Okay, Crystallion. I'll stop bashing your 38-year-old boyfriend. (Crap! I did it again!)
Nevermind--I just need to say a couple more things before I can feel like I have done everything possible to assure your happiness:
Some guys, who seem very nice, are actually completely rotten on the inside. They can bide their time until they feel they have captured their prey, and then they pounce. If he starts to change on you, by getting abusive or controlling, get out of there quick. The sad part is that may not happen until you get married or travel together, and then it's too late.
Having something happen to you that makes you unable to "trust women" does not give you a reason to be polygamous in your sexual relations. In fact, I don't see how the two are even connected. I assume that I didn't get the whole story about this particular aspect, though. I can see that it's okay with you, but there is a very good chance, in my opinion, that it is as simple as that he likes to have sex, and he likes to have multiple partners half his age.
Let me give you my idea of a conversation he might have with a friend in private (we'll call your boyfriend "John"):
Friend: Hey there, John.
John: Hey. What's going on?
Friend: Oh, the usual. You?
John: Well, my birthday is coming up in a few days. I'll be 38.
Friend: Wow. Getting towards 40, huh? Hey, you still banging that 19-year-old?
John: Oh yeah! Actually, I've got a few of them.
Friend: Really? What do you mean?
John: Well, I've somehow convinced several girls that I was hurt by a woman before, and that I can't have a relationship with a single person because of "trust issues". I make it sound like I'm so sorry I'm doing this to them, and I ask them if they can still trust me, and **** like that.
Friend: Ah...
John: I seriously can't believe I'm actually getting away with this. I've known this one girl for 6 years now. She couldn't help but fall in love with me ever since I started putting myself in her life, and now I've got a good lay any time I want.
Friend: Okay, John. But don't you ever think about getting married? I'm so glad I settled down with Jane.
John: Who needs marriage? I'm free to travel around, and I get all the sex I want, with hot young girls. Sure, it means I have to be a pathological liar, but you should see how they eat up my stories and "nice, considerate guy" persona.
Friend: Well, that doesn't sound too--
John: It's great! It's not like I'm hurting the girls. They love me, and they're all very happy. It's so funny how, whenever I'm with one of them, all the rest are just anxiously waiting for me to return. It's like they're little pets. But, you can't blame them. They're just so inexperienced, you know? Once I get to them, they never know what hit them!
Friend: Yeah, John. Hey, I was thinking that maybe you could come over Saturday night...
It's just a hypothetical, Crystallion, and I'm sorry if it angered you. But I have seen it happen before, in a way pretty similar to what's going on with you.
I don't want to ruin your opinion of "John" if he isn't like the John in my little dialogue. I just want you to know that, no matter how highly you think of him, he could be what some would consider a "lowlife".
It just feels wrong to me. I would normally just be like, "Okay, big age difference, but that's okay", but when you add the infidelity, the traveling, the incredible "honesty", and other things, it just doesn't compute.
I really hope I'm not just making you angry. I'm just saying my opinion. I understand that I'm not close to your situation, but maybe that's exactly what you need: Someone who's never seen this guy in person.
Some crooks can be extremely kind, likeable, even humble and honest, but to them, it's all just a game.
Okay so, I respond to your post now as I couldn't yesterday ^^
I don't think you're bashing him, it's just that this is the internets and you're suspicious, and you care for me. 'Tis all, really. But anyway...
Don't worry, I may not have had a boyfriend before him, but I know they exist. Actually, I see them everywhere, you just can't tell very well by looks, looks are deceiving, so it's always a dangerous game. Don't worry, if something should go wrong, I'd be the first to say good-bye. And no, marriage won't happen. Why? He loves his freedom, and he says he wouldn't marry someone for anything in the world. Also, he hates kids :D So he's being cautious in that area too.
Well, the thing with polygamous relationships: It's not the norm and most people aren't into it. But who says that it has to be "only one for eternity"? He loves me, but he says he would be very happy for me if I found someone else (not that he wants to get rid of me, but he cares for my happiness, that's all). It's hard to word it right why he has decided on open relationships, I can't phrase it really, so there's nothing more I can say about that matter ^^; I can say this though: He doesn't have a real "home" like we do and he travels around all the time as I already told you. My guess is that he doesn't want to be alone, that's why he makes connections with many other people, not for a cheap lay, but for the emotional bonding. I'm not even talking about only love relationships, but also friendships. He's a man that needs tons of love. That's how I see him, of course I might be wrong with that, but I can once again assure you that he's not one of the "bad" guys. Of course he enjoys sex, he's a man, dammit xD He would be a liar to tell otherwise. I enjoy sex too, that's only normal (especially if you have GOOD sex, lol) And btw: Many of his partners are young, but not specifically young as me. And let's face it, we all have some kind of preferences in our choices.
I for one wouldn't date anyone my age.
About your dialogue there:
First of all, no, he's not really that free to go wherever he pleases, he has to live somehow and therefor, he has to work to feed him (and his doggie btw ^^ such a cutie) and keep him over water (he's a freelancer). So there are many places where he can work and he has to go there. But yeah, otherwise, he can go wherever he wants, but he hasn't got that much choice, he's not one of us who has a steady banc account with a decent amount of money on it. As a freelancer, life is much tougher than it seems.
Secondly, I also told you that he's proven it to me that all the things he says (t.a.t.u FTW??) are true, so no worries there.
Thirdy, actually, most of his lovers are now in a steady relationship with someone other and happy with it. And guess who helped them find someone? Hint hint. (and no, that doesn't make him a pimp, I mean, I know some of his acquaintances, some of them live in my country, and are very nice).
It's really no problem that this makes you wary. Like I said twice, 'tis the internet and things sound wrong on many levels numerous times.
Oh but he is NOT infidel, because he always tells the women he's with what he thinks about love and he let's them choose if they want to accept it or not, but one is only infidel if s/he goes arounf ****ing behind their boy/girlfriend's back and lying to them about it, the thing called "cheating" (that's what he says too, and I strongly share his opinion). It's awkward for people to realize there's more than one way to love. It's understandable in this case, but I have already accepted it, I won't expect you to accept this, just to maybe tolerate it or something like that.
Yeah, I know it's your opinion, I won't go against that, only some things you say xD Don't worry, I understand how you're saying that it feels wrong to you. But I can't really say much more than that, I've been telling many details now already and there's not much left to say. So it's alright, really, I can still post and tell if something goes wrong and ask about opinions in this thread.
So another wall of text, whoopdeedo xD Happy reading! Gotta go now, I'm tired. See ya!