The Unhappy Thread

[Zook]

Millions of people are going to buy Black Ops 2.

 

[PsychoIncarnate]

Millions of people are going to buy Black Ops 2.

They made a black ops 2?

 

[Jasou]

Millions of people are going to buy Black Ops 2.

Yup, their milking that cash cow.

@Psycho: They are in the progress of making it.

 

[quote]

So yeah, I'm not sure if this qualifies as an unhappy event but it's definitely bizarre. Part of my day kind of turned into a chapter from a yaoi novel. I had a guy sing a love song to me, switching out certain lyrics for my name. He was really unrestrained about it too. He sang loud and proud. It went on for about ten minutes. I felt like a girl....

I had pretty much the same reaction too. I know that he isn't gay or anything, but good god it was embarrassing. Especially since there was only one other person in the room. Hopefully someone gets a laugh out of this.

This is one of the songs he was singing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_XCVnV5CGh0

 

[Dooms]

That sounds so awkward XD.

At least it wasn't that bad of a thing, right? Woulda been worse if it was like in class lol.

I bet you ended up laughing your *** off after it was all done with haha.

 

[quote]

That sounds so awkward XD.

At least it wasn't that bad of a thing, right? Woulda been worse if it was like in class lol.

I bet you ended up laughing your *** off after it was all done with haha.

Oh god. I don't even... Actually he's done this to me before. It does make me laugh afterward, but when it's happening, it's a weird mixture of being terrified and embarrassed at the same time.

The last time he did this he ended up literally chasing me around in circles.

 

[Dooms]

Sounds like you have a great group of friends!

I know how that feels though. A friend that knows I'm homosexual often puts her legs around me and starts talking about how she loves me very loudly hahaha. It's a really awkward, embarrassing feeling lol.

 

[quote]

I wish I were in your circle of friends.

Out of my friends I'm the one that gets teased like that so I rarely get to see it happen to someone else. The closest thing is Jace. He's innocent to the point of a fault. He won't drink, I doubt that he's ever seen porn, and he gets teased nonstop for it. Actually this one time. Somebody tried to get him to watch some, but he covered his eyes the whole time.

 

[Dooms]

Getting teased for not seeing porn... :/.

Oh. That's unfortunate :/. It's really funny to see your friends get made fun of in the same type of way that you got made fun of, and it makes you realize that it's just friends being friends. It's an amazing quality for a group of friends to have.

Sorry to break away from the conversation a little bit, but I have a question related to unhappiness lol.

Okay, so I've been "sad" lately. I don't think I'd call it depressed or anything that serious. Nothing bad has happened, but I just have this general gloomy feeling weighing me down no matter where I am or who I'm with. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to do anything, most of my inner-thoughts either involve getting into physical fights with another person or harming myself, and I've been way more selfish and mean compared to my usual self as of late because of this. I've been way more agitated lately and it's the first time I've ever felt like I truly wanted to tell someone to **** off... and it's everyone. It's like something is taking my personality away and leaving all of the bad traits that I didn't realize I had in the first place.

It's been going on since Late January-Early February, so I'm kind of starting to worry.

My question is this: Is this normal for a teenager? I always assumed that this was, but I never really checked, and I don't really want to google it and have to read through tons of depressing stories to get my answer... @_@. I would hate to sit here with a case of major depression that isn't medicated. (I really doubt it's major if serious at all, but anythings possible I guess)

 

[Jasou]

Getting teased for not seeing porn... :/.

Oh. That's unfortunate :/. It's really funny to see your friends get made fun of in the same type of way that you got made fun of, and it makes you realize that it's just friends being friends. It's an amazing quality for a group of friends to have.

Sorry to break away from the conversation a little bit, but I have a question related to unhappiness lol.

Okay, so I've been "sad" lately. I don't think I'd call it depressed or anything that serious. Nothing bad has happened, but I just have this general gloomy feeling weighing me down no matter where I am or who I'm with. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to do anything, most of my inner-thoughts either involve getting into physical fights with another person or harming myself, and I've been way more selfish and mean compared to my usual self as of late because of this. I've been way more agitated lately and it's the first time I've ever felt like I truly wanted to tell someone to **** off... and it's everyone. It's like something is taking my personality away and leaving all of the bad traits that I didn't realize I had in the first place.

It's been going on since Late January-Early February, so I'm kind of starting to worry.

My question is this: Is this normal for a teenager? I always assumed that this was, but I never really checked, and I don't really want to google it and have to read through tons of depressing stories to get my answer... @_@. I would hate to sit here with a case of major depression that isn't medicated. (I really doubt it's major if serious at all, but anythings possible I guess)

I think a lot of teenagers go through cycles of greed, being agitated, depression, and wanting to cause self harm(and I end up internally hating myself for it). I know i've definitely been through stages of all of those but not for more then 2 months. I highly suggest you seek help because 3 months is kind of a long time with those symptoms imho. gl

 

[quote]

Getting teased for not seeing porn... :/.

Oh. That's unfortunate :/. It's really funny to see your friends get made fun of in the same type of way that you got made fun of, and it makes you realize that it's just friends being friends. It's an amazing quality for a group of friends to have.

Sorry to break away from the conversation a little bit, but I have a question related to unhappiness lol.

Okay, so I've been "sad" lately. I don't think I'd call it depressed or anything that serious. Nothing bad has happened, but I just have this general gloomy feeling weighing me down no matter where I am or who I'm with. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to do anything, most of my inner-thoughts either involve getting into physical fights with another person or harming myself, and I've been way more selfish and mean compared to my usual self as of late because of this. I've been way more agitated lately and it's the first time I've ever felt like I truly wanted to tell someone to **** off... and it's everyone. It's like something is taking my personality away and leaving all of the bad traits that I didn't realize I had in the first place.

It's been going on since Late January-Early February, so I'm kind of starting to worry.

My question is this: Is this normal for a teenager? I always assumed that this was, but I never really checked, and I don't really want to google it and have to read through tons of depressing stories to get my answer... @_@. I would hate to sit here with a case of major depression that isn't medicated. (I really doubt it's major if serious at all, but anythings possible I guess)

It's very normal. I've been through that quite a bit actually. There are two things I'd suggest to you.

The easier thing to do is probably talk to someone that you are either really close with, and/or someone that can relate very closely with the experiences you had. The latter is probably better. This person has to be someone that you trust. If you think for a moment that this person would ever tell other people the contents of your conversation this won't work. If they would change their behavior towards you because of the contents of your conversation, this also won't work. That said family members aren't necessarily the best people to talk to. The choice extremely important and if not taken seriously this may cause more harm than good.

It needs to be a conversation in a vacuum. Spill everything. Not just the big picture, anything you can talk about you should. The goal here is to release emotion in a controlled environment. If you hold stuff in, you can't control when or how it will go out.

This is more or less what happened to me 2-3 weeks ago. There was stuff that I didn't know how to let out. In the end it nearly ended my friendship. I had to repair things after the fact, but it would have been preferable to not have it happen at all.

I'm still typing right now, but I want you to see this before you go to bed.

 

[Luigitoilet]

I think I've fallen in love this girl I work with, over the years. She lives an hour away out of town and has a boyfriend though. I generally try to be emotionally distant and avoidant at work, and the other day she just hugged me out of nowhere and I was taken aback at how flustered and giddy I was afterwards.

I'm always crushing on girls I work with, but it is almost always simple lust. I really like this girl in a different way than most of the other girls in my life. I actually look up to her intellectually, and just in general I wish I was more like her. In a philosophical and psychological sense I admire her. Those perceived intangible behaviors and personality facets make her more attractive to me in a physical sense too. She is not someone I would have paid attention to if I hadn't spoke to her or been in her presence for an extended period. but the more I'm around her and speak to her the more it unfolds and delights.

anyways, I'm unhappy because of the boyfriend and distance thing, but also because I don't like to get my hopes up about people because they always end up disappointing me when I get to know them. I always scare myself off from meaningful relationships for intangible reasons like that. It's a terrible way to look at things, I guess, but it's hard not to.

 

[quote]

Getting teased for not seeing porn... :/.

Oh. That's unfortunate :/. It's really funny to see your friends get made fun of in the same type of way that you got made fun of, and it makes you realize that it's just friends being friends. It's an amazing quality for a group of friends to have.

Sorry to break away from the conversation a little bit, but I have a question related to unhappiness lol.

Okay, so I've been "sad" lately. I don't think I'd call it depressed or anything that serious. Nothing bad has happened, but I just have this general gloomy feeling weighing me down no matter where I am or who I'm with. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to do anything, most of my inner-thoughts either involve getting into physical fights with another person or harming myself, and I've been way more selfish and mean compared to my usual self as of late because of this. I've been way more agitated lately and it's the first time I've ever felt like I truly wanted to tell someone to **** off... and it's everyone. It's like something is taking my personality away and leaving all of the bad traits that I didn't realize I had in the first place.

It's been going on since Late January-Early February, so I'm kind of starting to worry.

My question is this: Is this normal for a teenager? I always assumed that this was, but I never really checked, and I don't really want to google it and have to read through tons of depressing stories to get my answer... @_@. I would hate to sit here with a case of major depression that isn't medicated. (I really doubt it's major if serious at all, but anythings possible I guess)

Alright the second option is sitting down alone and mentally exploring, examining and repairing yourself. This is very difficult and time consuming so don't take this lightly. Furthermore I don't think that everyone is capable of doing this. I'll get into that later though. To prepare, you want to do is get in a place/situation where the outside world is irrelevant. Make it so that people, hobbies or work won't be coming in to bother you. If you have a cell phone turn it off. This can take a while, so take that into account.

To start with, take note of any conflict that has happened in recent memory. Any of those would be a good place to start. And ask yourself: why did you take the actions that you did. Here comes the hard part. When you think about these events, you will have very strong personal biases that control what you make of these events. This is more than a matter of just keeping your held clear of biases. Each one is a line on a bulleted list of problems to address. You need to be open. If you ever reach a point where your openness is in question, stop. This doesn't have to be a one session I'm done kind of thing. I'd actually say that if that is the case, you are lying to yourself and the problem isn't really fixed.

The ultimate goal here is to identify why you took the actions that you did, and why you have the biases that you do. These things don't usually stem from one individual event. As you examine the original event, you won't usually have all the information that you need. So in this case, look for similar events. I think that most people would be surprised at the amount of subconscious negative expression that they put out. There will be more than one event. Just search for it. If you can't find anything else, take a break and come back to it in a couple of hours.

Now, to fix the problem. You only have control over yourself, your actions, and your mentalities. You don't have control over other people. You should immediately discard any solution you can think of that involves other people. Your solutions should involve breaking down these causes and actions as irrational, unnecessary to the point that you desire to not take those actions. This is more than just defining them as being negative. You need to find reasons strong enough that it will hold you back on a subconscious level.

I wouldn't worry about this part until the rest is finished in its entirety. Lastly, you need to wrap up any loose ends. Try to express any unresolved feelings and just your feelings to other people that you may have had issues with. Keep in mind that your goal is to resolve your own personal inner conflict. Don't try to get any change out of other people because you are doing this to fix yourself, not others. If you do this, you will start a new conflict, and then you have to do the work all over again.

As a disclaimer, this is extremely difficult to do. I was able to work through it primarily because I really didn't want to lose my friend. Stubborn arrogant and self-righteous people may find this nearly impossible to do. It also requires an unusual amount of patience. If you can just find the right person to talk to, that would be a million times easier.

 

[PsychoIncarnate]

Ever watch a movie that comes to a logical ending, everything is resolved, yet it STILL drags on after that?

At the moment, that's exactly how everything I do feels like

 

[Baskerville]

I get pissed off every time people can't make up their damn minds for once...

 

[Zone]

Our Foreign Policy.

I cry like a ***** everytime I watch this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=Ju5A4RXICx4

 

[Jasou]

That moment when you record grand finals of a tournament on your computer and half of it goes missing for no reason when it's supposed to auto save it.

 

[Dooms]

I haven't had a chance to try that yet Quote, since my parents are always yelling for me to do something, meaning I'd have to stop focusing, but I'm going to try that as soon as possible.

I actually don't have anyone close enough to talk to about any of my emotions in person. I set myself far enough from others to the point where I just don't have that person. The only person that would come close is a friend that is preparing for AP exams, so I fear that if I bother her with my troubles, she'd do worse on her exam, and that's college credit down the drain. I can't really say I have anyone besides that person that I trust, though. She's really happy with her life, so she hasn't been through this recently at all. So the easier choice isn't really an option for me ._.

Thank you so much, Quote! I will definitely try the second suggestion when I have alone time! ^_^.

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

Dooms! I'm here for you if you ever need an ear c:

 

[Holder of the Heel]

I'm going to write out a lot, more than most would care to read, but I'm going to type it out because it is a quick and easy way to flesh out the things in my head. Even if no one really responds it is still okay, like how in life/movies/shows when someone dies and a person talks to the body, it is really him just expressing his feelings.

I remember not too long ago I posted in here claiming that there was no point in unhappiness and that happiness was always the better choice and is always an available option. I still think this way, controversial as it was. I always feel that that I have control of myself, and that when something obstructs me in life, I don't experience what most people do where they ask questions and need others to answer. I answer all of the questions pertaining to my being all by myself. Something I have perhaps developed because of my Epicurean lifestyle. But that statement is the reason why I am posting here.

What I mean by Epicurean is that I live to please myself and don't involve myself in public affairs much because it saves me from a lot of the negative and exhausting energy that flies around out there, that would threaten the control I have finally obtained in life. I've spent almost all of my life actually having no control over myself, always thinking that someone other than myself needs to tell me that I'm happy, and that I matter. I've always been chasing the elusive idea of love and thinking I have it and that it is the only thing that could possibly matter. Of course, that was a very self-destructive lifestyle, and I continuously kept wasting years of my life building my existence off of people that I later find distasteful until suddenly in the last two love interests I ended up just losing all feeling and dropping them out of the blue. It just all stopped.

I used to think living like an Epicurean was not a very good idea. In fact, I think I still might think that way. I thought living like a Stoic (the rival Hellenistic philosophical way of thinking) where you through yourself into the world of negative energy and tried to manage it and make it better, and all the while never being affected by it, hence the word stoic. Just typing that it seems that being a Stoic is by far better, and is more like what I've said in the first paragraph. Choosing happiness no matter what was around you. But before I knew it, after graduating from high school, I looked around and noticed I was an Epicurean.

I even took it a step further and became a hermit, I didn't find myself invested in any human being or interested in many activities. The only things that really interest me video games, and sometimes manga and philosophy will come by and acquire my attention. I can't help but think that I ended up this way, being a wannabe Stoic, who believes that happiness is always an option, but isn't capable of really proving that like a Stoic actually would. I've spent my life either alone or spending it with a special someone, all the while not being interested in things. Now I come out the other end at 19 years old. What do I have to show for it? Am I smarter? Am I more skilled at things? Do I invest in anything? Can I be sociable? Am I funner to be around? I don't feel 19 in a lot of ways because of this way I have been living, I've always been a little Epicurean (thanks to introversion). Always. But now is my Zenith, and I am wondering if living in this way is really that good. I mean, I am never hurt like I could be when I wasn't full-blown Epicurean in style, and I do believe that I have obtained wisdom with passively watching things that people in the flux of existence would probably miss in that confusing mass that seems alien to me now, where most people probably see at least some order and purpose.

But anyways, the point is, I think I am happy, but I do look around and notice there isn't a whole lot going on in life right now, and I somehow find that I dug this hole for the sake of happiness and sanity that may be hard to get out of. To get out of for what? Lose this peace for what? Excitement? That life sucking thing called love? Purpose (I feel it is needed to say I view purpose as something that we simply put a lot of our life into)? Is there any of that out there for me? As someone who loves fantasy and surreal things in books and anime, can I really be interested? As someone who thinks love is like having a grown man trying to stuff a square through the circle space in a shape sorter toy, where so much as to be sacrificed, where rationality just goes out the window and that is suppose to be the beautiful thing about it?

I don't feel unhappy, though I feel a bit lacking still, like I am conscious that I am not taking risks. Or like a video game that has no flaws but just isn't as fun as some games that is funner despite having flaws. It isn't that I think perfection is boring. I don't even think I've acquired a state of perfect ease with myself, that does not seem at all possible, even in theory. I am not quite sure for once what to do, and I am getting quite tired and self-conscious of repeatedly typing the pronoun "I", so there. XD


Probably going to post this as a User Blog considering the length, wasn't sure how long this was going to be until it came all of the way out.

 

[SnackAttack]

Hi everyone, this is my first post here.

I've been dealing with feelings of inadequacy quite a bit as of late. I'm mad at who I am as a human being right now. I'm mad that I lack social skills, I'm mad that I'm garbage at things I spend all my time doing, my lack of fashion sense, and my horrid decision making throughout life.

I often think of what life for me would be like if I joined the gym at the end of middle school like I initially planned. I often think of what would happened had I not been such a ***** about smash. I think that life would be better for me. I think I would actually be proud of who I am for once. I just joined the gym back in february. It's working little by little but I'm scared of not reaching my goals before I leave for college in august.

The ONE thing that I'm scared of most is that I'll be known as some scrawny, nerdy kid with no fashion sense on the first day of school. I DO NOT want that. I want college to be a new start. I want college to be what high school and community college weren't. I want it to be fun. I want to develop social skills. I wanna get ***. I wanna make friends. I wanna get a degree. I want to leave with my head held high. I want to look back at the experience fondly.

****. It felt good to finally get that off my chest.

 

[PsychoIncarnate]

You could do what I did, wear leather with spiky bands and ***** slap one of the most popular kids in face

Edit: That was high school, not college.

I didn't care about ANYONE in college

 

[Froggy]

It's looking like I can't keep up parttime time job now that I have a fulltime job. I am going to work tired and hungry today, without any lunch. I am going to tell my client today that I can't work on anymore projects until Saturday. Which maybe a problem since he is receiving more projects now than anytime since I've been working for him.

At least I tried :/

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

Hi everyone, this is my first post here.

I've been dealing with feelings of inadequacy quite a bit as of late. I'm mad at who I am as a human being right now. I'm mad that I lack social skills, I'm mad that I'm garbage at things I spend all my time doing, my lack of fashion sense, and my horrid decision making throughout life.

I often think of what life for me would be like if I joined the gym at the end of middle school like I initially planned. I often think of what would happened had I not been such a ***** about smash. I think that life would be better for me. I think I would actually be proud of who I am for once. I just joined the gym back in february. It's working little by little but I'm scared of not reaching my goals before I leave for college in august.

The ONE thing that I'm scared of most is that I'll be known as some scrawny, nerdy kid with no fashion sense on the first day of school. I DO NOT want that. I want college to be a new start. I want college to be what high school and community college weren't. I want it to be fun. I want to develop social skills. I wanna get ***. I wanna make friends. I wanna get a degree. I want to leave with my head held high. I want to look back at the experience fondly.

****. It felt good to finally get that off my chest.

Sounds like you need a mall adventure
Not even kidding
Have a friend who knows what will look good on you, or even the employees at the store, help you pick out nice clothing. It'll help your confidence and help to reinvent yourself. It worked pretty well for my roommate and me- I basically trashed most of my high school wardrobe of graphic ts, plain jeans, and clothes that didn't suit me for a more feminine style that is comfy and looks nice. Roommate did the same thing last week - she went from plain to fashionista. A little change in wardrobe can go a long way

And jus keep working hard at the gym. It'll pay off in due time, so don't worry about time contraints. You got this c:

And for social skills....challenge yourself. It's scary to go and talk to new people, but challenge yourself to start conversations with someone you have never talked to before, or join a club in your college. If you put forth the effort, social awkwardness will be replaced by newfound confidence c:

Just believe in yourself. You can do this c:

 

[Froggy]

My supervisor told me today that I'm not working quickly enough today. I'm not too worried about that, because I know I can work faster than I have been(I have been laxed at work), but what does bother me is that I'll be having another one of my supervisors look over my shoulder to see how my efficiency could be improved for the rest of the day. I feel like I'm going to work worse later because of this and she'll have a whole lot criticisms which may or may not get relayed to my head supervisor.

Also this is the second(although unrelated) issue my supervisor has had to speak to me about in my two weeks on the job. That's not good.

 

[Jasou]

Hi everyone, this is my first post here.

I've been dealing with feelings of inadequacy quite a bit as of late. I'm mad at who I am as a human being right now. I'm mad that I lack social skills, I'm mad that I'm garbage at things I spend all my time doing, my lack of fashion sense, and my horrid decision making throughout life.

I often think of what life for me would be like if I joined the gym at the end of middle school like I initially planned. I often think of what would happened had I not been such a ***** about smash. I think that life would be better for me. I think I would actually be proud of who I am for once. I just joined the gym back in february. It's working little by little but I'm scared of not reaching my goals before I leave for college in august.

The ONE thing that I'm scared of most is that I'll be known as some scrawny, nerdy kid with no fashion sense on the first day of school. I DO NOT want that. I want college to be a new start. I want college to be what high school and community college weren't. I want it to be fun. I want to develop social skills. I wanna get ***. I wanna make friends. I wanna get a degree. I want to leave with my head held high. I want to look back at the experience fondly.

****. It felt good to finally get that off my chest.

I used to really lack social skills until I got some friends in high school. I wouldn't say i'm good at socializing, but as I got friends I got much better at it. My problem is that I really don't know what to socialize about all the time. It was hard to over come that gap because all I wanted to talk about was video games and most of the time my nerdy friends wouldn't even play the same games. You just have to be in the moment really. There is a time for thinking about video games and then there is a time for thinking about now. Once you can at least get a little bit in the now you'll find socializing is easy (as long as you be nice ofc).

I hope any of that helps, gl.

Also Chrono's advice is good as well. Clubs are fun and socializing is awkward at first, but it really isn't with some practice. ofc there will be others you will not want to socialize with.

 

[Froggy]

Geesh, I can hardly believe this.

My Cousin and I have grown pretty close over the last half year. I bought her a camera as a present last Christmas. And I promised to get her a Blackberry phone for her upcoming Birthday. My aunt(My cousin's mother) found out about this, and now she has been calling me, to send her presents and now even money! This same Aunt who I speak to like maybe once every 3 years prior to this.

It's stupid. I'm not rich or anything. I understand that she is struggling, but I am can't be her get stable quick card. I don't know how to go about telling her no! For all this.

 

[Shorts]

Poured my heart out to someone, and literally got an "lol, okeh" as a response

Not even an actual response, negative or positive...

I don't know whether to be mad, or sad? I should probably be neither, and just let go.

It's so weird, the muddled mess him, I, and another boy had come into at the begining of our relationship. I mean, my friend/Ex Mac (The one I poured my heart out to) was this recently dumped, fragile guy, I was the new kid, who seemed too good to be true (Flirty ****), and this boy Adrian was telling Mac to stay away from me, only to be pushed aside and ignored. Well, basically, I've become Adrian, and a new boy is playing my old role. The only problem is, this song and dance always ends with Mac being dumped and depressed, coming crying back to me. Something I'm no longer willing to take...

I can't believe he could be so... so... careless? Someone who gets stepped on often, being so thoughtless with his few friends he has? He must really be on a relationship high if he's acting so reckless. When it's over, and he's been dumped like he always is, I'll be glad to see him have no one to help him back up. Is that disgusting? I'm becoming Adrian... and thats never good.

None of this makes sense to anyone but me, and I know it. I just needed to WRITE THIS, so I can go to sleep.

 

[Jasou]

Well, I think it did actually make some sense to me, i'm just not sure if I got the actual meaning of it. So basically your saying he has no one to go to and you tried to flirt with him, but he wanted someone else and then went back to you after there is no one else? Well ofc then at that rate you should let him have no one to back him up. Aside from that I hope it doesn't throw him into some sort of depression if he has that kind of personality, because I can imagine how depressing that could be(even though it kinda sounds like he did it to himself).

Also gl on your work Froggy, that sounds stressful.

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

ROOMMATE AND HER BOYFRIEND NEED TO CHECK IF IM AWAKE BEFORE DOING STUFF ;_____; I tend to just wake up and lie in bed for an hour. And I have top bunk. So I've been sitting on my phone, answering emails and just checking stuff on the interwebs.
And now I hear kissing and whispering and other stuff so now I'm upset and I'm gonna curl up in a ball ;____; waaaaaaaahhhhhhhh

 

[Dooms]

You should pull out a camera and record it as secretly as possible.

 

[Holder of the Heel]

Shortie, that is not disgusting. Pretty much the healthiest and most likely response honestly.

And what Dooms said. Do it.

 

[Teran]

Poured my heart out to someone, and literally got an "lol, okeh" as a response

Not even an actual response, negative or positive...

I don't know whether to be mad, or sad? I should probably be neither, and just let go.

It's so weird, the muddled mess him, I, and another boy had come into at the begining of our relationship. I mean, my friend/Ex Mac (The one I poured my heart out to) was this recently dumped, fragile guy, I was the new kid, who seemed too good to be true (Flirty ****), and this boy Adrian was telling Mac to stay away from me, only to be pushed aside and ignored. Well, basically, I've become Adrian, and a new boy is playing my old role. The only problem is, this song and dance always ends with Mac being dumped and depressed, coming crying back to me. Something I'm no longer willing to take...

I can't believe he could be so... so... careless? Someone who gets stepped on often, being so thoughtless with his few friends he has? He must really be on a relationship high if he's acting so reckless. When it's over, and he's been dumped like he always is, I'll be glad to see him have no one to help him back up. Is that disgusting? I'm becoming Adrian... and thats never good.

None of this makes sense to anyone but me, and I know it. I just needed to WRITE THIS, so I can go to sleep.

You should just take a step back and relax.

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

You should pull out a camera and record it as secretly as possible.

Nooooooooo
I got a phone call so I jumped off my bunk
Like
Freaking leaped

Then i just rolled and sat there like 'wtf happened?'
Roommate was confused

 

[Jasou]

I hate people that are manipulative and I hate people who tell lots of lies. It's a shame that I met someone with both of those personalities. It's extremely annoying.

 

[Shorts]

My roomate is related to me

Sex, all the time.

0_0

 

[Chronodiver Lokii]

My roomate is related to me

Sex, all the time.

0_0

Sounds awkwardddddddddd o____o

 

[Luigitoilet]

yeah that's pretty awkward. you should ask to join in to "break the ice" so to say.

 

[PsychoIncarnate]

yeah that's pretty awkward. you should ask to join in to "break the ice" so to say.

I was going to say the same thing

 

[Lore]

Alright guys, move on from the sex talk.