It says something about your hatred and fear of homosexuality that you're not even wiling to try to be attracted to a man, even though you believe it's a choice and therefore you should be able to change right back. I think that's the real reason you refuse to try it. I don't believe it's just because we won't believe you.
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I do not hate gay people, and do not fear them, or homosexuality.
I honestly can tell you, you cannot try to be attracted to someone, that is like trying to like eating mustard when you think that stuff tastes bad.
Also, social ridicule, abandonment by friends, rejection by family and ingrained beliefs would prevent me from being gay, and my own choice against it, due to these factors.
Maybe gay people lack some of these, solid beliefs, raised to see it as something not to do, their family may accept them for being gay, and therefore, are ok with doing it, their friends won't mind.
It is hard changing what you believe in, i have changed my beliefs before on alot of things that affect me and deal with it ever day, and it hurts, I am sorry guys, and I may not have gone through what you have due to having such a radically different beliefs, but my beliefs too, I don't mind to outside pressure, but the internal s what gets me, it hurts when my own mind feels inclined toward a different thing than what I know is right.
It sucks to have to change ideas, I may not have dealt with the mental anguish of attempting to straighten out from being gay.
But my beliefs have gone through major changes before, and I am constantly in doubt, it hurts, and sometimes I just give up and feel lost, sorry that I haven't been sympathetic, but I just now realized to apply my major changes in belief, and relate to how you guys may feel sometimes.
I used to be very evolutionist, and now do not believe in evolution, but with it all over TV, school, news, it is hard, trying to believe in something else after believing in evolution so wildly for so many years, to the point I read about it, talked about it, even made stories about it, now I constantly feel beaten down because of how it is everywhere, and my own mind trys to tell me that is seems right.
Please, I am just trying to relate to you guys.