The Unhappy Thread

[KUSH.]

my tolerance break starts today



loljk not even a big deal; only a week and month

 

[Shorts]

A week and a month can be hard at times though.

 

[Grandeza]

Where to begin...

A good friend of mine started dating this girl just about 4 months ago. Over that period of time, I've gotten to know her very well and we've become very close friends. In fact, we realized that when I was 7 and she was 5, we were in the same ballet class for a few years (what are the chances?). So I hang out with the two of them and sometimes hang out with just her and everything is chill.

It's kind of tough being both their friends. She confides in me when they're having problems and it does make me feel like an awkward middle man of sorts, but I don't take sides and just listen. A bunch of friends and I went to six flags today. They were both supposed to come, but only she came. She was telling me how they're going through some problems and think they're probably going to end up breaking up soon. She said he's been a **** to her and doesn't think it'll work out. There wasn't much I really could say about it except to tell her to do what feels right.

She asked me if I would still be friends with her if they broke up which was very touching and the answer was an obvious yes, despite the awkwardness that it would probably cause. Anyways, as a few of us were heading home on the trains, she told me to feel the back of her head. there was a slight lump there which she told me was a tumor. I asked if she had gotten it checked out and said that she had and that she was very sick. This news completely took me by surprise and made a lot of prior events make sense. She told me she was sick before, but I assumed it was nothing serious and was saying that she really wanted to day to be good and take her mind off of things. And it really seems like she's struggling with the notion of losing her boyfriend in the middle of all this.

I didn't get much time to say anything about what she told me because we were with other people and it seemed like she didn't want them to know. She told me on the train that her boyfriend knows about it but has still been treating her poorly lately. Upon leaving I just told her everything would be alright, but of course I have no idea how things will turn out. I got virtually no time to ask her specifics. No idea if it's cancerous or what, just that she said she was really sick. I'm not sure what response I'm looking for from you guys, I just wanted to vent a little. She's an extremely close friend of mine now and I don't really know what to say or do, since there's so little I can do. I just want her to be alright.

edit: We're all in high school if that puts any perspective on it.

 

[PsychoIncarnate]

I wouldn't get involved with other people's relationship, unless you know enough about the situation that something is seriously wrong.

If they are just getting into fights, that's their own issues to work out.

If she's got a tumor, she should have it examined to see if something is wrong with it.

 

[Master Xanthan]

@Grandeza, if your friend hasn't seen a doctor yet, then she should as soon as possible. I'll pray for your friend, hopefully the tumor isn't cancerous.

 

[Morin0]

I stayed up playing video games instead of sleeping for school today. It is 2:07 AM and class starts at 9:00 AM and I need to get up at 7:00 AM to get ready and stuff.

<__>

edit: Also, you can't install language packs on Windows 7 Home Premium. Darn.

 

[KUSH.]

A week and a month can be hard at times though.

once you get past two weeks you start to feel ****ing awesome. plus ive been working out down here in flat *** texas where its hot as satans chode, so sweating all the thc out helps too.

 

[SnackAttack]

Update: There's a mandatory meeting today for my dorm, so maybe I'll meet some people there.

Also, I'm gonna try to hang out with some of the people in my little quad tonight. Wish me luck. I'll need it.

 

[KUSH.]

Where to begin...

A good friend of mine started dating this girl just about 4 months ago. Over that period of time, I've gotten to know her very well and we've become very close friends. In fact, we realized that when I was 7 and she was 5, we were in the same ballet class for a few years (what are the chances?). So I hang out with the two of them and sometimes hang out with just her and everything is chill.

It's kind of tough being both their friends. She confides in me when they're having problems and it does make me feel like an awkward middle man of sorts, but I don't take sides and just listen. A bunch of friends and I went to six flags today. They were both supposed to come, but only she came. She was telling me how they're going through some problems and think they're probably going to end up breaking up soon. She said he's been a **** to her and doesn't think it'll work out. There wasn't much I really could say about it except to tell her to do what feels right.

She asked me if I would still be friends with her if they broke up which was very touching and the answer was an obvious yes, despite the awkwardness that it would probably cause. Anyways, as a few of us were heading home on the trains, she told me to feel the back of her head. there was a slight lump there which she told me was a tumor. I asked if she had gotten it checked out and said that she had and that she was very sick. This news completely took me by surprise and made a lot of prior events make sense. She told me she was sick before, but I assumed it was nothing serious and was saying that she really wanted to day to be good and take her mind off of things. And it really seems like she's struggling with the notion of losing her boyfriend in the middle of all this.

I didn't get much time to say anything about what she told me because we were with other people and it seemed like she didn't want them to know. She told me on the train that her boyfriend knows about it but has still been treating her poorly lately. Upon leaving I just told her everything would be alright, but of course I have no idea how things will turn out. I got virtually no time to ask her specifics. No idea if it's cancerous or what, just that she said she was really sick. I'm not sure what response I'm looking for from you guys, I just wanted to vent a little. She's an extremely close friend of mine now and I don't really know what to say or do, since there's so little I can do. I just want her to be alright.

edit: We're all in high school if that puts any perspective on it.

Holy crap i did not know you could feel a tumor in the brain on the outside Wouldnt the skull just block it making it never noticeable?Im no medical doctor or anything but that Doesnt make sense to me. She may be vying for ur attention bro, time to smash.

 

[Luigitoilet]

Holy crap i did not know you could feel a tumor in the brain on the outside Wouldnt the skull just block it making it never noticeable?Im no medical doctor or anything but that Doesnt make sense to me. She may be vying for ur attention bro, time to smash.

dude, shut the **** up.

 

[KUSH.]

dude, shut the **** up.

Lol chillll dont take **** so srsly damn. But you actually cannot feel a tumor inside the brain

Edit i meant on the outside of the head

 

[SnackAttack]

Someone who made his username "KUSH." is an *******? Whodathunkit?

 

[Luigitoilet]

Lol chillll dont take **** so srsly damn. But you actually cannot feel a tumor inside the brain

Edit i meant on the outside of the head

read a book

 

[KUSH.]

Someone who made his username "KUSH." is an *******? Whodathunkit?

LOL u guys are so sensitive

 

[Lore]

Drop the convo, now. Only warning. Next person to continue it gets an infraction.

 

[Oneupsalesman]

I can't believe Neil Armstrong doped in space. To think I considered that guy a hero.

That's sick, how did you hear about that? :\

 

[Luigitoilet]

right now I'm unhappy because nobody gave me kudos for my awesome joke and the only person to respond to it appeared to not understand it

I can't believe Neil Armstrong doped in space. To think I considered that guy a hero.

the joke is that I got Lance Armstrong and Neil Armstrong mixed up because they're both in the news at the same time and they have the same surname.

 

[quote]

right now I'm unhappy because nobody gave me kudos for my awesome joke and the only person to respond to it appeared to not understand it



the joke is that I got Lance Armstrong and Neil Armstrong mixed up because they're both in the news at the same time and they have the same surname.

Dude... I did the same thing.

I liked the joke btw.



Serious question guys:

My grandma is trying to make me watch the Republican National Convention speeches on account of being an "informed voter." I'm not watching it on account of there being a clear bias. She got pretty heated when I said that I wasn't going to watch.

Is this a legitimate reason to not watch it?

 

[KRDsonic]

My grandma's been trying to get me to watch the political shows she watches too saying "it's things you need to know." Thing is, me and her have completely opposite political opinions so I just refuse. Not like you can force someone to watch something.

 

[Froggy]

It sucks that my closest friends live in a different country. It makes communication a *****, especially when you really need someone to talk to.

 

[Froggy]

My general mindframe right now is the most unhappy I've been in a very long time. I don't like my life right now. Everything seems bleak and I'm not hopeful I can change any of it. Everything is just bad. Late in the night is a very difficult time for me because I don't really want to go to bed because I know nothing good is going to come from tomorrow, but at the sametime there is no point in staying awake because there is nothing good about right now. I feel out of place, like I'm not supposed to be here right now. I have resent my mom since I hit puberty and today I actually found myself missing her.(I can't remember ever doing this before) Everything just feels off.

 

[Zook]

The Decemberists are going to be on a Simpsons episode, now I have to watch an episode of that show

 

[quote]

My general mindframe right now is the most unhappy I've been in a very long time. I don't like my life right now. Everything seems bleak and I'm not hopeful I can change any of it. Everything is just bad. Late in the night is a very difficult time for me because I don't really want to go to bed because I know nothing good is going to come from tomorrow, but at the sametime there is no point in staying awake because there is nothing good about right now. I feel out of place, like I'm not supposed to be here right now. I have resent my mom since I hit puberty and today I actually found myself missing her.(I can't remember ever doing this before) Everything just feels off.

I know that I'm stating the obvious here, but you have a depression.

Do you talk to your mom often? If not, that might be a good place to start. If you miss her, that definitely means something.

 

[cannedbread]

having insomnia sucks.

 

[Froggy]

I know that I'm stating the obvious here, but you have a depression.

Do you talk to your mom often? If not, that might be a good place to start. If you miss her, that definitely means something.

I've been unhappy for a while now. It hasn't really felt like depression until yesterday.

The only time I talk to my mom, is when she calls me or when I'm calling to collect the money she owes me. Talking to her is annoying. I don't like or love her. I'll call her anyways though, I need advice and I think she's the best person to consult with in this case.

 

[KRDsonic]

Bleh, I've been attempting to try to be happier but it isn't working out well. I managed to finally get my ex to block me on several sites after asking him to for a week (Though he still pretty much stalks me online) because I was getting tired of all of his lies and how often his stories would change. "I had sex with that guy several times" became "I had sex with that guy only once because i was afraid he would hate me and I trusted you not to hate me for it" (lolwut?) and "I don't talk to him anymore" because "I still talk to him and play melee with him" (I actually called him out on that one and he couldn't say anything to defend his lie other than "Hmm, now why did I say that?"). Not to mention how he told me that he and that other guy were sleeping in the same bed from time to time for the whole month before we broke up (and yet that whole month, whenever he would stay out late or not come home that night, he'd tell me he was at his friend Emily's house) so it's blatantly obvious that things were going on and I got tired of hearing him lie about it to the point where he was started to believe his own lies.

But basically, since us blocking each other, I've basically just been having a lot of hate towards him grow since I've been having time to think about everything that happened and how badly he treated me and screwed me over. The whole thing with him breaking up with me for another guy a week before my mom passed away (which, that guy ended up cheating on him shortly after haha), that kinda stuff. It also took a while to get him to finally leave the skype chat that I go to, which he was only in there to spy on me because he wanted to make sure that I wasn't saying anything at all about what happened... because, you know, after being cheated on, losing my home, and losing my mom, I totally am in a position to bottle stuff up. Of course, he still goes around reading any post of mine online that he can find to try to find something to use against me which is annoying (he'll most-likely read this post too). I'm just at a point where I feel about ready to snap at times unless I find somewhere to vent.

Oh yeah, and in other news, I'm still trying to figure out what to do with my life now that my mom's passed away and that I don't have anyone else close to me in my life, and hopefully figure out a way to move back to Houston and get an apartment and a job and start college again so I'll actually have stuff to do, since right now I can't exactly do much because I'm having to stay with my grandma while things are getting mailed to us. I would LOVE to be able to just go out with people my age and do something fun again. I can't remember the last time I've gotten to hang out with friends.

Edit: Oh yeah, the fact that he was going around posting parts of very private chat logs to some of my friends to try to turn them against me (which failed at least) was annoying too because it means he didn't have any respect for my privacy. Plus there's the fact that he started trying to talk to any of my friends online that he could find, then got mad at me when they would block him. The one that made me laugh the most is that the first time we broke up, there was a guy I ended up getting interest in during that time, and it was one of the people that my ex had an affair with which was why we ended up breaking up the first time. That guy hated my ex after that when he found out what was going on and that he was doing that stuff behind my back (he didn't know that I didn't know that my ex wasn't telling me what was going on, he thought I knew and was fine with it). Well after me and my ex broke up again this time, I started talking to that guy again because I needed someone to go to to talk to, and he's a good guy. Then later my ex found out I was talking to him, so he went to him to try talking to him too, and that guy blocked him because he wanted nothing to do with him. Then my ex went to me and complained that I made that guy hate him and that he just wanted to talk to him about a new story he was working on. It made me laugh because he got to the point where he was so used to giving excuses for things, that he was starting to run out of excuses to use. Because, you know, it's normal for someone to go to a person they haven't talked to in months that doesn't like them, to tell them about a story, right after finding out that I was talking to that guy. I found it both funny and pathetic though.

Also I have so much that I wish I could rant and vent about but it's too much to type everything out.

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

KRD, try your best not to hate. Hate is the last thing you need right now.

You are such a strong person. I havent really had a chance to talk to you that much, but from what I have seen, you have great composure and despite going through a lot, you can still keep your head up. That's great. I hope everything works out - you dont deserve this kind of stress and nonsense, especially at such a tough time in your life.

Stay strong and I hope you don't resort to hate. You are a good person. If you ever need an ear, you know where to go. We all love you here. We are a community. :D

 

[M@v]

It looks like our Corvette isn't going to make it =(. Insurance company isn't giving enough money(trying to screw us? an insurance company? SHOCKER), and theres a lot more damage then we initially thought :3

 

[Jasou]

KRD, try your best not to hate. Hate is the last thing you need right now.

You are such a strong person. I havent really had a chance to talk to you that much, but from what I have seen, you have great composure and despite going through a lot, you can still keep your head up. That's great. I hope everything works out - you dont deserve this kind of stress and nonsense, especially at such a tough time in your life.

Stay strong and I hope you don't resort to hate. You are a good person. If you ever need an ear, you know where to go. We all love you here. We are a community. :D

I fully agree with this post, you need to avoid that unnecesary stress. It's hard but it will probably help you more in the long run.

 

[-LzR-]

Still stressed as ****. Been jobless for 3 months now and I'm gonna have one final exam in a few weeks on a really hard subject that I haven't bothered studying for half a year. I'm 100% confident in failure for this exam, but I still had to pay 40€ to go in and "try". Seriously **** that ****. I wanna get over it but ****.

 

[KRDsonic]

I guess, I just have so many mixed emotions.

Lately one of my problems has been dreams. I've had so many dreams lately where my mom's in trouble and I need to save her, usually I do end up saving her in the dream. And there's times like last night where I had a dream that my ex came over to meet my family and I in person, and my mom and him talked and stuff, and somehow things got sorted out and we got back together, and I was so happy and I felt like my life was worth living again. And then I woke up and had to face reality again that my mom is dead and that my ex is gone and that I don't have anyone close to me anymore. It almost makes me want to avoid sleeping. It's weird because my whole life was centered around my mom, and that was basically what I lived every day, and now she's gone and it almost feels like, why am I even still here? It feels like there's nothing for me here. I don't really have anything to look forward to, and no one to come home to that I can talk to whenever I need to talk or anything. I'm living with my grandma currently but she isn't exactly a person that you can talk to.

 

[Reizilla]

Dude... I did the same thing.

I liked the joke btw.



Serious question guys:

My grandma is trying to make me watch the Republican National Convention speeches on account of being an "informed voter." I'm not watching it on account of there being a clear bias. She got pretty heated when I said that I wasn't going to watch.

Is this a legitimate reason to not watch it?

It's legitimate so long as you realize that anything else you can watch would likely be just as biased.


I under-performed in pretty much all of my auditions this semester. I only moved up in one group and it was more of a result of one of the people formerly above me doing way worse than normal. Just feels pretty blah knowing I should have done so much better. I guess I'll use it as motivation?

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

Boyfriend is leaving for college Saturday. Tomorrow will be the last time I see him before he goes.
It's a really weird feeling. We have spent nearly every day together this summer....and then once again we must go our separate ways for school.
It's tough. Really tough. Almost broke down and started crying a bit today....but managed to keep a straight face. I'll probably cry tomorrow....bluh.....

It's just a weird feeling. A weird and sad feeling. I'm not worried about 'us', since we have dealt with college long distanceness before....
It just sucks since we have been close since like....early gradeschool and live 5 minutes away from each other. Its weird not being near my other half. Really really weird.

....whatever. We have Skype and phones and League and vidja gaems. And I'm on 'break' (summer quarter online classes) until the end of September.....so visiting!!!! Yay

 

[Froggy]

I hate hate hate paying rent, especially when the rent is too high, I'm not happy where I live and I'm only staying there cause I don't drive and it's within walking distance to my job.

@KRDsonic: I'm really sorry that things are so bad for you right now. I think you need to find something worth living for again or set goals for yourself. I mean goals as in something you really want(it's important that you want it), and go for it. Forgive me if I'm out of line with this, but I believe your mom would want you to be happy, so try hard to be.

 

[crush]

Drop the convo, now. Only warning. Next person to continue it gets an infraction.

is anyone else tired of these mormon moderators??

good **** kush <3

 

[Jasou]

I agree with Froggy or you can find some sort of thing that makes you really happy. It's definitely a lot harder to be happy in your current position but you will definitely get by once this unhappiness goes away. There's plenty of fish in the sea too, ik you've been dating for a while but these breakups are not uncommon and you'll find a new person and they will be just as good if not better.

 

[Shorts]

I guess, I just have so many mixed emotions.

Lately one of my problems has been dreams.

They're the woooooooooorst. A few months back, I was sleeping next to my current boyfriend, while dreaming that all three of my last love interests wanted me back at the same time. o.o It's the worrrrst. But, the dreams do become less frequent, and eventually stop.

There IS a light at the end of the tunnel, just keep that firm in your mind, and you can get through most things. That's how I manage to anyways. The idea that "Hey, in the future, I will not be this sad/mad/emotional" is usually what keeps me going fresh out of a break up/unfortunate event. And remember of course, it's okay to feel all these things. Completely fine.

 

[KRDsonic]

Yeah, the light at the end of the tunnel is what's been keeping me going. I've gotten over someone in the past before, so I know I can this time, especially since this time I'm actually handling it better than the last person I had to get over. I think the main problem with this time is just everything else going on combined with it. And I'm not really used to being single either.

On the upside, I am really lucky that I managed to go back to an online community that I used to be in a couple years ago, so I've had them to support me and stuff. I've also been trying my hardest to stay positive and happy around people since that's the best way to make new friends.

 

[Pyra]

I just had the worst mental emotional breakdown that I've ever had.
Long story short... my dad wants me to go to therapy.

I'm a bad person. I'm a bad, bad person.

 

[Teran]

In my experience if you feel you are a bad person, chances are you are probably not really bad at all.

In any case I hope you get through whatever it is.