LGBT Smashers

[Aeronite's Kiseki]

Wow, Xsyven is gay? That surprised me. I barely know you but saw you all over the picture thread. XD Sorry about your parents issue. The same with my parents. I don't think I'll ever come out to them. Maybe my brother and sister but not my parents >.< (My dad is Catholic and my mother is homophobic..)

Times are changing they need to catch up and be less stubborn to the fact y'know

 

[Xsyven]

Thanks so much for sharing your story, Xsyven (I could swear I remember you from years ago [used to be Link777], which is odd because I remember like, no one from pre-competitive Smashboards). I saw a lot of myself in it. Told myself for years that I was straight, even while looking at gay porn. I've never drank for fear of what I might say or do. Though, if my first time drunk leads to what it did for you, I'd better take it up .

Once again, thanks for sharing, and best of luck over the next few weeks.

Pre-competitive smashboards, I posted strictly in the artwork emporium, in the Official Critique Topic. If you ever posted in there, then yeah, you remember me. :D

Mormons are like, autohot.

Win! I'll post a picture of me and Guy, and you guys can tell me how sexy we are.

 

[DoH]

Have you seen Latter Days? That movie is so sweet. Except for the twist, that was gut-wrenching.

FACT: Any male who ever guest starred on Charmed has done at least one gay indie film.

 

[Aeronite's Kiseki]

really? i didn'y know that.....then again them boys are fine on Charmed XD

 

[Mr_1337]

Hm.
Interesting story, Xsyven.

I don't really know you quite like some other posters might, but nice story nonetheless.
Hope it all works out for you.

 

[SU_Remo]

Have you seen Latter Days? That movie is so sweet. Except for the twist, that was gut-wrenching.

Oh yes, Latter Days was a great flick. I watched it when I used to have LOGO. I've seen it twice, heh. I liked to see it again, hm.

 

[.:~*Momo*~:.]

Wow... was not expecting that at all. =O Such a surprise... even though I never talked to you Xsyven, I just assumed you were straight... though I guess that's not a surprise? O.o; But man that was really surprising, well I guess I'll just welcome you to the thread then! =3 You already posted here before but still... Welcome! ^^

Though it's not fair! >.< You were in the closet to most people around you and you already have a real boyfriend... I better get a boyfriend sometime soon. <.<; I mean part of the reason why I told my friend yesterday was so that I could eventually get a boyfriend... though that doesn't make sense unless I include the part where I say "Once I tell my friend I'll feel more comfy with telling it to others" and blah blah blah...

Also I hope you'll be able to move out soon since your situation (like many others) isn't a pleasant sounding one... though this is where I can probably brag but I won't. O_o; I can't imagine what it'd be like if my parents were like that, I'm so glad they aren't religious or hateful. ^^; ... I guess I kinda bragged anyway... sorry. ^^;

 

[Aeronite's Kiseki]

Also I hope you'll be able to move out soon since your situation (like many others) isn't a pleasant sounding one... though this is where I can probably brag but I won't. O_o; I can't imagine what it'd be like if my parents were like that, I'm so glad they aren't religious or hateful. ^^; ... I guess I kinda bragged anyway... sorry. ^^;

Me too, i mean id be always depressed if my parents were like that

 

[Darkfur]

My mom confronted me about being gay today, since she'd heard rumors about me. I guess I'm not careful enough when I'm drunk, but yeah, I'm gay...

I was even too afraid to come out on SWF because I know a lot of people IRL here, but it's gotten to the point where I just think-- **** it. I doubt any of the people I know in real life even check this thread out. And if they do, they'll figure it out sooner or later. Anyway, here's my story.

I've been gay since the beginning. You've all gone through that, right? But what made me weird is that though I knew I liked guys, I still considered myself to be straight. Though I'd totally look at gay porn and everything, I still considered myself to be straight. I think it was just constant pressure from my church, friends, and society that lead me to believe that -- "No -- not me. I'm not gay! Being gay is gross!" I was even homophobic.

Skip a couple of years, and I was in my freshman year of college. I was in the bookstore with my straight friend Devin, (weird that I have to mention when people are straight instead of gay...) when we ran into one of Devin's best friends from high school, Guy. Devin and Guy went to a different high school than me. What's even funnier, is that I knew him as "The Gay guy from the rival school." I noticed that Guy was buying two of the same textbooks I was. We were both taking Acting I (Acting-- my only gay vice.), and Japanese I. I was still a little homophobic at the time, but I could tell that he was a way cool guy.

Guy started hanging out with us more, since his job ended, and I realized that he was an awesome guy-- and totally smokin' hot. We ended up taking another semester of Japanese and Acting, and were in a few plays together, too. After about a year, he thinks I'm straight at the time, and we're best friends. Only I secretly think he's totally hot, right?

Still under the impression that I should live my life under my church's standards, I was at a drunken party. I didn't drink alcohol at the time, but everyone around me was totally drunk. Guy eventually cornered me in his bedroom, and spilled the beans that he had a crush on me, and that if I was gay, we'd totally be a couple. That freaked me right the **** out. I'd always thought he was good looking, but ... I never had a crush on him. . . Did I?

After a while, I realized that I did. A month went by, and every time I hung out with him, I'd think to myself "This could happen, if I only let it." But I was too afraid to. As I'm sure you've all experienced, the stereotypes that get tacked onto people as soon as they step a foot outside of the closet were just too much for me to handle. I'm totally straight on paper, other than the fact that I dress nicely and do theater. I can't handle people thinking that I'm "faaaabulooous" and stuff.

October 2007, it was my friend Haelee's birthday. As usual, they'd all be drinking alcohol. My friends begged me to drink just this one time, for her birthday present. I agreed to. But I was scared ****less as to what I might say, or what I might do with Guy around.

Well, the first few hours were okay. Since it was my first time drinking, they kept shoving drinks down my throat. Eventually, I got so drunk that I had to puke. After finishing that business, I stumbled down the hall, into Guy's room, where I passed out on his bed.

I don't know how long I was laying there. Ten minutes, fifteen minutes, two hours, but eventually Guy came in and noticed me laying there. He simply asked me "Are you okay?", but before he could even finish his sentence, I grabbed his shirt, pulled him down to me, and kissed him. One thing led to another, and I woke up the next morning naked in bed with a guy. It happened! No buttsex, or anything, but a hardcore, drunken, naked, makeout that I could barely remember happened. And it was awesome!

After we both woke up, we had a conversation-- mostly, he thought he had accidently molested me, and he felt terrible. But after some reassurance, we realized we sort of had something last night. He assured me that he wouldn't tell anyone.

The next week, we were alone in his bedroom. Still unsure of what to make of what happened. We were best friends for a year, and one night, we woke up together in a twin-sized bed naked. Well, since boys will be boys, we settled the confusion with more random lovin'. Sadly, the door didn't lock properly, and his room mate walked in on us.

"Whooooa...."

I sort of just stopped what I was doing, put clothes on, and left as fast as possible. Who only lasts a week? Anyway, I got a text from his room mate, saying that Guy had talked to him, and the secret was safe.


*sigh* Long story, right? I'll wrap it up.


Anyway, a couple months passed, and Guy and I had been secretly dating. One day, we talked it over, and we decided that he and I were allowed to call each other 'boyfriend.' We'd been kissing behind doors, in closets, behind people's backs, etc for the entire time. From October '07, until now.... when horror struck.

My mom confronted me today, saying she heard rumors. Which I couldn't doubt. Since the one night I drank for the first time, I'd become a raging alcoholic. Supposedly, we drunk dialed too many people, thought we were safe kissing behind people's backs, and said too much stuff in front of people to the point where everyone we know knows-- they just haven't said anything.

I just finally made it official to my mom, and now with SWF. Guy's in DC right now, so I'm waiting for him to get back before coming out to friends, but yeah-- I'm ready for one of the ****tiest few weeks of my life-- the coming out of the closet weeks.

Wish me luck. =/






And just because I've been wanting to say this for a long time, HAHA! I have a real boyfriend!

Wow Xsyven. Quite the emotional story. I really feel for you because when it comes to religion and stuff, my family is the same way. My cousin is Gay, and he's sort of looked down on by the family. He and his boyfriend got married in Canada now, and at the very least I'm happy for him. I really hope you and your boyfriend and stick together and help each other out during this time, and I am sure you will succeed. ^_^ Don't let you're family bring you down and be strong.

As for the alcohol thing, it would probably be a healthy decision to regulate your consumption... more than because of secrets getting out. Theres such a variety of bad things that could happen, and you may not even remember some of them. It would really stink if something happened to you that you didn't know about... and then it started to spread to people you care about. =/ I don't mean to sound like I'm telling you what to do, just making a suggestion.

Anyways Congratulations! And I wish you the best of luck in the future. :D
P.S: Your story was very exciting. I can't imagine how it must have felt to have someone walk in on you like that.

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Hey, umm...I don't know if this is an LGBT thread or just for gay guys, but at any rate, this'll probably be the first Smashboards thread I post on outside of the Brawl discussion and the threads for various regions.
I'm Lobelia Mk. IV, and I'm transgender. Nice to meet you all.

You are definitely welcome here. ^_^ It's great to have you here. I apologize that I don't know or understand too much about transgender, so I can't clearly identify with too much, but I know there were other transgender people in the thread so if you do ever have any problems or anything you need to talk about, you shouldn't have any trouble finding someone you can identify with here. ^_^

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Anyways, I have semi good news. ^_^ The situation between my boyfriend and I may be steadilly getting better.

A few days ago, we had a very big talk. I may have mentioned it before. Anyways... we decided that we were just going to ease up and see where things go. When I go back to GA, I'm not going to call him every day, and generally, I'm just going to minimize my contact with him and see if, well, he comes to me. I think he's gotten to use to me being the one to initiate everything from affection to other activities.

However we did have somewhat of a scare the other day. My boyfriend was in a bike accident on his way to school. He fell off and onto his arm and scraped up his chest, hands legs and stuff pretty bad. Someone pulled over and gave him a ride back to the apartment. I about freaked out, but he was confused and unsure of what to do so I had to take charge of the situation... even though I really don't like blood and stuff.... Anyways, I helped him clean all the cuts and bandage things as best as we could and then convinced him to go to the doctor to make sure he didn't fracture his arm.

Fortunately he's fine other than the cuts and scrapes. His arm is just a bit banged up. He said something to me that made me feel good though... He thanked me for being there for him and said he didn't know if he'd have been able to think so clearly if I hadn't been there calming him down... I didn't know what to say... It did make me feel quite a bit better.

In addition to this, last night I did a few things that really boosted my self esteem. Not only that, as a side effect of what I did, I was able to do something I never could before with my boyfriend that made us both feel very good. My hopes for my relationship getting better are higher now. =)

 

[.:~*Momo*~:.]

That's really sweet! =D I mean the accident part sounds bad but then it starts sounding like something from a sweet story. >w< You always seem to have something good to say... well not before... but it turned around and now you do! =3

 

[Bassoonist]

Hey, umm...I don't know if this is an LGBT thread or just for gay guys, but at any rate, this'll probably be the first Smashboards thread I post on outside of the Brawl discussion and the threads for various regions.
I'm Lobelia Mk. IV, and I'm transgender. Nice to meet you all.

Well I've posted in here, and I'm transgendered, so I'm pretty sure most people here accepted me. ^_^

So which are you, M2F or F2M if you don't mind saying? I'm M2F.

 

[Gennie]

The funny thing is, Xsyven, is that when there's a party or something, I drink purposely for several reasons, but one of them is to come out of the closet with my friends, very silly from my part indeed, but that's because I'm not good saying these kind of things by myself, I by no means pretend to be straight or anything, is just that no one EVER ask me about my sexuality and that pisses me off xD but anyway, most of them know by now

And I was kinda homofobic too, even knowing I was gay I never accepted it until my.. 15~16 years old, for foolish and stereotypical reasons, blame society for that

I wish you luck from now on Xsyven ^^ you're lucky for having a relationship with someone you know so well (for being your best friend), as I know how that feels

And I haven't posted in this thread before, so hi xD

 

[Evil Eye]

not expected

 

[Eor]

Livvers told me you were gay, and I was deadset "No". I remembered that you mentioned one of your gay friends came out and admitted to having a crush on you, and that was my proof against it. "If he was gay he would have a relationship with that guy, he was like one of his best friends."

Then I read the thread.

Honestly, this really surprises me.

And now I have to kill you so you don't infect the rest of us. Sorry, but you know the rules.

edit: actually, I should have seen this coming

1. you're in theater
2. you dye your hair
3. you wear makeup
4. you have terrible facial hair
5. you voted for Romney
6. you're mormon
7. you drink flavored vodka
8. you text people when you're drunk
9. you sing
10. you're a camwhore

Actually, I'm very upset I didn't recognize the effects of the disease. God****, if my gaydar is broken I'll never be safe! You might be anywhere!

edit2: in all honesty, I'm glad you came to terms of it. I'm a massive gay rights supporter, and I wish you the best of luck with everything.

 

[.:~*Momo*~:.]

He managed to somehow blind us all despite the signs! D=

 

[darkatma]

lmao DoH how good is your gaydar, how are you able to get a guy from freaking debate camp.

 

[Xsyven]

Darkatma, it really doesn't matter where he got some action. For all we know, the guy could have been totally flaming. Also, I have a question for you veteran out-of-the-closet people. Now that I'm out of the closet, am I allowed to hate flamers out loud? I mean, there are femmy guys, and that's alright-- but when some guys act more like a girl than actual girls do, that's what pisses me off.




And Momo, I'm just kickass like that.

 

[Zero Beat]

Congrats on the courage, x7.

And I agree with you. I'm not gay, but I've always hated gays acting girlier than girls too.

 

[Darkfur]

Darkatma, it really doesn't matter where he got some action. For all we know, the guy could have been totally flaming. Also, I have a question for you veteran out-of-the-closet people. Now that I'm out of the closet, am I allowed to hate flamers out loud? I mean, there are femmy guys, and that's alright-- but when some guys act more like a girl than actual girls do, that's what pisses me off.




And Momo, I'm just kickass like that.

Don't worry. =p Many of us feel that way too. I don't mind it so much if they can't help it, but if it's an act or something they put on for show, THEN it really gets on my nerves. Putting on an act like that isn't being true to yourself, it's trying to get attention and being an attentionwhore.

 

[.:~*Momo*~:.]

Like said before... flamers make it harder for the rest of us. =/ I mean I'm not anywhere near masculine... but I'm not "OMG look at me spin and flutter about!" either... though I do occasionally skip... but that's just because I'm goofy... I think? O_o; Meh whatever I still don't act as flamboyant as some do. ^^;


And I can tell, look at how popular this thread got once the great Xsyven came out of the closet in it. =P

 

[Yuna-Maria]

Congrats on the courage, x7.

And I agree with you. I'm not gay, but I've always hated gays acting girlier than girls too.

I agree. I used to think that I HAD to act as feminine as possible because I'm transgender and I HAD to get the point across. But about six months ago I got over that, and now I sort of act like an office lesbian, which, to a certain extent, I am.

 

[SkylerOcon]

I love how CK freaked out once Xsyven came out.

And flamers... well, honestly, this is one of the reasons why I hate the LGBT community (yes, thats right, I hate you all). We are always *****ing about being accpeted, when usually thats just making us stand-out more. If a 'flamer' wants to act the way he does, should he be hated for it? Should you be hated for the way you act?

I'm not a flamer, but you guys are really promoting a double standard here.

 

[Yuna-Maria]

I love how CK freaked out once Xsyven came out.

And flamers... well, honestly, this is one of the reasons why I hate the LGBT community (yes, thats right, I hate you all). We are always *****ing about being accpeted, when usually thats just making us stand-out more. If a 'flamer' wants to act the way he does, should he be hated for it? Should you be hated for the way you act?

I'm not a flamer, but you guys are really promoting a double standard here.

I agree with you to a degree. The inverse applies to lesbians, they have to go out looking like John Goodman.

 

[Bassoonist]

Lobelia, I asked you earlier but you probably missed the post... Which are you M2F or F2M? I'm assuming M2F... That's what I am.

 

[.:~*Momo*~:.]

I personally don't hate anybody unless they generally suck as a person... I just said that flamers make it harder for the rest of us... which in my opinion they do. ^^; Also it DOES seem as if some if not most of them only act the way they do because they feel like they have to...

I myself am too quiet, easily embarrassed, selfconscious, shy, and miserable to be super flamboyant without a care in the world... even though I sometimes skip... but that's only when I'm around friends and stuff. >=O

If any flamboyant gays come into this thread I'll welcome them just as I do anyone else. =3

 

[Darkfur]

I love how CK freaked out once Xsyven came out.

And flamers... well, honestly, this is one of the reasons why I hate the LGBT community (yes, thats right, I hate you all). We are always *****ing about being accpeted, when usually thats just making us stand-out more. If a 'flamer' wants to act the way he does, should he be hated for it? Should you be hated for the way you act?

I'm not a flamer, but you guys are really promoting a double standard here.

Well like I said, I have no problem if that's there normal personallity. I only have a problem with people doing for attention. But then again, I have a problem with people who aren't members of the community doing things like that just to get attention too. I think it's important to be who you are, and if thats who you are, that's great. ^_^

But if it's not who you are, you should just be yourself and not act like someone you aren't... I mean, you've probably had to do that for a portion of your life anyways, hiding from parents family or friends. Why go to the other extreme? Just relax and be yourself.

 

[Rock Man X]

I have had a friend irl back when I lived in Colorado who was really prissy and flaming. But it was okay, because he was actually cool, and really funny, and we did some gay guy stuff together (not sex, mind you. he wasn't my type! XP)... but that's not a story for here. In my experience of being gay and having several irl gay friends, many of them actually aren't flaming or femmy at all... I dunno, but I think people look toward the stereotype of flaming gays too much and thats probably why so many people are intolerant. Of course there are other reasons, but that is a viable one. Because the flaming gay guy is the stereotype and most intolerators can't stand to see a guy being, essentially, a chick.


I just read what I wrote and it's kind of confusing... but too lazy to fix it. So I'll say this. I think the flaming gay guy is okay, just as long as he's not... whats the word I should use here... 'elitist' gay. XD You know, the kind of gay guy who HATES women and boobs and all other things that straight men would like, sexual or not, and stands up for being gay for all the wrong reasons. THAT's what I have a problem with in flaming gay guys.


Anyways, I'm a little late in saying this, but welcome to the world outside of the closet Xsyven, and welcome to the thread! We're all just one, big gay family now. =3

 

[Xsyven]

Oh yeah, Rock, when we were playing Brawl the other night, I wasn't quitting because I was losing, I was quitting because my friend wanted to play. We'll fight later.

Also, just because I can, here are some pictures of my boyfriend. Note, the latter one is the latest one-- yet those tattoos and the piercings are fake. and he rarely spikes his hair-- he just wanted to play with photoshop one day.

 

[Aeronite's Kiseki]

That Xsyven, is one hot bf you have lol


Anyways about the flaming, i know some girlish gay guys and i agree i get turned off but I cant help but say, I cross the lines sometimes....It's an act i was born on i guess LOL...like i can't help but saying duh like one, cuz im expressing myself

 

[Darkfur]

Interesting pictures Xsyven. but hopefully the first one is within the boundaries that CK has set. ^_^; I guess you can say some of us are a bit worried when it comes to things like that, especially after what happened with the Girls/Guys/Relationships thread. Your boyfriend is very handsome by the way. Does he actually play guitar, or is he just holding it?

 

[Xsyven]

I wasn't there when that picture was taken-- but it's just a fun picture. He has no idea how to play. I doubt it's breaking any rules, since it's not actually showing anything. What are the rules, by the way-- since I came a bit late?

 

[.:~*Momo*~:.]

The rules are the same here as they are in every other section I'm sure... I think... the only reason why we were warned was because in a topic about sexual orientation... people tend to get a little TOO comfy. ^^; As long as we avoid talks about sex and details and stuff that most people wouldn't tell little kids then I think it's okay, though with pictures I really have no idea...

EDIT: Also your bf is really cute, *sigh* once again I have something to be jealous of in this topic. ;_;

 

[diabetic_yoshi]

i don't hate flamers, I just hate annoying people. Sometimes that may include flamers, sometimes it may include FF7 fanboys. I don't hate them immediately, but I judge them on a case-by-case basis.

---And this was my reaction after clicking Xsyven's link: . . . . . ( -.-). . . . (0_0). . . . (o_O). . . . ^(^_^)^
Congrats man.

BTW, isn't Crimson King a little glad he didn't close this thread a while back. So much juicy gossip and revelations to be had, with more to come I can only guess.

 

[Aeronite's Kiseki]

i don't hate flamers, I just hate annoying people. Sometimes that may include flamers, sometimes it may include FF7 fanboys. I don't hate them immediately, but I judge them on a case-by-case basis.

---And this was my reaction after clicking Xsyven's link: . . . . . ( -.-). . . . (0_0). . . . (o_O). . . . ^(^_^)^
Congrats man.

BTW, isn't Crimson King a little glad he didn't close this thread a while back. So much juicy gossip and revelations to be had, with more to come I can only guess.

Hey, I love FF7 dont get me wrong, but i only like the FF series pretty much because of the music, so im not a fanboy persay, but a fanboy to the music!!!

Yea, without this thread we wouldnt get to know each other, even though we still dont "really" know each other on that basis

 

[blink777]

Just going to add my obligatory comment of shock and jealousy, if I may: Dayuummm.

 

[Rock Man X]

Oh yeah, Rock, when we were playing Brawl the other night, I wasn't quitting because I was losing, I was quitting because my friend wanted to play. We'll fight later.

Also, just because I can, here are some pictures of my boyfriend. Note, the latter one is the latest one-- yet those tattoos and the piercings are fake. and he rarely spikes his hair-- he just wanted to play with photoshop one day.

Oh, that's alright, duder. I figured as much, so I just left ya be. We WILL have to play more later. You have my AIM name still don't you? Your Wolf is a lot to handle, btw. Very nice!

And a "hot dayum" goes to your boyfriend! You lucky S.O.B.! All the boyfriends I've had have never looked that good. >> I'm always the cute/hot on in a relationship. XD Not to brag or anything... Anyway yeah, you have yourself quite a prize there. =) And I hope you guys have a long healthy relationship!

 

[Crimson King]

Xsyven was fine with his post. Just kind of keep it as vague for any future stories.

I am more pissed because I used to make jokes that he was gay in the Broom, now I feel bad. I honestly never saw that one coming though. You still need to get on AIM, *****.

 

[Yuna-Maria]

Lobelia, I asked you earlier but you probably missed the post... Which are you M2F or F2M? I'm assuming M2F... That's what I am.

Yes, I did miss the post, and yes, I am MTF.
It's wonderful to meet you. Glad to see I'm not alone. Thumbs up.

 

[Bassoonist]

Yes, I did miss the post, and yes, I am MTF.
It's wonderful to meet you. Glad to see I'm not alone. Thumbs up.

Yeah, you'd be surprised... I've met a few people on Smash forums just like us.

I feel so alone in real life... it's rare to even meet gays where I live >_<

 

[Yuna-Maria]

Yeah, you'd be surprised... I've met a few people on Smash forums just like us.

I feel so alone in real life... it's rare to even meet gays where I live >_<

Yeah...I grew up in one of the gay Meccas, so it's a lot easier for me, but I'm moving out soon. I found a girlfriend who's a girl...in the same way you and I are, so it's really cool to have someone I can transition with.