2019, a.k.a. the best year of my whole life.
January was amazingly good in comparison to all the months in 2018, being a joyfull time all the way with the peak happening when Marvel started Fantastic Four Week out of nowhere and just delivered F4 fanservice from left to right without a stop... doh it then got followed by February (the worst month of my life) when my great aunt died, ****ed up stuff happened inside my family and the internet, this thread almost got full on sick of myself due to the messed up stuff I was doing back then due to all the things going on in my life to the point some people shamed me when I announced a break from the site to get my stuff up... not a beautiful time which I would never wish towards anyone else.
But after that mental hell of a month finished, my life was slowly getting back on track. It started a bit around march with Captain Marvel (a movie I personally enjoyed doh got trashed all around the internet for liking it) but bad stuff was still happening to me pretty frequently to the point it wasn’t enough.
...But then, a day from the first week of June when I woke up from a nightmare about someone committing suicide... things finally went right. That day happened to be just way more good than I imagined to the point it finally made me have a non-forced smile on my face.
And since that day, I have just found myself on a really needed chain of great events, each one slightly better than the other one.
Never in my life have I felt this much desire of keeping myself as alive as possible.... and hopefully it keeps going this way.
Kinda ironic, since many people claim that the year one turns 18 is regularly the worst one... but not for me.