Windows, you have to ALSO go into your programs and get rid of it's folder.

And the iPod problem was linked to Wajam, I believe.

Anyways, that's all fixed. Back to mediocre life.

 

[Trick or Treat]

**** this, I'm out.

 

[#HBC | Acrostic]

**** this, I'm out.

I'm here if you want to talk about it.

 

[Trick or Treat]

I'm here if you want to talk about it.

Thank you but there's just too much.

 

[#HBC | Acrostic]

Thank you but there's just too much.

You always have my ear if you need it. My skype is fang.flynn

 

[PsychoIncarnate]

Ever wake up from a dream and be all like

"Oh...yeah...THIS is the real world. Dang it"

 

[Trick or Treat]

You always have my ear if you need it. My skype is fang.flynn

I hate myself and hate how all of the situations around me are playing out, especially since things seemed to be greatly improving just a few days ago. Now it's all plummeted straight down and I'm more hopeless than I ever have been.

Ever wake up from a dream and be all like

"Oh...yeah...THIS is the real world. Dang it"

Way too many times. Ugh...

 

[Smooth Criminal]

I hate myself and hate how all of the situations around me are playing out, especially since things seemed to be greatly improving just a few days ago. Now it's all plummeted straight down and I'm more hopeless than I ever have been.

I know how that is. Believe me.

Smooth Criminal

 

[Collective of Bears]

So there's a girl I'm pretty fond of in my group of friends. I don't get the chance to hang with her much outside of school, but this weekend I went to eat with her while out at a convention. I got to the place and immediately got sick, went to the bathroom and puked my brains out. I respond fairly well to getting sick and was ok after a bit, but I feel pretty embarassed about it. If I knew her better it'd be different, but we're still getting to know each other and now me blowing chunks at a diner at 3am is one of my most notable memories with her. Lovely.

 

[MewtwoMaster2002]

The shooting in IV this weekend has been bothering me. It's not that I don't like seeing the news a lot, but I just graduated from UCSB last year. I basically lived in that community for four years, so it's hard hearing about such a tragedy happening in a place I would consider home. Hearing about familiar spots in the news and seeing familiar names has been nostalgic, but strange at the same time. I even found out one of my friends considered one of the victims a close friend. I would like to visit and show support at a vigil, but it's a five hour drive for me. Plus I have work until midnight Memorial Day, have a job interview Tuesday, taking a shift Wednesday, and possibly doing jury duty Thursday before having work Saturday. I don't have the time to show my support for a place I called home for four years, and it saddens me. If I usually worked more and had the money, then maybe I could have taken some time off. However, I've only been getting one shift a week for the past month and a half, so this week has been good in giving me more shifts. I don't want the managers to think of me as a bad worker.

 

[Froggy]

So there's a girl I'm pretty fond of in my group of friends. I don't get the chance to hang with her much outside of school, but this weekend I went to eat with her while out at a convention. I got to the place and immediately got sick, went to the bathroom and puked my brains out. I respond fairly well to getting sick and was ok after a bit, but I feel pretty embarassed about it. If I knew her better it'd be different, but we're still getting to know each other and now me blowing chunks at a diner at 3am is one of my most notable memories with her. Lovely.

If she didn't see you puke then don't worry about it. You'll get the chance to make new memories with her soon enough.

 

[Dodongo]

So there's a girl I'm pretty fond of in my group of friends. I don't get the chance to hang with her much outside of school, but this weekend I went to eat with her while out at a convention. I got to the place and immediately got sick, went to the bathroom and puked my brains out. I respond fairly well to getting sick and was ok after a bit, but I feel pretty embarassed about it. If I knew her better it'd be different, but we're still getting to know each other and now me blowing chunks at a diner at 3am is one of my most notable memories with her. Lovely.

That's no big deal, man. If she's a cool girl, it won't make a difference at all.

 

[SuperBowser]

^the girl won't care if you puked or not.


hmm, my two closest friends have said i've got asperger's for a couple of years now (separately). i always told them they were wrong and ignored it. i assumed they were joking, but they've always been dead serious about it. been reading the traits online for the last few days.

...this explains a lot. i wish i had realised this 15 years ago, better late than never? not sure there's much point in a formal diagnosis now though.

 

[Livvers]

There's all the point in the world for a formal diagnosis. A LOT of traits in personality disorders overlap, and it's super easy to think you have all the traits if you go in with even a slight bias. Also, it can set you on a path to better understanding yourself and working to improve

 

[SuperBowser]

(i don't think i have personality disorder)

the thing is, i don't know how much help i can actually be offered because i'm a fairly functional human being, if a little unhappy. it's also an issue as i'm a doctor. confidentiality and implications on my job mean i'd prefer keeping it private =/

i think i'm the "milder" side of the spectrum of Asperger's as i've been able to mask my issues from others all these years - only my close group of friends know i'm weird. i'm almost 27 - i've had a long time to observe, learn and teach myself how to interact with people to a functional level. a full blown asperger's person would not have survived my job in the last two years. i handle one on one conversations with set goals very well (so at least i can be good at my job). i find my job extremely draining and stressful, but i've pulled off pretending to be a "normal" person (my friends find this funny as they say i'm the weirdest friend they have). at worst, people at work think i get anxious easily and perhaps i'm dumber than i am (common sense is not obvious to me).

my main issues have been around socialising, adjusting to new environments and, err, holding a non goal-oriented (normal) conversation. it just makes me anxious and i can't do it. i haven't attended a single work related party/get together in 2 years and this makes me feel sad - i want to socialise, but i can't actually bring myself to try it because i don't know how to and this stresses me out. sometimes i even cancel meeting friends when they say they'll bring a new person with them.

i survived in university because i could go to parties with a good friend(s) as a safety net. i could leave early or just speak to my friends while feeling like i was socialising. i don't think i've been to a social gathering without this safety net for 8 years.

 

[PsychoIncarnate]

I have a formal diagnosis for something

TBH before it I always thought I was normal

...It was everyone ELSE that was weird.

Ya know what, I still think that.

You're all insane

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

i have been having mood swings like crazy lately and i'm just reaching my limits with how much stress i can mentally and physically take at this point

I graduate in 3 weeks. i dont know if ill have enough money to pay my rent for next month, let alone bills. i still have a lot of work to do. i have to start job hunting. i dont feel like im ready to get a real job just yet. boyfriend is dealing with anxieties as well and it hurts that no matter what i cant do anything about that because how can i help someone else when i cant even ****ing help myself.

i feel empty sometimes and other times i feel so determined and happy and it's jarring. It really is jarring going from 'heck yeah i can do this' to 'what the hell am i doing why am i such a failure' in a matter of 12 hours. just waking up and functioning like a normal person has gotten really really difficult. i am not eating well. i am sleeping a lot more than i should be. i've been getting headaches and stomach aches on and off for over a week now....even had a fever for a while (skipped a class last week...i never skip classes. it was weird)

I'm making myself physically ill from worrying and freaking out. i dont see friends much anymore. i dont really leave my house anymore unless i am in a class OR unless i go back to my hometown for weekends because i just use that time to forget i have stuff to deal with.

im sorry
im just really, really exhausted and upset and i just dont want to deal with this.
my self esteem went from 'man i feel great about my art and i feel like i look cute now and i feel like a good person' to 'why am i such a **** up? why cant i paint anymore? why dont i have the will to do this? i feel ugly and i look like death!'
trying to calm my brain down from these thoughts, because when it gets bad my brain just gets all self harm-y and i dont want to go down that path.
i havent truly self harmed yet and i dont plan on it...but its hard hearing my brain make these suggestions.

ugh

tl;dr im really stressed and idk how to function anymore

 

[ndayday]

tl;dr im really stressed and idk how to function anymore

you are stressed
if you don't have money you don't have money. if you do you do.
if the like 1 picture I've seen of you is indication being ugly is not something you should worry about at all.

if you can talk to those that will listen it would be good for you. you probably don't want to since you don't want to burden your boyfriend or other people with problems, perhaps that's a good thing that you are concerned but realize that it also something that is stressing you. obviously you are in a part of life that is monumental, it's good you realize that but remember other times where you were worried sick. if you don't give up and be smart things will begin looking up again.

Don't hurt yourself, please take care of yourself and hopefully venting yourself out in good ways will help you get past this. often times I do that and I might still feel terrible about myself and everything for a week or so but it does help.

 

[Froggy]

I wasted a lot (a lot) of ****ing time on this digital application that I'm going to have do by hand anyways. I'm really pissed off about it.

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

you are stressed
if you don't have money you don't have money. if you do you do.
if the like 1 picture I've seen of you is indication being ugly is not something you should worry about at all.

if you can talk to those that will listen it would be good for you. you probably don't want to since you don't want to burden your boyfriend or other people with problems, perhaps that's a good thing that you are concerned but realize that it also something that is stressing you. obviously you are in a part of life that is monumental, it's good you realize that but remember other times where you were worried sick. if you don't give up and be smart things will begin looking up again.

Don't hurt yourself, please take care of yourself and hopefully venting yourself out in good ways will help you get past this. often times I do that and I might still feel terrible about myself and everything for a week or so but it does help.

You are an awesome person
thank you
just
thank you

 

[Pega-pony Princess]

Today was my second day having my license. I drove to school just fine...until I hit a bus near the freaking parking lot. Left an ugly as hell dent in the front of my car, and when I finally parked a bunch of school officials and a police officer came to check on me. Nobody got hurt thankfully, but I started crying like a baby anyway. Didn't help today was my last day of high school ever either.

I've calmed down a lot since then, but I'm still frustrated with myself and embarrassed. Guess I wouldn't be my ADD self if I didn't do something stupid once a day.