Well thought-out, incredibly long, but some pretty bad logic going on in here.
The Big Bang is nothing more than the rapid expansion of energy and particles into space. It is an event that occurs within reality, which consists of time and space. Most atheists I've spoken to believe that time prior the Big Bang is "meaningless" because there is no change. That word bothers me. It implies that that time exists but is somehow not important. This is one of the areas where I simply can't agree with modern atheism. The atheistic concept of time relies solely on visible, physical, recordable change. But both time and change are concepts, and just as there is physical change, there is also conceptual change. Even prior to the Big Bang, there was the conceptual change of "then" and "now". Even if everything that is existed in and unchanging singularity, that unchanging singularity still existed within increments of "then" and "now". Though it was not recordable, time "predates" the Big Bang, as does space. The fact of that existence makes all the difference because it refers back to the infinitely regressing time paradox.
This is a flawed line of thinking. It's kinda reminiscent of the idea of faster-than-light travel; thinking you could get one spaceship traveling at 0.9c through space, then fire out a rocket from it which, relative to the spaceship, moved at 0.9c, and then have it move almost twice as fast as light relative to a stationary observer. On paper it looks fine... But many of our intuitive human concepts simply fail to apply on the micro or macro scale, and the Big Bang is one of those key points. As far as I am aware, the most common phyiscal models assume that time essentially started with the big bang. It's easier to imagine if you assume that time is simply another dimension we move through, akin to the other three we have, but one which doesn't stretch itself infinitely in both directions. Once you hit "0" on the time scale, which would be in this case the Big Bang, you can't go any further back. Before that, there
is no concept of time. To an outside observer, there might be a "then" and "now", but it's completely impossible for said outside observer to exist in the first place, because there is no "outside" to begin with!
That's just in terms of the physics, really... My knowledge of the subject is limited at best, but I hope that cleared up a thing or two. But my main issue is not really this. It's what follows.
So relating this again to why I'm not an atheist, if there is any one thing that needs explaining and science can't explain it, the only conceivable answer is something unscientific, unrealistic, specifically, not relating to reality as we understand it. I'm sure you can see where this is going now. I'm not an atheist because I believe that evening the most scientific modes of thought we will eventually hit a brick wall where unscientific "things" become necessary to explain. Equally important is the necessity for the unscientific "things" to be unexplainable, such to avoid more origin crises. I just don't think it's rational to rule out "God", rather, at the very least, I think it is at the utmost of logic to believe that supernatural "entities" exist. Granted, this does not suppose that all the hoopla about the Christian God follows, but I wasn't going for that in the first place. For you, my reader, you can consider this the end of this blog as it refers to rational thinking, but I will now go on into my own personal beliefs.
This is what I take issue with. It's an argument from ignorance; a "god of the gaps" argument. It's essentially stating that any answer is better than none. See, even if science can't readily explain something now, it doesn't necessarily mean that it's out of science's reach. We thought we'd never know how the universe was formed... And then we started picking up cosmic background radiation which lead us to the big bang. We thought we'd never know how all kinds of things... But every time we have gone from "We don't know X" to "It's the work of god/fairies/magic", it's been a catastrophe, and has set us back by a long, long way. Hell, look at the USA even today, where a good third of the country still believes, despite mountains of evidence to the contrary, that god created the world in seven days.
But that's just the consequence and track record of that action, both of which tend to be incredibly horrible. What I'm also bugged by is the fallacy contained therein: the idea that, because we don't know how it works, we know it's X, Y, or Z. How can you tell it's a supernatural entity? It's certainly not self-evident, and you yourself have indicated that you don't believe that we can really know anything about that... So why imply the supernatural when the correct answer truly and honestly is, "We don't know"?
Seriously, what's wrong with "I don't know" as an answer? In the words of QualiaSoup, "'I don't know' is a
wonderful answer. It's honest, accurate, and requires no faith. There's no shame in admitting you don't know something. On the contrary, the only shame is in claiming you know when you don't, or can't possibly know."