Let's share our biggest flaw.

[Brinzy]

I'll start, of course.

I'm self-loathing. Very, very self-loathing. I downplay my strengths and exacerbate my weaknesses because I always feel that I'm less deserving of things in life. I earned a full scholarship to college a few years ago and right now I'm sitting at home because I spent too much time ruminating about the things I couldn't do and ended up getting academic suspension, and every single day I tell myself that I'm pathetic and ignorant and flat out useless.

I seclude myself from family because I'm so insecure with myself that I imagine nothing but hateful things coming from them, even on my birthday. I avoid professors that praise me for the things I do right and brightly because I have wild imaginations that they're just saying it to not make me feel bad. I abstain from involving myself with peers because I fantasize about the things they're going to say behind my back, which aren't hurtful but actually reinforce my own beliefs of myself.

I knew deep down inside that I had to do something to help myself, but instead of talking to someone or simply letting out pent-up issues, I began to drink, a lot. I haven't had any alcohol in a while but that's only because my mother would really hate me if she caught me drinking. Instead of trying to help myself, I let my self-loathing get to me, and as a result in the past few years of my life I've gained over 70 pounds and I look terrible. A few people in my life picked up on this behavior of mine and tried to help me but, again, my insecurities led me to believe that they only intended to reprimand me when all was said and done, and so I just stopped talking to those people completely.

The sensible part in me knows that a lot of this isn't really the truth about other people but the irrationality that I've sunk myself into refuses to let this sense come to light whenever I make mistakes or meet new people. I'm sick of this but I can't bring myself to get help, so I just sit here and let it get worse and worse. Even this post has me on the defensive and, as I'm typing it, I could simply delete it and nobody would ever know it'd exist, but I'm forcing myself to post this to learn about others but, most importantly, to see if anyone is like me so I can stop feeling like this.

 

[Omnicron's Baklava Enterprises]

One of my two biggest flaws would be my low confidence in myself. Every day, I find myself saying "Non, you cannot do that, but everyone else can". Because I see so many people striving to do different things, I try each of those things for myself, because I want to be at the same level as they are. In my mind, I have a whole system of who is "Inferior" and who is "Superior". This little system of mine is not based on Religion, accent, nationality, colour of skin, or anything stupid like that; it's based on someone's ability to do something.

One example is the Debate Hall here. Once I saw that many of the people with pink names were viewed as intellectuals, I wanted to be one as well. Thus, I am currently striving to become a Debater here, simply for the recognition. I always see people doing things better than me: instruments, Brawl, swimming, et cetera. Because I see so many doing things better than me, I try my best to do those things as well. However, I end up doing multiple things at once, thus impeding my overall ability to do anything.

Also, another large flaw of mine is taking people much too seriously, especially on the Internet. For example, whenever I see someone joking about me, my friends or where I live, I can end up getting unusually angry about it. Once angered like that, I simply start calling them "Inferior", "Dull-minded idiot", "Merde-tete", "Ignorant fool", or something of the like.

So yes, two of my flaws, actually. There's another one.

 

[mzink*]

Dang that's rough. Do you know how you got into that state of mind in the first place? I used to think everyone was out to harm me physically, but I'm pretty sure I know what made me start thinking like that and eventually as time wore on those feelings faded till they weren't really there anymore.

I guess my biggest flaw would be....well I duno I have a few flaws, I duno which is the biggest but ones that stand out are

Jealousy, like if I had a good friend and that friend was hangin out with someone else. But its only with like a specific few people close to me.

And the other one is kind of hard to just put a word to it but maybe like too much self interest or something? Like I care a lot about people but sometimes I don't hesitate to follow my own self interest even if it means hurting or neglecting someone. I'll leave family and friends behind if I have to, I'll push them aside if they get in my way. Sometimes I end up using people. I don't do this often, and usually my love for them causes me to sacrifice a lot for them, but I know from past experiences that if I felt I needed to, I'd run over them or ditch them if they were in my way. I'm not always like that, but it happens. There are a very select few that I don't think I'd ever do this to though. Like 2 people, 3 at most, that are dear to my heart that I make an exception for.

 

[Smoke and smash]

I take criticisms as an insult to my character as a whole.

 

[Brinzy]

Well it seems that I have some similar problems to you guys, which is good to hear, not that the problems themselves are necessary fine.



mzinkk9, I believe this is because early in my life people would shout and yell at me because I was introverted and didn't share the same interests as others, and it hurt. Like even today, my mom blamed me for something that wasn't really my mistake (telling me to be somewhere at 10 PM and then having to wait 30 minutes anyway because the event wasn't over, as if I could control that), but on top of the blame was a feeling that somewhere, it was my fault. When I'm not under any pressure I can see the issues at hand perfectly, but I don't have the power to face them and overcome them.

 

[Mini Mic]

I have a tendency to over think things.

 

[choknater]

1 It's really hard to motivate myself. I wanna take the 'lazy' label off me but I just have a lot of trouble getting off my *** and doing work.

2 I look at too much porno, I should really stop. On the surface I'm a religious person but this is one inner struggle I always have to fight. In b4 "nothing wrong with porno." To me, there is a lot long with it.

 

[victra♥]

2 I look at too much porno, I should really stop. On the surface I'm a religious person but this is one inner struggle I always have to fight. In b4 "nothing wrong with porno." To me, there is a lot long with it.

lol Chok.

I get distracted really easily.

 

[choknater]

Just being honest

 

[momochuu]

I'm far too quiet. As you can tell from my title, I'm not too confident either. I barely even talk to my own family.

I'm not sure when it started. Probably from moving so much. Around new people, I'm afraid of saying things that would make them dislike me, so I just won't talk at all.

There's also the slight jealousy. I just keep that bottled up, though.

They're annoying flaws, but no one's perfect. Not being so shy would be nice.

 

[victra♥]

Just being honest

I'd consider that to be a flaw as well Chok.

XDDD

 

[choknater]

Hmph! It was the point of this thread for me to let it out

 

[Overload]

I'm a lazy ******* who procrastinates all the time and am almost never motivated to do anything.

 

[Peeze]

Incredibly impatient and callously cocky.
I'm also a fan of alliterations.

 

[TigerWoods]

I'm easily irritated, but I usually bottle it up with a smile.

Bad for blood pressure

 

[AlexoftheAura]

I don't really open up to people and I lack motivation.

 

[Fuelbi]

Not exactly my biggest flaw but I am extremely lazy. I can go hungry and not even get up due to lazyness. I dont even get up to ask my parents to make me something to eat. I have to text my dad or call my grandmother so she can make me something....

 

[GunmasterLombardi]

1. I jump into conclusions without much thought. I end up looking like a scrub once a week at school, and on the boards.

2. I can be indecisive, so I ended up discussing a single topic for about a week. Sometimes I can't choose my top 3 in Brawl:

1.
2.
3.?

 

[AcesWild]

I'm not lazy per se, but I am EXTREMELY laid back and mellow. Most people see this as a good thing, but sometimes I usually don't let things bother me enough to act against them if it is a problem. It leads me to procrastinate at a top tier level and only take things seriously that I really care about (my band, music in general, family and friends).

I also get paranoid quite easily over things I know aren't true. Most recently it's been in the back of my head that I think my band is gonna kick me out even though I know they have no reason too.

 

[Squall LeonHeart]

I know that I have a health problem and my family thinks i am delusional. I ask the doctors about it and they say it's fine but I feel like my heart stops sometimes, am I crazy?

 

[ru5514n]

I can be very impatient with people. For example, if I explain a math problem to someone and they still don't get it, I become very frustrated and irritable (and having an accent doesn't help).

I also don't talk too much, because if I feel I can't say anything funny or relevant, people might not like me. This results in taking a long time to find friends.

 

[sammy p]

i.... laugh.... at EVERYTHING!! lol
trust me, its bigger than you think!
i could laugh at something, and it could be VERY hurtful to someone, depending on what they said to me first!
its not that i MEAN to hurt other people. but you guys know my personality! hah
im just.... a little TOO over energetic

also, i do NOT concentrate... again, personality problem.

and last but not least, i spend waaay too much time indoors! i dont know what it is, but i guess im jsut an indoors person in an outdoors town!
that can make me feel like a HUUUGE outcast at times

 

[highfive]

Too easy on people who make bad mistakes.

 

[GreenKirby]

No I won't share my flaws

^That should give the most obvious of hints to what it is.

 

[Healer]

I suck at brawl lolz jk. I tend to try to be too nice, and I think i'm a bit too soft (not crying soft just like I feel i get stepped on soft)

 

[TheLake]

Very very very stubborn

and very incompatent...and insecure somtimes

and put too many "ands" in sentences

oh im very lazy too

 

[DTKPch]

I often consider myself to be the threshold of skill in whatever it is I'm doing. If I'm better than someone at melee, I consider them to be bad at melee, and if they beat me, I consider them to be good. The point is that while some people will say, "They're bad relative to me," I end up thinking, "They're bad on an arbitrarily defined scale." This is more of a problem in areas where I'm actually skilled, because I end up holding everyone to a higher standard, and thus may consider them incompetent even when they're performing well above average.

Also, I'm ridiculously stubborn. Good luck changing my mind in just about anything.

 

[sammy p]

Too easy on people who make bad mistakes.

I suck at brawl lolz jk. I tend to try to be too nice, and I think i'm a bit too soft (not crying soft just like I feel i get stepped on soft)

totally agreed!

 

[Airgemini]

I definately need a big confidence boost. I'm shy around lots of new people, family, and I'm pretty quiet around everyone I'm not familiar with. Also I'm pretty easy to get pushed around because I'm not really a violent type and won't complain if I think something's wrong even though I should.

I also tend to switch moods a lot.

 

[Space-knight]

2 I look at too much porno, I should really stop. On the surface I'm a religious person but this is one inner struggle I always have to fight. In b4 "nothing wrong with porno." To me, there is a lot long with it.

Hey don't feel bad. I know people who struggle with that to. They are religious as well. You just have to do the best you can and take it one day at a time. And yes you are right there is something wrong with it.

I too struggle with self worth. It is something I think everybody goes through. Not to say people don't have differing levels of it, or to say that it is not something to think about. I have found that reading the Bible really helps me with my problems. Reading the gospel mainly. Cause it is all about someone who loves me no matter what. Jesus. Just mentioning it cause I think it will help. Does me.

 

[Cease Tick]

2 I look at too much porno, I should really stop. On the surface I'm a religious person but this is one inner struggle I always have to fight. In b4 "nothing wrong with porno." To me, there is a lot long with it.

Lol choknater you should consider editing that....

On topic: I am afflicted with a similar struggle with procrastinativeness to that of other posters. For example I should be doing homework right now but instead I'm talking about how procrastinatory I am.

Additionally I have a tendency to antagonize others with my sesquipedalian loquaciousness.

 

[.Marik]

I lack any motivation, procrastinate, (I usually never finish things), and I'm a genuine slacker that loves typing up posts on SmashBoards instead of cleaning his room or accomplishing things with his life.

I also play Yoshi.

And I sometimes fall into depressive rages, and it negatively affects everyone around me.

 

[DtJ Jungle]

Jealousy issues + Anger issues = me

 

[.Marik]

Jealousy issues + Anger issues = me

I would hate to see you in a relationship, lol.

 

[DtJ Jungle]

I've been in one for 17 months.

 

[.Marik]

I've been in one for 17 months.

It was a joke, and the statement looked really bad from an online perspective, lol. :D

Hope you're not offended or anything, I wasn't being serious.

 

[DtJ Jungle]

lol no im not, we're good

/brofist

Sometimes i wonder how i do it myself

 

[Brinzy]

Bump.


Also I'm passive-aggressive.

 

[D13]

I'm too broad-minded. My lack of opinion on many topics tends to kill conversation.

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

I'm lazy, immature, and people cant seem to take me seriously. (i was called immature and an idiot by my own friends behind my back...well...they arent my friends anymore.)
And when im angry, its easy for me to take it out on my parents...so i get grounded. a lot.
And, i dont take compliments well. Getting compliments is a scary thing for me because i dont know what to do. I really have no clue on how to react to getting complimented (cuz its usually for drawings since thats the one thing im most confident in). I usually just say thanks in a really flustered tone and try to change the subject.