The Unhappy Thread

[spamwichx]

Well, I'm considering it as an option, but it's much more difficult to get into though as opposed to psych nursing at my school.I'm also looking at other options in the health care aspect that I may like more. But for now, I'm making an appeal to my school to get a W on my transcript instead of an F for that course + tuition refund to some extent. Then, I'll have some time to think of if I want to return to psych nursing if I win or enter a new field. So...here's hoping my appeal wins. I think I have a good chance so far.

i wish you luck! i could never do psych nursing. i already get people harrassing me, even had someone nearly bite and slap me the other day lol. you're a strong person for wanting to do it! in my country where i'm from everyone goes through a mainstream nursing degree and you get the choice to do a graduate year (or internship? idk what you canadians call it) in either psych nursing or general. i'd love to go nurse over in canada but you guys have so much red tape now haha.

 

[Yonder]

i wish you luck! i could never do psych nursing. i already get people harrassing me, even had someone nearly bite and slap me the other day lol. you're a strong person for wanting to do it! in my country where i'm from everyone goes through a mainstream nursing degree and you get the choice to do a graduate year (or internship? idk what you canadians call it) in either psych nursing or general. i'd love to go nurse over in canada but you guys have so much red tape now haha.

Thanks haha, I'm on the fence on if I want to continue or not. My plan is to work as a mental health care worker for a year and go from there.

 

[BSXDrayden]

My anxiety has been acting up the past few days more than it has since before I started my counselling and this has been causing me to feel jealous and lonely. This jealousy and loneliness then - in turn - makes my anxiety issues worse and it's a vicious cycle of pain and misery.

 

[SomewhatMystia]

Feeling kinda **** tonight. Day started off great (day off from work, went to eat with the family, all that good ****), then I got into an argument with a friend about something stupid and trivial. Was going to go to a bar (monthly gaming music DJ event thing) tonight or maybe the local hobby shop, but I just don't feel like it anymore.

 

[Cyn]

Feeling kinda **** tonight. Day started off great (day off from work, went to eat with the family, all that good ****), then I got into an argument with a friend about something stupid and trivial. Was going to go to a bar (monthly gaming music DJ event thing) tonight or maybe the local hobby shop, but I just don't feel like it anymore.

What was the fight about? Actually doesn't matter, if it is trivial then I'm sure you will both get over it. Is that why you don't want to go?

 

[SomewhatMystia]

Yeah, kinda. Going to places like that also does a great job about how a) I don't 'get' bars (is there anything to get, come to think of it?) and b) how I'm *really* horrible in crowds. Like, I never get nervous in interviews or any actually high stress situation, but just drop me in front of someone who seems like an enjoyable person to talk to/a potential friend or casual acquaintance and my confidence and social grace goes out the window.

Like, I bought a Magic deck the other day because I wanted to get back into a cardgame of some sort. Haven't played. Haven't worked up the nerve to actually ask someone to give it a go.

 

[Cyn]

Yeah, kinda. Going to places like that also does a great job about how a) I don't 'get' bars (is there anything to get, come to think of it?) and b) how I'm *really* horrible in crowds. Like, I never get nervous in interviews or any actually high stress situation, but just drop me in front of someone who seems like an enjoyable person to talk to/a potential friend or casual acquaintance and my confidence and social grace goes out the window.

Like, I bought a Magic deck the other day because I wanted to get back into a cardgame of some sort. Haven't played. Haven't worked up the nerve to actually ask someone to give it a go.

Nothing you can do about that except keep at it. Won't make new friends and acquaintances unless you put yourself out there.

 

[Deleted member 269706]

I wish I could cry right now.

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

i sometimes think my boyfriend doesnt realize that relationships are a two way street when it comes to communication and putting in effort.

bluhhhhhh

 

[TimeChain]

The other day, my local EB Games had a restock of various rare amiibo. Like WFT, Little Mac, Villager, and Marth. And I wasn't there to see it

 

[Scarlet Knight]

i sometimes think my boyfriend doesnt realize that relationships are a two way street when it comes to communication and putting in effort.

bluhhhhhh

That's unfortunate, you gonna tell him?

The other day, my local EB Games had a restock of various rare amiibo. Like WFT, Little Mac, Villager, and Marth. And I wasn't there to see it

OMG this happened to me too....
My gamestop restocked on Robin, Lucina, and Ness. I called to put them on hold for me, when I came to pick them up... they were gone

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

That's unfortunate, you gonna tell him?

working on it...the big issue is that he never attends anything when i have family events/functions/etc

its like...after 5 years if you dont want to be around my family...we have a problem. super close extended family. and i havent been able to talk to him about it because i want to discuss in person and he keeps declining invitations ; - ;/

(which also sucks cuz he will break plans that we have had a few hours prior so im stuck doing nothing, which sucks)

 

[Scarlet Knight]

working on it...the big issue is that he never attends anything when i have family events/functions/etc

its like...after 5 years if you dont want to be around my family...we have a problem. super close extended family. and i havent been able to talk to him about it because i want to discuss in person and he keeps declining invitations ; - ;/

(which also sucks cuz he will break plans that we have had a few hours prior so im stuck doing nothing, which sucks)

I wish I could be of help, but I have no relationship experience...

I guess if things don't work out with you two, then just separate...

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

I wish I could be of help, but I have no relationship experience...

I guess if things don't work out with you two, then just separate...

not really looking for help as much as venting haha

its something he and i just have to talk out lol

 

[Froggy]

Actual **** porn always seems so exciting until you actually find it. And then you just feel bad and uncomfortable for watching it in the first place.

 

[Scarlet Knight]

Actual **** porn always seems so exciting until you actually find it. And then you just feel bad and uncomfortable for watching it in the first place.

Why would you watch porn in the first place lol
Just watch anime!

 

[Froggy]

Why would you watch porn in the first place lol
Just watch anime!

Bordom I guess. Anime isn't what is used to be. I can only find on that I like at any given time.

 

[MewtwoMaster2002]

Recently I've been wondering if I'm just good at having shallow friendships but not keeping meaningful ones. It seems like I'm usually the one making an effort to talk to people, and no one initiates conversations with me unless it's for a group function like a church young adults group activity. I also just found out that a friend I considered close visited my area without telling me, and a whole bunch of people hung out...so that doesn't help. Maybe I'm just going through a long phase...

 

[Scarlet Knight]

Bordom I guess. Anime isn't what is used to be. I can only find on that I like at any given time.

I actually prefer modern anime IMO

Recently I've been wondering if I'm just good at having shallow friendships but not keeping meaningful ones. It seems like I'm usually the one making an effort to talk to people, and no one initiates conversations with me unless it's for a group function like a church young adults group activity. I also just found out that a friend I considered close visited my area without telling me, and a whole bunch of people hung out...so that doesn't help. Maybe I'm just going through a long phase...

:/ I think you need better friends....
do you text your friends?

 

[MewtwoMaster2002]

I actually prefer modern anime IMO

:/ I think you need better friends....
do you text your friends?

Yes, once in a while. Most of my college friends live about 5 or more hours away...so it's kind of understandable when they all live close to each other and I'm the guy who lives far away and can't hang out often unless I have a reason to visit.

The ones who live close to me that I know through college live about 40 minutes away. That hangout I wasn't invited to was apparently organized by a person I didn't know, and she apologized when I commented "I wish I could have gone" so it's all good.

I don't know too many people in my hometown. I didn't have particularly close friends in high school because I was the guy who wanted to be friends with everyone. With that mentality, it's hard to really make close friends. With the young adults group at my church now, it makes sense that people will have different work schedules, plus there are quite a few married couples. Even then, I don't share that many interests outside of church activities. At most, there are two guys who like playing video games, but they do other stuff too. Plus I don't make enough money to spend on hobbies such as rock climbing. And I don't know any IRL friends who live close to me who watches anime like me, likes playing Pokemon, and plays Smash. One of the guys in my young adults church group has a Wii U and Smash, but he prefers playing Mario Kart. Even then, he's busy with work and school.

I guess part of it is my fault for being different...and for not being able to live closer to where most of my friends are at.

 

[Scarlet Knight]

Yes, once in a while. Most of my college friends live about 5 or more hours away...so it's kind of understandable when they all live close to each other and I'm the guy who lives far away and can't hang out often unless I have a reason to visit.

The ones who live close to me that I know through college live about 40 minutes away. That hangout I wasn't invited to was apparently organized by a person I didn't know, and she apologized when I commented "I wish I could have gone" so it's all good.

I don't know too many people in my hometown. I didn't have particularly close friends in high school because I was the guy who wanted to be friends with everyone. With that mentality, it's hard to really make close friends. With the young adults group at my church now, it makes sense that people will have different work schedules, plus there are quite a few married couples. Even then, I don't share that many interests outside of church activities. At most, there are two guys who like playing video games, but they do other stuff too. Plus I don't make enough money to spend on hobbies such as rock climbing. And I don't know any IRL friends who live close to me who watches anime like me, likes playing Pokemon, and plays Smash. One of the guys in my young adults church group has a Wii U and Smash, but he prefers playing Mario Kart. Even then, he's busy with work and school.

I guess part of it is my fault for being different...and for not being able to live closer to where most of my friends are at.

I barely have any friends, for some reason, I scare people away...
I don't do church stuff because I am aetheist...
Nothing wrong with being different

 

[MewtwoMaster2002]

I barely have any friends, for some reason, I scare people away...
I don't do church stuff because I am aetheist...
Nothing wrong with being different

Yeah, I understand not everyone believes the same thing I do. Still, there are other things to do or other types of groups you could potentially join.

How do you scare people away?

 

[Scarlet Knight]

Yeah, I understand not everyone believes the same thing I do. Still, there are other things to do or other types of groups you could potentially join.

How do you scare people away?

for groups, I just have social media and texts
How do I scare people:
1. that S**t ain't on purpose
2. I have a hateful glare when around others
3. my personality

 

[.Execute]

I know I'm going to sound stupid and get similar responses and all that jazz but I don't care, I have no where else to turn. Not to friends, Not to my blood family, only here. This has been on my mind for a long time now, ever since I had broken up with my last girlfriend in December of 2014 (Which was for the better, I just couldn't connect with her emotionally anymore...) I have always been the dumper and never the dumpee. I broke up with her in the scummiest way in my opinion, over text. Not even in a skype call, just straight up "I've been meaning to tell you that the reason I haven't been getting along with you is because I don't feel for you like I did before. The fire has burned all it had. I want to break up." I felt good for a while after the break up but then I got sad and lonely and upset with myself for making that decision. A lot of my friends are in relationships and having new experiences with their significant others, especially my best friend who I hung out with recently... We were in my living room and he and his girlfriend were going to meet up at the museum for a "date" and then out of know where he was dogging me for being the roy to his marth, "We're the same but... I'm better!" is what I got from that.(I'm assuming he was going off of melee because that's all we play together). I honestly don't wanna look at myself at this moment in time becuase he was saying that I was a ugly and unattractive... I just wanted to kick him out of my house and then cry but I couldn't because then who would I hangout with? No one... I'm alone in this world without my best friend or parents... I'd be nothing but what he labeled me. My parents have always encouraged me being single because then I can "Work on my studies" and "Not worry about someone else" but they know fully that I'll just blow that off and play smash because it's what I love doing. They always tell me that I'm handsome, smart, analytical, passionate, funny, charming, calling me things I know I'm not because if I were any of those things then why am I single and why am I the one who always gets made fun of for being skinny. All my friends know I'm a good kid, I'm no hoodlum, I'm no gangster, I'm just some nerdy kid who hates himself, the world, and loves playing smash. As I'm typing this and thinking about what has been bothering me I feel no different and still want to cry.

 

[.Execute]

I'm aware that the impression you get from me on Smashboards makes me seem like a goofy, eloquent, & high-strung person. But people are multifaceted after all. On a good day, you could just skim down this thread and everyone sounds like they want to force you to sympathize with them. I'm having personal gripes of my own and I wish someone would listen.

Everyday, I feel functionally depressed. It's combined of many problems. But right now, the strongest is that I have no friends.

Not even acquaintances or people I refer to as friends from college fit the mark. It was just last year where I moved from my hometown, and thus leaving a huge margin of people I've known behind. All I have left is my family.

I tried keeping in touch with my best childhood friend. He's one of those people who loves me like a brother. Except he's suddenly dropped contact with me for reasons unknown. He's off to college and has his own friends too.

I also find myself excessively fantasizing and imagining my ex-girlfriend, which just makes me unnecessarily covet her memory. I have no logical reason to be loathing her. Maybe it's some sort of placebo coping mechanism.

I'll be going back to college this fall. I'll see a lot of the same old faces again. But I still remain awkwardly distant to them on a personal level. I have all those like-minded strangers around me and I still feel unwanted.

I guess what you can take away from all that is an abscence of love AND meaning to live. It's not that I need to have a bunch of people revolving around me. It's just that having no connections and pending obligations (e.g., college), which make me resort to recluseness.

You know, I have all this leisure time like it's an extension of my childhood. Everyday I'm free to play games, draw, watch anime, be on Smashboards, etc. But as I enjoy these things, something inside just feels very off. Every game, anime, and book feels numb to me. Just drawing, reading, and getting the motivation to write become painstaking work. I'm surrounding myself with these pleasures just to shelter myself from my inner problems.

I may think, sound, and look straight-faced, but inside I'm screaming for someone to drag me out from my gripes, console me like a crying baby, and support me to regain my passions. Maybe then I'll devote to my calling in life.

Yo, that was some heavy stuff. Not sure if you still feel this way or have since been consoled and taken from your gripes and been given what you saught for... I'd like to be friends and maybe play off some time, in a tourney perhaps?

 

[Scarlet Knight]

I know I'm going to sound stupid and get similar responses and all that jazz but I don't care, I have no where else to turn. Not to friends, Not to my blood family, only here. This has been on my mind for a long time now, ever since I had broken up with my last girlfriend in December of 2014 (Which was for the better, I just couldn't connect with her emotionally anymore...) I have always been the dumper and never the dumpee. I broke up with her in the scummiest way in my opinion, over text. Not even in a skype call, just straight up "I've been meaning to tell you that the reason I haven't been getting along with you is because I don't feel for you like I did before. The fire has burned all it had. I want to break up." I felt good for a while after the break up but then I got sad and lonely and upset with myself for making that decision. A lot of my friends are in relationships and having new experiences with their significant others, especially my best friend who I hung out with recently... We were in my living room and he and his girlfriend were going to meet up at the museum for a "date" and then out of know where he was dogging me for being the roy to his marth, "We're the same but... I'm better!" is what I got from that.(I'm assuming he was going off of melee because that's all we play together). I honestly don't wanna look at myself at this moment in time becuase he was saying that I was a ugly and unattractive... I just wanted to kick him out of my house and then cry but I couldn't because then who would I hangout with? No one... I'm alone in this world without my best friend or parents... I'd be nothing but what he labeled me. My parents have always encouraged me being single because then I can "Work on my studies" and "Not worry about someone else" but they know fully that I'll just blow that off and play smash because it's what I love doing. They always tell me that I'm handsome, smart, analytical, passionate, funny, charming, calling me things I know I'm not because if I were any of those things then why am I single and why am I the one who always gets made fun of for being skinny. All my friends know I'm a good kid, I'm no hoodlum, I'm no gangster, I'm just some nerdy kid who hates himself, the world, and loves playing smash. As I'm typing this and thinking about what has been bothering me I feel no different and still want to cry.

Breaking up via text..... wow....

that's unfortunate

 

[Sarki Soliloquy]

Yo, that was some heavy stuff. Not sure if you still feel this way or have since been consoled and taken from your gripes and been given what you saught for... I'd like to be friends and maybe play off some time, in a tourney perhaps?

Wow, I wrote that post a year and 1 month ago. Heh, never thought someone would spelunk that deep down for my discarded artifacts! That post really doesn't apply to me in the same way it did anymore. Things have changed for the better!

Nice of you to notice though. Glad my pain resonated with what you're dealing with. Feel free to stalk my activity here on the boards or PM me for some friendlies. :3

I know I'm going to sound stupid and get similar responses and all that jazz but I don't care, I have no where else to turn. Not to friends, Not to my blood family, only here. This has been on my mind for a long time now, ever since I had broken up with my last girlfriend in December of 2014 (Which was for the better, I just couldn't connect with her emotionally anymore...) I have always been the dumper and never the dumpee. I broke up with her in the scummiest way in my opinion, over text. Not even in a skype call, just straight up "I've been meaning to tell you that the reason I haven't been getting along with you is because I don't feel for you like I did before. The fire has burned all it had. I want to break up." I felt good for a while after the break up but then I got sad and lonely and upset with myself for making that decision. A lot of my friends are in relationships and having new experiences with their significant others, especially my best friend who I hung out with recently... We were in my living room and he and his girlfriend were going to meet up at the museum for a "date" and then out of know where he was dogging me for being the roy to his marth, "We're the same but... I'm better!" is what I got from that.(I'm assuming he was going off of melee because that's all we play together). I honestly don't wanna look at myself at this moment in time becuase he was saying that I was a ugly and unattractive... I just wanted to kick him out of my house and then cry but I couldn't because then who would I hangout with? No one... I'm alone in this world without my best friend or parents... I'd be nothing but what he labeled me. My parents have always encouraged me being single because then I can "Work on my studies" and "Not worry about someone else" but they know fully that I'll just blow that off and play smash because it's what I love doing. They always tell me that I'm handsome, smart, analytical, passionate, funny, charming, calling me things I know I'm not because if I were any of those things then why am I single and why am I the one who always gets made fun of for being skinny. All my friends know I'm a good kid, I'm no hoodlum, I'm no gangster, I'm just some nerdy kid who hates himself, the world, and loves playing smash. As I'm typing this and thinking about what has been bothering me I feel no different and still want to cry.

I've only had one relationship in my life and anyone who's been through a breakup can attest to the depression it puts you through for a really long time. It's disproportionally worse if it's your first. In any case, you'll always feel empty because there isn't anything else you'll experience that compares to the intense companionship and feelings love provides. But for you, I have three things:

1. If you want to minimize your gripes, then you mustn't compare your replays to their highlight reel. You're taking all there fun and exciting experiences and assuming that they encapsulate their entire relationships. Well, you've been through the happiness, sadness, anger, whatever of your relationship. You should know that the same highs and lows are and will occur between them as well. Conflict between close ones is inevitable.
2. I don't know how long you've been the best with your "best friend" and there's no way of knowing what went down between you two when your fight happened, but if he keeps being the flaunting **** you described, then why are you two even friends? You're hinging your self-esteem on another person, so it's your fault you've taken his insult to heart. You can reinforce your own belief that you're unattractive because he said so. Or you can shrug it aside as a petty judgement and improve yourself to be more attractive!
3. As for why your parents want you to be single, ask yourself these: do I want to have a girlfriend & do I want to remain single for the sake of my parents having me "work on my studies?" It sounds like you could improve your self-esteem. For a start, think to yourself and look at all the things you've done in a self-motivating scope. Like, you had a bad breakup. What exactly makes that a bad relationship? Sure, you couldn't connect to her anymore, but you finally know what love's like, had plenty of great times with her, got more insight on your problems through her, etc. Not like the gangsters or hoodlums? You shouldn't strive to conform to their norms because you don't want to be like them. You have things such as Smash that this forum demonstrates there are myriads of people like you. Want some friends? Go to a tourney and find commonalities with the players there. Want to be less awkward? Learn about social interactions and techniques you could use to make your time easier.

Your profile says you're 14. At your age, I understand there's a lot of pressure for you to be one of the cool kids, get chicks, what have you. Don't buy into their hype. You know what you like and who you are. Even if you don't get everything you want any time soon, you can be happy for the person you've raised yourself to be.

Breaking up via text..... wow....

that's unfortunate

Uhhh, what exactly do you mean when you say, "unfortunate?"

 

[Suicidal_Donuts]

So this is the unhappy thread? I guess that just about summarizes me on a daily basis.

I'm not going to give away my life's story (we could be here for days if I did, even though my life hasn't lasted that long), but from as far back as I can remember, I've always had social anxiety. Because of this, I've always had a ridiculous fear of being around or near people in any situation where I wasn't 100% comfortable. I often would hide from them if I saw them approaching from a distance, and fall silent and face the opposite way/pay them no attention if they had to be in my presence. Due to this, making friends was always hard for me to do, and I've always been so much more different than everyone else that I never shared any similar interests with anyone.

Later on throughout elementary school and early middle school, I suffered through traumatic events. This gave me a general anxiety in addition to my preexisting social anxiety, and I also developed a severe depression and a mild eating disorder. Middle school was rough, but at least I had made a few friends with people in my class from the other elementary schools (or had moved here from somewhere else recently).

Later on, I got my first boyfriend (who goes to another school now thankfully, but still manages to butt his way into my life some way or another). He showed me what it was like to be truly happy and I ended up falling in love with him (despite being so young). Later on though, he changed and became a completely different person. He lied to me, cheated on me, and used me on a daily basis for almost two years before I'd had enough. I was still in love with the old him, not the person he had become, but I decided to call it quits since I couldn't take it anymore. Surprisingly, he was extremely upset to lose me, but the damage was done, so...

The rest of that year after removing him from my life was phenomenal (compared to the years prior). I had the most amount of friends I'd ever had, went out just about every day and night, went to several concerts, made so many great new memories... Everything was perfect until the next school year started.

I don't know what it was, but once the new school year came, I returned almost a different person. The year before I was much more outgoing, confident, focused, on top of everything, but then I became the complete opposite. I spent that year in silence almost, not talking to anyone except close friends of mine. My insomnia that I had developed near the start of my depression was at an all time high. My anxiety started to come back pretty bad (my social anxiety never really went away though, so it's always been here), then my depression. Before I knew it I was miserable again.

Now I'm just sitting here, stuck in this state of being so out of it and upset constantly that I lack enough motivation and energy to do anything with my life. I've tried to remedy it by spending it with friends, and going to concerts and whatnot like I used to, but it's not the same. All of my problems fluctuate so much, and it's seemingly at random most of the time. I'm very unhappy. I want the bit of joy back that I had last year, and from when I was in love.

Okay, I know I just typed a wall of text, and almost part of my life's story, but I really just skimmed the surface on most of it. All of it had a great effect on me and goes much deeper than mentioned. I'm still young and growing up (I'll still consider myself growing up until the day I die), and I'm aware of that. Yes, I could be going through a rough patch, but the issue is that a rough patch doesn't last for several years despite some moments of being okay. I never thought I'd live this long before killing myself, or even to the point of being middle aged. I'm just so afraid of that coming true that I want to do something about it and be cured from my mental state. I've got one life, and spending it like this is not what I want to do.

I didn't type this because I sought pity, I hate that. I typed it because I thought I'd share why I've always been so unhappy. Perhaps one of you could help me out, perhaps not, I don't care. If any of you ever need anything or someone to play with, just let me know and I'll try to help, or keep you some form of company haha. I have a kind heart, and other people's happiness will always lie before mine. Well, with that I'm off to return to SassBoards (the Zelda section), so farewell for now.

 

[.Execute]

Wow, I wrote that post a year and 1 month ago. Heh, never thought someone would spelunk that deep down for my discarded artifacts! That post really doesn't apply to me in the same way it did anymore. Things have changed for the better!

Nice of you to notice though. Glad my pain resonated with what you're dealing with. Feel free to stalk my activity here on the boards or PM me for some friendlies. :3


I've only had one relationship in my life and anyone who's been through a breakup can attest to the depression it puts you through for a really long time. It's disproportionally worse if it's your first. In any case, you'll always feel empty because there isn't anything else you'll experience that compares to the intense companionship and feelings love provides. But for you, I have three things:

1. If you want to minimize your gripes, then you mustn't compare your replays to their highlight reel. You're taking all there fun and exciting experiences and assuming that they encapsulate their entire relationships. Well, you've been through the happiness, sadness, anger, whatever of your relationship. You should know that the same highs and lows are and will occur between them as well. Conflict between close ones is inevitable.
2. I don't know how long you've been the best with your "best friend" and there's no way of knowing what went down between you two when your fight happened, but if he keeps being the flaunting **** you described, then why are you two even friends? You're hinging your self-esteem on another person, so it's your fault you've taken his insult to heart. You can reinforce your own belief that you're unattractive because he said so. Or you can shrug it aside as a petty judgement and improve yourself to be more attractive!
3. As for why your parents want you to be single, ask yourself these: do I want to have a girlfriend & do I want to remain single for the sake of my parents having me "work on my studies?" It sounds like you could improve your self-esteem. For a start, think to yourself and look at all the things you've done in a self-motivating scope. Like, you had a bad breakup. What exactly makes that a bad relationship? Sure, you couldn't connect to her anymore, but you finally know what love's like, had plenty of great times with her, got more insight on your problems through her, etc. Not like the gangsters or hoodlums? You shouldn't strive to conform to their norms because you don't want to be like them. You have things such as Smash that this forum demonstrates there are myriads of people like you. Want some friends? Go to a tourney and find commonalities with the players there. Want to be less awkward? Learn about social interactions and techniques you could use to make your time easier.

Your profile says you're 14. At your age, I understand there's a lot of pressure for you to be one of the cool kids, get chicks, what have you. Don't buy into their hype. You know what you like and who you are. Even if you don't get everything you want any time soon, you can be happy for the person you've raised yourself to be.


Uhhh, what exactly do you mean when you say, "unfortunate?"

Yo, Thanks for the advice... I'll try to be more confident in myself. Thank you for taking the time to reply, this means a lot.

 

[Smooth Criminal]

Christ, it's hard making decisions for myself and myself only. It's hard doing things that were once viewed as selfish and wasteful. It's hard being loved by someone unconditionally and wishes absolutely nothing but the best for you. It's hard finally giving in to warranted loathing of the very things you made physically tolerable for over a decade.

And I'm not being sarcastic, either. My life is undergoing so much change right now that it's practically an upheaval. It's almost too good to be true, and I wait somewhere bitterly in the back of my goddamn mind for the other shoe to drop. To remind me that it's all a great big faux pas and moving out of my safe little zone of survival was a pack of lies, that I'm better off being slavish and decrepit and lonely.

Smooth Criminal

 

[dezeray112]

Just came back from my holiday and I can't believe I fell ill during my flight back home.

 

[Froggy]

I can be so patheitc.

So I've had a lots of ups and downs with my former best friends in the past year. She confessed she was i love with me while I was with my girlfriend, and even after my girlfriend and I broke up I told her I wouldn't be interested in pursuing a relationship with her. We're at this point now where we claim to still be friends with each other, but we don't talk much at all. Yesterday she posted that she missed her husbamd nad today she posted how it's so great to feel loved and you know it actually bothers me. I don't know if she is posting it to get this reaction from me, if she's just posting it as something compltely out of of context, if she's referring to me in these posts, some combinaiton of all this or if it's all true and has nothing to do with me. Of course she shouldn't be marreid or even have a boyfriend if she's been honest with me all this time, but that's a big IF when it comes to her.

In any case despite being bothered by it I am happy for her if it's true. If she can find someone to love her despite baggage then that's great, since that's something I decided I wasn't willing to do.

 

[Tali vas Normandy]

I've been feeling like a waste of skin.

My grades in college have been dropping lower and lower and it honestly can't even see what i'll do with the rest of my life.
and doing good in school was the only reason why i was happy with myself back then.

 

[Rie Sonomura]

Just when I thought Tumblr's community couldn't possibly get any worse, I find out there's a whole subsection that calls itself the "shoplifting fandom". Worse, they POST THEIR HAULS ON THEIR BLOGS AND STEAL A TON OF **** OFTEN TOTALING OVER $300 AND ONLY 1/4 OF THOSE BLOG OWNERS HAVE BEEN PUNISHED FOR THEIR CRIMES. ONE EVEN STOLE A SICK CAT FROM A SHELTER.

I. AM. SEETHING.

someone please drop a giant nuclear bomb on that site cause I just can't handle it anymore.

 

[Sarki Soliloquy]

Wow. Just wow. To think that an enclave dedicated to such a sleazy practice could maintain an existence for so long. At least you've noted that the authorities have taken action against those kleptos.

An addendum you should remember whenever discussing controversial materials circulating out of Tumblr, Reddit, etc.: any controversial behavior or ideologoies are ONLY representative of the communities that are on those sites, not the sum total. Content aggregator-style social networks can be just about anything you want them to be.

 

[Roaring Salsa]

I've been down lately this year...

I realized I chose the wrong career, and while I do plan on dropping out once the semester ends, somehow I keep getting constantly down by simply thinking of my decision. Most teachers keep saying how proud they are that we chose medicine, but I haven't been able to find the needed motivation to at least concentrate and study properly.

Compared to high school where I was among the top spots grade wise, my depression keeps me from caring about the grades. I'm passing all the subjects except for one, and sure, it doesn't really matter if I'm going to drop out anyway, but I don't know... I just need some words of encouragement.

I'm scared of making the same mistake again...

 

[Dr.SMASHING]

My mom said that she was gonna get me Melee soon.

That was a month ago.

 

[SuperCoolSideAccount]

I've been over thinking a lot of stuff recently, I think about the wording of everything that is aimed at me as if it means something significant. I realise the people I'm talking to aren't trying to embed some hidden meaning but I cant help but finding one anyway. I also just think way too hard about a lot of trivial stuff and let tiny things get to me. About a week ago a few things in my room fell over and would take a while to clean up, I cried about this for about half an hour. The smallest things can get me down very easily and I will think about it for way too long. Also I've had nightmares every night for weeks.

I think about my girlfriend a lot and sometimes it makes me so upset it physically makes me uncomfortable. I am in love with her but I don't know how she feels about me. It only makes sense that she would like me, because we are a couple, but I constantly doubt myself and think about it a lot. In all the time I've known her she's never really been one to open up about emotions and stuff, but it would just be nice. Some times it feels very 1 way, like she puts much less effort in than me.

I really would like to speak to someone because the smallest things can keep my thoughts occupied for hours and make me feel depressed and ill, however I don't really want to talk to anyone I know about it, because I'm afraid that they won't treat me the same. I think I can do a pretty good job at hiding it mostly.

Sorry that was long

 

[JayTheUnseen]

I wish I could cry right now.

Hey, what happened?

 

[Deleted member 269706]

Hey, what happened?

Life has been weird lately man. One of my best friend's moms killed herself earlier this week, so there's that. Signing up for college classes which has be less excited for college than ever. Anxiety is a ****ty thing man. And then there's the girl problems and other petty things Say though, where is that quote in your signature from?