The Unhappy Thread

[Smooth Criminal]

Ugh.

Paaaaatience.

Smooth Criminal

 

[Hitstun]

My insomnia's been kicking in lately, so I've just been a moody little s*it all week.

God, I hate feelings.

Try ASMR on YouTube. It helps me w/ my insomnia.

 

[Hitstun]

My insomnia's been kicking in lately, so I've just been a moody little s*it all week.

God, I hate feelings.

Try ASMR videos on YouTube. They helped me.

 

[SomewhatMystia]

Job hunting is becoming a bit demoralizing again, especially since this last interview gave me a bit of attitude about not working after graduation, because I was taking care of my Alzheimer's-afflicted grandmother, for christ's sake.

 

[PsychoIncarnate]

People say I need to have confidence but I'm still not sure how to JUST have confidence

I can't just wake up one day and be confident

I also think it's weird some people with hate you specifically because you don't have confidence

I don't have a specific example but I've heard it in the past

I mean, I can understand not caring about someone, but caring in a negative fashion?

 

[ShyGuy16]

I don't know how much longer I have until all my friends outgrow me again. My best friend just finished college and is working all the time, and my only other friend is off making wedding plans with her guy. Don't get me wrong, I couldn't be happier for them, but I dropped out of college for reasons and have had a difficult time motivating myself to either go back or find a permanent job here, which in this area is either the shipyard or hard labor. No matter what I do I feel like I'll have to go it alone, and will make the wrong decision, or worse, try and fail again.
...On top of that, I think I might need psychiatric evaluation. I've always felt that there was something "wrong" with me, but I haven't the foggiest what it could be. People around me note when I behave oddly, or don't pick up on a social cue the first ten times or so, among a myriad of self esteem issues and lots of crying. But once again, I can't seem to get any support. Two of my brothers have seen a specialist and seem much more adjusted now as opposed to before. Meanwhile, I begged and pleaded my parents to help me since I was about ten, but they thought I was just joking, despite having seen all this firsthand. Now I'm in my 20's and all the little weird things I do have gotten worse and more noticeable... Eh, I'm probably just whining over nothing.

Sorry kids, prolly a little too unhappy for the unhappy thread, but I do feel just a little better.

 

[Lore]

Go see one if you think it will help. You're in your twenties, and it really does help. Hell, I'm about to make an appointment myself. I've been struggling with depression for the last few weeks, and it's been rough.

 

[Wyntir]

Finally home sweet home! I can b**** in peace now without the annoying admins on here lol ( no offense )

Anyway it's a crock of s*** that Mortal Kombat X is skipping the Wii U!!! WTF!!!!

I hope Silent Hills doesn't also skip. The Wii U is a fantastic console. Damn Nintendo needs to do more business with 3rd party game studios ( netherrealm n activision )

 

[Nooph]

i haven't been doing the whole "e-sports" thing for a long while. the only other game i've played on a competitive level is team fortress 2. i made the decision today to "retire" from tf2 for smash since the smash community seems so much nicer, and i find smash to be more fun than tf2.
a bit of an insight on the competitive tf2 community and more on why i left it if you want it:

Spoiler

i don't like tf2's community. it's horrid. everyone there is so mean and cynical. i feel as though the community is just a big circlejerk that strokes the ***** of the high-level players. it's like the high-levels have a cult that everyone follows unquestioningly. the daily activities of a competitive tf2 player include talking about either the metagame, individual mechanics of the game, the high-level players, or players near your skill level. you can't ever just talk about movies showing that weekend or anything. i've tried before, and nobody in my mumble even knew what movies were showing that weekend. i did find tf2 fun, but talking about it and only it every day for a year and a half made it get stale for me. there's that, and the community just acts like a cesspool of immature, spoiled children. if anyone else is having fun, they're immediately a ****** because they're having fun. there's no other reason beyond that. it's like they hate people having a good time, because every time someone does have a good time, fifty different people trash talk them. on top of all of this, competitive tf2 is an utterly boring thing to watch. (text because i can't link until i get 10 posts whoopsie youtube.com/watch?v=OalWDhYfdeg) it's basically watching two teams shoot rockets around corners until someone moves forward, and moving forward can take anywhere between two to ten minutes. i'm sure someone from the tf2 community's going to find this post and call me a ******, but i don't care. it's an awful community and i'm glad i'm not a part of it anymore.
/end rant

anyway, i'm a little upset about leaving the community because out of all of the awful people in, i've made a few close friends playing the game. even though it's an online game and these are online relationships, it feels as though we've all gotten to know each other and bonded like real friends would. i feel rather unhappy that they'll probably all stop talking to me since we really don't have anything in common other than tf2. i suppose if a video game was the only thing keeping us all together, then maybe they weren't as close to me as i thought. i don't know. you know what they say, though; when one door closes, another opens. i hope i can find some homies in the smash scene to socialize with.

 

[Lore]

Yeah **** the tf2 community for the most part. The artists are cool, but the players are often awful.

 

[BlueZard]

Feeling pretty frustrated.
So, this is a REALLY long story that I'd rather not discuss, so I'll just skip to what happened recently:

So basically, there was drama on this other forum I go to.
I accidentally bothered someone during conversation, and then some user sends me a hateful private message, getting all up in my face about how no one cares about my opinions and how I should "shut up"... And she was cursing as well... Later, I encountered her upon entering a chat room. Other users were complaining to this one person about how she can't mind her own business and that she's rude to everyone. So I come and say that "If you were nicer to people, then this wouldn't be happening since no one would have any reason to be mad, as they wouldn't be holding such a huge grudge against you." (Can't remember what my exact words were, but something along those lines.) And so some stuff happened, but eventually the user got so fed up and quit the forum completely.

But apparently she told the guy who I had accidentally bothered in conversation (and had since made up with him) that I had "disrespected" her, and so now I find out that they're friends and then the guy is getting all angry at me. He said he was cutting all ties with me, and that all deals we made were off. And then he quits the forum as well. And apparently, a friend of mine found out that he was saying some pretty rude stuff. He was saying that he hoped "StarClan DOESN'T light her way" (he's a fan of the Warriors series), and basically he was just being really hateful about me.

Fast forward to this morning. I get a message from the same guy. He said that he was actually never my friend in the first place, that he was only using me as a tool ever since he first joined, and that our relationship was just a bunch of lies...

Oddly enough, though, he never deleted me from the 3DS Friend List. He still appears on mine, and it still shows when he's online. Hmm...

But yeah... That is partially the reason why I joined this forum, actually. Smashboards is WAY more active and under control in comparison to the other forum I go on, so I'm pretty sure nothing like this will happen to me here.

 

[Pachinkosam]

Stuff happen to me in smashboards in the past but mostly just ignore them theres people in this world who will back stab you.

 

[Rie Sonomura]

I'm feeling very hopeless. I got rejected from two jobs I had interviews for which had a lot of promise. And the thing is as some of you may know I've been unable to get a job since my last seasonal one in 2012, and even got scammed in July with a "work from home" scam. But that's something else.

What makes it worse is the fact that if this keeps up, I'll eventually outlive my parents, and I'll have nowhere to go to. I'll be one of those hobos living under a bridge begging passersby for money. I had hoped to live a wonderful life, but it seems that I'm doomed for the opposite.

I for the most part blame myself and the choices I made during college. I knew I never shoulda gone to that social group; two of the girls I instantly bonded with there would leave me soon after and I'd just have more problems. I put my priorities in the wrong places by choosing trying to maintain friendships over studying, and it's too late to take any of it back.

This is the worst I've felt in a long time, worse than when those girls stopped being my friend or when I had to break up with a guy I was dating online (which thankfully I am still friends with him at least). I just feel so hopeless and I think I just might as well give up on everything.

And also -- I feel like I'm too busy for friends. In fact only one takes the time to call or Skype me every day, and I guess I feel jealous that no other friends do that? Is she being too clingy? I'm not sure anymore...but I'm being the opposite to other friends, and one has deleted me from Skype because I didn't contact her since her birthday. I feel like the worst friend ever. Especially since I think the reason some of my earlier friendships ended was ironically because I was the one being too clingy.

Worst, I basically put off a lot of things until the situation in my life improves. That includes talking to friends.

Tl;dr - I don't know how to friend.

 

[Giygacoal]

i haven't been doing the whole "e-sports" thing for a long while. the only other game i've played on a competitive level is team fortress 2. i made the decision today to "retire" from tf2 for smash since the smash community seems so much nicer, and i find smash to be more fun than tf2.

I've had enough trouble with my semi-local Smash scene to have to leave, but yeah in general smash is much better off than most communities in anything.

 

[Creo]

I'm feeling very hopeless. I got rejected from two jobs I had interviews for which had a lot of promise. And the thing is as some of you may know I've been unable to get a job since my last seasonal one in 2012, and even got scammed in July with a "work from home" scam. But that's something else.

What makes it worse is the fact that if this keeps up, I'll eventually outlive my parents, and I'll have nowhere to go to. I'll be one of those hobos living under a bridge begging passersby for money. I had hoped to live a wonderful life, but it seems that I'm doomed for the opposite.

I for the most part blame myself and the choices I made during college. I knew I never shoulda gone to that social group; two of the girls I instantly bonded with there would leave me soon after and I'd just have more problems. I put my priorities in the wrong places by choosing trying to maintain friendships over studying, and it's too late to take any of it back.

This is the worst I've felt in a long time, worse than when those girls stopped being my friend or when I had to break up with a guy I was dating online (which thankfully I am still friends with him at least). I just feel so hopeless and I think I just might as well give up on everything.

And also -- I feel like I'm too busy for friends. In fact only one takes the time to call or Skype me every day, and I guess I feel jealous that no other friends do that? Is she being too clingy? I'm not sure anymore...but I'm being the opposite to other friends, and one has deleted me from Skype because I didn't contact her since her birthday. I feel like the worst friend ever. Especially since I think the reason some of my earlier friendships ended was ironically because I was the one being too clingy.

Worst, I basically put off a lot of things until the situation in my life improves. That includes talking to friends.

Tl;dr - I don't know how to friend.

Sounds like you're having some troubling times. . .
About your job situation; All I can really advise is that you keep making the attempt to make something happen. Not that you said you would, but giving up would only accelerate the problems and fears that are concerning you at the moment, and you certainly wouldn't want anything to become worse. Your college years. . . In general, I feel as if we all / everyone has made life decisions we look back on and think "What was I doing?" or what-have-you. I'm not saying don't think about it, nor am I saying don't regret it (I do it myself for some of my happenings, so I wouldn't want to come off as being hypocritical), but at least come to the understanding that what has happened has happened, and you can't change that. Things could have gone better, I'm sure, but they didn't. Try your best to at least make due with what you have now, you know? I realize that may sound cliche to an extent, but it really is the best course of action to take.

Your friends. . . You know, not this will necessarily make you yourself feel any better, but I sometimes go weeks on end without hearing from my friends. I'm not really the type to "hit people up", and so often it seems like I'm waiting quite a while for anyone to say anything (on top of not having many "friends" to begin with). I'd be lying if I said I didn't question their 'validity' as friends towards me, for a lack of a better word. Do they like me? Is something wrong with me? Do people just not really care? It's a pessimistic mindset to have, but for some people, it's hard to let yourself think of anything otherwise. Know that sacrifice doesn't necessarily make you a bad person, though. Sacrifice is required to gain in this world, however fortunate / unfortunate that may sound or be. If you feel that's the best course of action to take for your life and your future happiness / well-being, well then I would say there isn't anything wrong with that. You've your reasons, and any real friend should be able to understand that you may not have all of the downtime in the world. I had said this to you the last time you had expressed some of your emotions on here; Friends don't need to be in bulk. One real friend is far superior to 10 false ones. . . Even if say there isn't one definitive friend you have, and you at least understood and realized that, your mind would become more at ease with things (being able to avoid anxiety and stress from the situation). I know I can't speak for anyone, much less yourself, but to me, I would prefer to be alone than to be with "friends" who aren't really is what I'm trying to say.

Believe you me, I've been feeling down lately myself. . . For a while actually. Different reasons, to be sure, but feeling down nonetheless. I've had my share of similar employment struggles too. Took me years, actually, but something did eventually come up. Not the best by any means, but something. I've been in your position of having the thought of feeling hopeless, and just wanting / believing giving up would be better, but unless you get lucky, that won't be the case. It's hard, I know. . . And if I knew all of the right answers, I'd be helping you and myself at this very moment. Life is different for every person, whether good or bad. Just don't think that you're not worth anything, Rie. It is in fact the opposite; As an individual, you are aging every second of the day, and it adds up, but don't believe it's too late to accomplish yourself. A strong will isn't the say-it-all answer, but it has the potential to go a long way.

 

[Rockman.EXE]

I feel so betrayed... My girlfriend (long distance..) of 2 months just told me last night how she hasn't enjoyed talking to me, and how she'll never be in love with me. I think she blocked my number and she blocked me on everything.. We were best friends for 6 months. I just don't get how someone could cut me off like that... I'm sorry if I sound like a crybaby but I'm just so hurt and betrayed.

 

[Smooth Criminal]

This day is kinda ****ty. Didn't know my own dreams could exhume deeply buried feelings.

Hopefully I can sleep it off.

Smooth Criminal

 

[Hana Na Tahou]

Getting out of a bad relationship, Seasonal job ending, no friends, couldn't afford to go to Shape V even though i was invited. All first world problems, but gosh do they add up :/

 

[Sari]

My life has been really crappy recently.

I'm trying to major in biochemistry, though I almost failed Bio in 10th grade, and I'm not doing the best in AP chem (I usually need someone to specifically tell me what to do when doing experiments, and when I answer a question to the class it's wrong most of the time). I took a quiz on Friday and I had no idea how to do any of the problems. The next thing I knew the period was over and I had barely wrote anything down. I asked some people who took the exact same quiz the following period, and they said they didn't have a problem with it at all.

I barely have any friends in real life, and while I sometimes prefer that (I'm not really much of a "hang-out" kind of guy), I do feel lonely when I'm stuck at a lunch table with people that probably don't like me.

As for my "game life," similar to what Nooph said, I've started to really hate the TF2 community. I'm part of some TF2 clan, though I feel that they don't like me. Whenever I go to one of the clan's servers, they either ignore me or make sarcastic remarks whenever I say something. If it wasn't them that said it, it would be random players on the server saying that I flat-out suck. I've taken a big break from playing TF2 (almost 2 months so far), and I'm not sure if I should go back.

I also tried to get into the whole trading scene of TF2, but that didn't work out either. There's a website known as SteamRep that tries to stop scammers on Steam, and has their own forum. I tried to help out users who didn't know what to do, though one day I accidentally misguided someone, which resulted in AcesGamer-a popular TF2 youtuber with +70,000 subs that I kind of liked-essentially calling me dumbass and to stop trying to help others.


It seems like wherever I go (with the exception of SmashBoards so far), I'm always ostracized by everyone. Honestly, if it weren't for Sm4sh and videogames in general, I'm not sure what I'd do.

 

[Genocyde]

- Being unemployed kinda sucks. Being at home post-college like this really makes the efforts made to actually earn a degree seem futile. There are no art/graphic design jobs remotely close to where I live at currently, so until then I gotta shift through online applications for ****ty jobs I don't give a **** about until I have a stash to move. So it's a either be stuck at home and feel like a bum or go work at Burger King.... and still feel like a bum.

- My hair is thinning out badly. I was miserable for most if not all of my teenage years, but if there was one thing I liked about myself, it was my hair. It was thick, coarse, and I had felt for a long time it was a redeeming feature as far as my overall appearance was concerned. I got a haircut about three years ago because cornrows just wasn't my thing anymore, but a friend drew my attention to my balding crown soon afterwards and I was immediately devastated.

I struggle to be confident sometimes, and it's a ****ty feeling to look in a mirror and know your hair is gone before you're even 22. It can really be a detriment to your self-esteem. I really hate seeing guys my age or older sporting a full head of hair as if nothing's wrong yet I have to find ways to hide my head.


- I feel like I'm always alone. I've always been a reserved laid-back loner, but sometimes I feel like not having any real friends is keeping me from enjoying more out of life. Common things people enjoy like bowling, shopping at a mall, playing paintball, eating an expensive restaurant you've never tried before, etc. are infinitely more fun when you've got a good friend around but I just don't have anybody around.

I'm just stuck by myself almost all the time, without the option of hitting someone up to chill. I never felt like I fit in with any group...like I'm just there by association but not an essential piece of the puzzle. Even if I get to know someone, they'll most likely end up being a mere acquaintance and nothing more. I've met and got along with a few people in college who I felt a connection with, but nowadays I'm lucky if they answer a mere Facebook message.

Which brings me to the next thing that's been eating me...

- There was a girl in my department whose been on my mind every single day since I've left. She had a lot of qualities that I found very attractive once I had gotten to know her, and we were cool with one another. I told her how I felt about her right before I graduated, but she doesn't reciprocate the same feelings, sadly. The last time I spoke to her was maybe four months ago, because I'm not even sure which way I should even approach a conversation with her. Part of me wants to leave it alone.

It's been giving me a lot of pain because I feel like I may never see her again which is killing me because she has a pretty unique aura about her and she's a sweetheart to boot. There may be a chance I can see her before the year is out, but until then my insides still occasionally feel like someone punched a hole though my chest and forgot to pull their arm back out.

 

[MewtwoMaster2002]

- Being unemployed kinda sucks. Being at home post-college like this really makes the efforts made to actually earn a degree seem futile. There are no art/graphic design jobs remotely close to where I live at currently, so until then I gotta shift through online applications for ****ty jobs I don't give a **** about until I have a stash to move. So it's a either be stuck at home and feel like a bum or go work at Burger King.... and still feel like a bum.

- My hair is thinning out badly. I was miserable for most if not all of my teenage years, but if there was one thing I liked about myself, it was my hair. It was thick, coarse, and I had felt for a long time it was a redeeming feature as far as my overall appearance was concerned. I got a haircut about three years ago because cornrows just wasn't my thing anymore, but a friend drew my attention to my balding crown soon afterwards and I was immediately devastated.

I struggle to be confident sometimes, and it's a ****ty feeling to look in a mirror and know your hair is gone before you're even 22. It can really be a detriment to your self-esteem. I really hate seeing guys my age or older sporting a full head of hair as if nothing's wrong yet I have to find ways to hide my head.


- I feel like I'm always alone. I've always been a reserved laid-back loner, but sometimes I feel like not having any real friends is keeping me from enjoying more out of life. Common things people enjoy like bowling, shopping at a mall, playing paintball, eating an expensive restaurant you've never tried before, etc. are infinitely more fun when you've got a good friend around but I don't have them. I'm just stuck by myself almost all the time, without the option of hitting someone up to chill. I never felt like I fit in with any group...like I'm just there by association but not an essential piece of the puzzle. People gave me a really hard time during middle school/high school, so that might contribute to how "cold" I can seem to others.

Even if I get to know someone, they'll most likely end up being a mere acquaintance and nothing more. I've met and got along with a few people in college who I felt a connection with, but nowadays I'm lucky if they answer a mere Facebook message.

Which brings me to the next thing that's been eating me...

- There was a girl in my department whose been on my mind every single day since I've left. She had a lot of qualities that I found very attractive once I had gotten to know her, and we were cool with one another. I told her how I felt about her right before I graduated, but she doesn't reciprocate the same feelings, sadly. The last time I spoke to her was maybe four months ago, because I'm not even sure which way I should even approach a conversation with her. Part of me wants to leave it alone.

It's been giving me a lot of pain because I feel like I may never see her again which is killing me because she has a pretty unique aura about her and she's a sweetheart to boot. There may be a chance I can see her before the year is out, but until then my insides still occasionally feel like someone punched a hole though my chest and forgot to pull their arm back out.

I know how that feels...except maybe the hair part because I never really cared that much about it. I may have a balding crown...can't tell if it's balding or not.

Graduated a little over a year ago. Still working part time at a retail store. Not what I imagined post-college life to be. Most of my female friends I could have considered dating during college live nowhere near me since I moved back home, so I can't say I have any luck in that area either.

 

[InfiniteTripping]

I'm balding and I couldn't give two ****s about it. I'm wearing my hair long as long as I can, then I'll just shave it off. A shaved head looks masculine. Some people can't pull it off though. They just don't have the shape of head that works for it... I think I can pull it off though. If I can't, I'll fake it or wear bizarre wigs.

That being said, I've been through an enormously ****ty last four years. I won't say too much about it but that it is really a miracle that I am still alive. I'm pretty optimistic about the future as a result though. Though I am living at home right now I have a stable if small income, and the great thing is I have no debts, no children, nothing holding me down. A lot of kids my age are just swamped with commitments, obligations... I am free to go anywhere and do anything. I have very little commitments. Some see that as depressing, when you only have yourself, but that's really the best thing about my situation. There's no way it could get worse from here, either. I feel like the dark days are behind me now.

Whenever you're stalled out on life, you just have to remember there's always stuff you can work on. I am focusing on getting healthy and going through some of my personal stuff that I don't use anymore and selling that off. You really just got to think about what you can move forward with and MOVE. Not to be Tony Robbins or anything, but there is a lot of crap in life that you can't do anything about... but there's always the self, and little things you can improve yourself.

 

[Genocyde]

I know how that feels...except maybe the hair part because I never really cared that much about it. I may have a balding crown...can't tell if it's balding or not.

Just take two mirrors facing opposite of each other.

Male pattern baldness runs on both sides of my family, so I can't say it's unexpected chance. Still, I didn't think it would come this early. I don't want to shave my head without packing on some muscle and hair growth formulas are completely out of the question. I'd rather hit the gym and try to look like Dwayne Johnson lite than sacrifice my libido.

Graduated a little over a year ago. Still working part time at a retail store. Not what I imagined post-college life to be. Most of my female friends I could have considered dating during college live nowhere near me since I moved back home, so I can't say I have any luck in that area either.

I was actually dreading graduation day somewhere around junior year because I knew things were going to suck once I got back home. There's not enough opportunity for jobs like it was 15+ years ago, and making it where you wanna be resides on who you know moreso than how good you are.

 

[Sari]

And to think that my life wasn't already stressfu (I know that this may not exactly fit into this thread, but it's making me unhappy and l need some help).

There was some girl walking to class and I was behind her a bit. I thought that she looked like another girl in one of my classes, so I glanced at her for about 2 seconds to see if she was. But then she turned around and saw me staring at her. Now I think that she thinks that I was checking her out or something like that. She sits at my lunch table though talks to the other people (she's not my friend). I tried to tell her ("Hey I need to tell you some...") but then her friend came and I said never mind.

Does anyone think that I should tell her what happened, just so she can think that I'm not some sort of pervert?

 

[SomewhatMystia]

To be perfectly honest, if she thinks you just glancing at her for about two seconds makes you a pervert, then that's an issue on her end. Although it probably couldn't hurt to say 'Hey, sorry about (yesterday/last week/six years ago), I thought you looked like someone in one of my classes' or something along that line.

 

[MewtwoMaster2002]

And to think that my life wasn't already stressfu (I know that this may not exactly fit into this thread, but it's making me unhappy and l need some help).

There was some girl walking to class and I was behind her a bit. I thought that she looked like another girl in one of my classes, so I glanced at her for about 2 seconds to see if she was. But then she turned around and saw me staring at her. Now I think that she thinks that I was checking her out or something like that. She sits at my lunch table though talks to the other people (she's not my friend). I tried to tell her ("Hey I need to tell you some...") but then her friend came and I said never mind.

Does anyone think that I should tell her what happened, just so she can think that I'm not some sort of pervert?

Yeah, just tell her that you thought she looked like another girl in one of your classes. It happens.

 

[SomewhatMystia]

Pushing back student loan payment, again, because I haven't found a job (even part-time!) *really* makes me feel like a lousy piece of ****. It physically hurt a little to have to go in and do that god damn deferment quiz again.

Here's hopin' I find something soon, so I never have to do that again.

Edit: And to make things worse, there's a moth in here and I am absolutely terrified of erratic flying insects.

 

[Chromepenguin]

Ironically, all of you having ****ty days and problems with your lives make me feel better about what I'm going through. It makes me realize I'm not the only one with issues...To anyone that has experienced a broken heart to the one who was your first for you know what, to anyone who loves someone who doesn't love you anymore (but used to so much) and pretends like you don't exist anymore, or to anyone who has suffered from a string of broken promises--I feel for you. I lost the person who knew me most, and who had become my best friend. It's just like there's this empty hole inside of me, and I don't feel alive anymore. When you're with someone for so long, they become a large portion of your life, and when they vanish, they take that portion of your life with them :/. However, I will continue on living life until someone else fills that void inside of me...:3. It's been one month, and I'm certainly better off than I was the first week. I hate complaining, but sometimes it just needs to come out to someone, anyone.

 

[PandaPanda Senketsu]

Today is just such a terrible day for me, i am soooo pissed off right now.

I am having a birthday party in Santa Clarita this weekend, so my parents were supposed to rent a 100 person yacht. But those morons ****ed up and got an 80 person yacht instead. So now I have to uninvite 20 of my closest friends, and I will be getting 20 less gifts because of it.

Not only that, but my personal butler said he can't uninvite them becasue he doesn't know them, so now I have to do it because they are my friends. It will take so freakin long to go down that list and call all of them, I don't even know half of there names.

This is gonna be the worst birthday party in history, i am so angry right now.

 

[Yonder]

So this one really attractivegirl I liked for months (who I sadly stopped hanging out with after I had to move) well I just found out today...

Ow...

She was "doing stuff"(sexual) with my friend apparently.

Ow. Ow. Ow.

To think this girl who I once thought was a sweet innocent virgin...to think that I thought I established a strong enough friendship that my friend possibly couldn't get any closer than what I was with her...to think someone who I shared so many interest in (we went to a Zelda concert together)...and my friend says "I'm going for her" and that he actually...deflowered her somehow. I didnt think much of it when he said that because i thought she wasnt that kind of girl. boy was i stupid. The girl who I liked the 2nd most out of any girl I've ever met (number 1 is pretty much engaged)...ow.ow.ow. I don't think I can feel right now. This isn't just heartbreak. Not just an average crush...this was special. She was like my best friend for a few months, coming over every weekend to play Zelda and watch movies...she somehow hooks up with my friend sexually. The girl who said she "wanted to find the right one". I can't feel right now.

 

[Jiggsbomb]

Well, my son has pneumonia. That makes me unhappy.

 

[Collective of Bears]

My new job is absolutely killing me. It's a 4am shift, and it's all difficult physical work. For some that may not be a big deal, but I am not a physically inclined person, not by a long shot. I can only get about halfway through my shift before I really start hurting, and it makes the whole rest of the time complete agony. By the time I get home I'm limping and can barely hold my arms up, and I only get a short amount of time before I have to go to bed so I can get up at 3 and do it all again. It's completely consumed me and I absolutely hate it. I would legitimately kill a man for a desk job right now.

 

[LIQUID12A]

Exams have completely destroyed my sleeping routine and I'm trying desperately to not fall asleep in class.

Ugh.

 

[Saikyoshi]

I feel like I've been broken with a sledgehammer.

Everything I look at reminds me of decay and the passage of time and how it awaits me and everything I love very soon.

(Oddly enough, Halloween stuff is one of the only things that don't trigger this reaction in me nowadays.)

 

[Tomlanji]

I still don't have smash... I cri evry nite...

 

[ELRACj]

Right off the bat i want to say to everyone, "**** YOU!"

*unhappy smasher leaves the thread and cries*

 

[2004Zilla]

****ing troll spamming porn on Toho Kingdom.

 

[R0Y]

This thread helps me feel like I'm not alone, thank you so much guys.

There's a girl I like in one of my classes, but my self-esteem (secretly), social skills, and desire for social interaction is so low I can't even relate to people who got turned down. That's pretty sad because paradoxically I think she likes me back. Ah well, we're all our own worst enemies.

My new job is absolutely killing me. It's a 4am shift, and it's all difficult physical work. For some that may not be a big deal, but I am not a physically inclined person, not by a long shot. I can only get about halfway through my shift before I really start hurting, and it makes the whole rest of the time complete agony. By the time I get home I'm limping and can barely hold my arms up, and I only get a short amount of time before I have to go to bed so I can get up at 3 and do it all again. It's completely consumed me and I absolutely hate it. I would legitimately kill a man for a desk job right now.

Pretty similar, but my issue is mostly with people. I had a great summer job with lots of great people, physical, not remotely retail, that started 3 hours later (and I'd be okay with 4 or 5 AM myself.)

4 AM is tough but I still have to tell you to look on the bright side, it's not an absolute graveyard shift. To work from something like midnight until 8 AM is my worst nightmare. No human is built to truly adapt to a nocturnal sleep pattern.

And a desk job...yeah, I'd love that.

- Being unemployed kinda sucks. Being at home post-college like this really makes the efforts made to actually earn a degree seem futile. There are no art/graphic design jobs remotely close to where I live at currently, so until then I gotta shift through online applications for ****ty jobs I don't give a **** about until I have a stash to move. So it's a either be stuck at home and feel like a bum or go work at Burger King.... and still feel like a bum.

Yeah, I pretty much work at Burger King now, the entire industry is pretty similar. Soul-crushing stuff, it really is, and we're very expendable. You might learn new skills and how to talk to people though. It sounds like corporate-speak, but it's really not and you could learn that in any job or recreational activity where you regularly have to deal with a lot of people or a lot of stress.

Being unemployed is even more dangerous than not making a living wage, especially if you want to pay for schooling to do something you enjoy in the future. Don't feel bad about flipping burgers, a lot of successful people started at the bottom.

Exams have completely destroyed my sleeping routine and I'm trying desperately to not fall asleep in class.

Ugh.

I didn't take exams seriously until I got a fast food job, now I feel your pain. Be strong.

 

[LIQUID12A]

I didn't take exams seriously until I got a fast food job, now I feel your pain. Be strong.

Underestimate exams and you'll regret it.

At least it paid off c:

 

[Deleted member]

****ing troll spamming porn on Toho Kingdom.

I wouldn't even say that it was porn, just really disturbing gore.