This is was going to be a long post. It’s unfortunate that it was going to be verbose, but after the tournament, driving, and the drama of the weekend I just have the steam in me left.
I’m Sorry.
Now, why am I saying sorry? People think that I’m egocentric and not that great of a guy. =/ In a nutshell, I believed that everyone viewed me as a friend, and not just an acquaintance. Furthermore, I thought that everyone knew me much better than they actually do, so my true personality isn’t known by a lot of people. So, I’m going to type out a view universal constants, and if you want to get to know me better, then give me a call, shoot me a PM.
1. I speak and write very matter of fact. It also doesn’t help that I often speak with a very straight face. If I say/write something that offends you, just imagine it as something in a documentary, since I don’t filter out good/bad things when I elaborate on a subject. I’ll try to be better in the future about this. I’m also very long winded, and write/talk in great detail since I don’t want what I say to be taken the wrong way. Furthermore if someone asks me a question, I answer it in full [to my ability] without thinking about the emotional impact it may have on others.
2. I will talk your ear off in a one to one conversation, but when in a large group I will hardly talk at all. I hate to be interrupted and in a group environment I don’t talk unless I feel I can finish my thought. Since I’m long winded, this is pretty much a given so I just give up after a few attempts of talking.
3. I have issues showing any emotion what so ever [especially in a group.] If I come off of flat, it’s because I’m epic fail in social situations.
4. If you’re being told that I’m saying X about you or someone else, come to me first. Most likely the story is wrong that’s being said. Since I elaborate a TON people tend to truncate what I’ve said into what they think is important, or might completely miss the point of what I said. If there’s a grey area on something that’s been said, TALK TO ME.
5. If you feel that I’m doing something that offends you, tell me. Don’t let small things build up into a cluster****. Most likely what I’m doing isn’t even a on purpose. I can’t fix it, if you don’t tell me.
6. A special note, to those that I told about the check I received on Christmas Day, it actually wasn’t a present. My father owed me the money for three years, and that money was actually set aside for my college tuition by ME. Since I didn’t have the money, I couldn’t continue college when I lost my scholarship. Once I stopped going to college, I moved out from my Dad’s house from my step mom/sister/brother who I was on massively bad terms with. I was then unable to save enough money to go to college, and since my father makes decent money, I cannot get federal aid until I’m twenty-five. Receiving that money means that my future has been reopened to me. It’s not that the check is sudden wealth, it was a bill payment wrapped as a gift. People that know me close, and for years knew this. I just forgot that I hadn’t told this story on in full to anyone in the Smash community.
7. I don’t like drama. I don’t like arguments. I don’t like fighting. I don’t like anything that takes away from a community. Furthermore, I don’t enjoy inflicting pain upon anyone, physical or emotional. If you feel that I’m doing anything that causes those things, let me know. We’ll talk in private and fix it.
8. I care about this community. I want it to be great. I want it to be wonderful. I always, always talk highly of everyone when we go to a tournament out of state. I always try to be behind you when you’re fighting a tough match, cheering you on. If I hear that you’ve lost, I try to find you if I can to let you know that you were amazing and cheer you up.
So once again, I’m sorry that things degenerated to this extent. I just wish that people would have come to me sooner so that we could have cleared it up. I’ll try to work on my short comings since I do wish to be friends with everyone.
Ps: The sad thing is, this was the short version. Moral of the story, talking solves problems.