im sorry what have i done
i just want to die happy please
please forgive me
dont turn me into a joke please
oh god
Dylly, I've only been back on Smashboards for like a week, and I don't know you very well, so maybe I'm not the best person to speak up and I haven't because I felt I shouldn't, but if anything I'll say this.
In the little time that I've been back; from what I've seen everyone in this thread enjoys your company. From the little interaction we've had and the posts you've made, I do too. Yeah I don't know you that well, but I don't want to see you beat yourself up like this all the time. I want you to stay, I want to get to know you better and everyone else here has and will continue to tell you the same that they've been saying: We like you and want you here.
I may not know the full details, but I know you've been through recently and I hope nothing but the best for you. And since I'm out of the loop, I won't pretend like I understand what's going on, but believe me. Whatever the case is we're all here for you. If you need to take a break, take your time. If you need to talk to somebody PM one of us.
I don't know how much help I can be, and a lot of the time I'm wrapped up with work, but if you ever need someone to lend you an ear feel free to send a PM my way.