I hate missing somebody so much, wishing they were still in your life, and yet knowing that they're never going to be a part of your life again. That's how I've been feeling for the past 24 hours or so, to the extent that I was really distant last night with my friends and I could barely work up the motivation to take notes in class today.
Anyone ever want a second chance at something?
Life always gives me a second chance and I blow it just as bad as the first. Even when prior to that I go on about wanting a second chance and not failing he next time.
I've felt that way before, really badly. Took me a long time to get a grip on the situation and accept that I ****ed up, and thankfully I got somewhat of a second chance and I was sure not to waste it. Couldn't change what I did the first time around, but if I'd never messed up like that I would never have come to the realizations I've had through the struggles I had. It probably sounds cliché, but the best thing you can do when you're in a situation like this is learn from the first chance. Even if you
don't get a second chance and you can't fix what you did...by dwelling on it and waiting for a second chance that won't come, you're only dragging yourself down. You've got to come to terms with what happened and move forward such that it doesn't happen again.
If you get a second chance and you blow it, the same thing applies. Dwelling on your mistakes gets you nowhere. Getting a second chance is great, but dwelling on it when it won't come isn't helping anything.