valakmtnsmash4
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My deepest condolences to you Das Koopa. Thank you for doing so much for this community for a year and a half, and please do not feel this is an obligation. Health comes first and foremost, and as all the others have said, make sure youre in the best state you can be. This isnt your job, and thanks for taking time to do all this in the first place.Alright, so here's a very long explanation for my absence & my plans for the future. This is long and (probably) a bit depressing of a read, and the first veers into off-topic stuff, but this is the only time I've been this inactive since I started doing stuff and I think I should explain.
My mother's health declined significantly. She has been ill since 2014 after getting right-sided heart failure from amidarone poisoning, but her health showed no steady decline until this year. She had been in the hospital on and off a large number of times this year, seeming to worsen with each trip, which we frankly didn't grasp until a few days ago since she recovered well each time.
In September, she fell, which damage her hand and made her need a lot more assistance than she normally requires. This negatively affected my sleep schedule to the point where I was unable to do much of anything for roughly a month beyond meager updates. It was very hard to be committal because I never got more than three hours of sleep at a time. I didn't resent this since we assumed she would approve, and she slowly did, but she had to go in to the hospital for the third time this year due to poor lung conditions.
This time, unfortunately, her pulmonary fibrosis and pulmonary edema worsened to the point where she had to go onto the ventilator after a few days. This was her fourth crash this year. Her first was brought on by a kidney infection in February, her second seemed spontaneous and occurred in June, her third occurred in early July while in the hospital for her second (also seemingly spontaneous), and her fourth occurred in mid-late October after her hand and physical ability had improved from her fall. Again, there was no outside factors we could find causing this, meaning her lungs themselves were in decline.
She never improved outside of one day where her pO2 was normal while at 100% oxygen on the ventilator. She developed a couple of infections, and eventually her 02 levels dropped from 90s to the low-mid 80s (still while on the maximum settings.) My dad and I were aware of how bad this looked, and a day later we received a call that she had gone into cardiac arrest. We were able to be there with her, but she passed away despite the best efforts of our hospital. She was simply too ill.
This happened on November 7th, around 9 days ago. I loved her very, very much, and her declining health and eventual death have affected me greatly. We managed to get in a lot of time, and the night before she fell when things started to get stressful, we had a big dinner as a family that I will never forget.
I post this now because I will progressively be moving back into updating scoring, the PR database, my thread, etc, since she nor my dad (who is alive and well, thankfully) would not want me to give up things I have enjoyed doing. However, the pace will be slow.
Now, the offseason of the PGR (from early December-late January) means I can focus on OrionRank in December, and I will still put forth a lot of help with that (I haven't lately for aforementioned reasons) as well as a region ranking project I announced via reddit:
https://www.reddit.com/r/smashbros/comments/7c3m5h/announcement_which_regions_are_the_best_a_region/
...As my mental state hasn't been the best, I have put forth nothing into this project since posting the announcement beyond the 10% of it I had done by the time I made the post, and I intend for it to be finished by the end of the month. This should be manageable.
Now, I will be fine, but I definitely am taking life in general very slowly right now. I'm doing productive things when I can, taking my mind off things when I can, coming to terms with what life will be now, etc. I do not intend to quit my work with Smash at all but the articles & projects I work on will continue to be slow in the coming months between the dedicated work required for the rankings and my lack of drive. I am making efforts to not sulk into a depressed mess because I do not want to ever be that, and nobody I know or have known would want me to be that.
Thank you to the people who appreciate the work I put in, thank you to @freeziebeatz for being an enormous help and a great partner for these projects for a year now to the point where you've improved and do most of the work (I'm sorry), thank you to TDK and Jaguar and everybody else who puts in archiving info, thank you to the 4BR for being a huge help, and I love this community and just wanted you guys to know everything.
I plan to put in a lot of work tonight in particular so you might expect an October update within a few hours. Once I'm caught up on November, I will continue my region ranking project.
I may hand over the PR topic to somebody else, but I can slowly update it over the next 2-3 months if I keep it.
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