Objection!
LOL Lanstar definitely has an ego as much as he wants to pretend that his post was just him trying to troll.
He played me in tournament where all he did was try to prove that he can powershield my missiles, I mean, he really didn't try to approach, and his body language was that of a guy with an ego. It was pretty cocky IMO, and since I have a big ego too, I started casually trying to prove that the powershielding didn't phase me and I was still going to shoot missiles.
He seemed to try much harder when he realized we were pretty close during the 2nd match.
The most egotistical part was that after beating him 2-0, where the 2nd game was kinda close, he seemed pretty upset, as if he was robbed, and asked me for what seemed like a post-set rage friendly. He can act like it wasn't, but I know a raging friendly request when I hear one.
That post was definitely, in-part, trolling. The trolling was me saying I don't try and that I basically hide my secretly amazing skill from everyone. It's not like that at all, and even if I could call upon amazing skills I believe sandbagging people in tournament is a messed up thing to do. I guess, if for some reason they asked you too, it could be acceptable under the correct circumstances. Otherwise, you're not only insulting the person, but you're also taking away a chance for them to learn and grow as a player. When I play in tournament, I give it my all, unless I give up hope completely.
I've spent hundreds of hours(maybe even 1000+ now) going over frame data, percents, match-ups, possibilities, and much more. Sometimes even in my sleep. I understand smash theory very well, but unfortunately I can't usually put most of that knowledge into play. Although, there have been a few times when I've played smash and stopped consciously thinking. Certainly not in a negative way though, it's as if suddenly I can apply everything I know to a degree of near perfection. I guess it's like a semi-hypnotic state, or maybe it's what people are talking about with the phrase "in the zone". Anyway, I've definitely reached that state a few times in smash, and every time I did, I was unstoppable. So I suppose therein lies my ego, I feel that at my absolute best I'm a well skilled player capable of at least competing with almost anyone.
You caught me though, I definitely have an ego. Honestly though, I think it can be a very useful thing. To tell you the truth, I wish I had near absolute faith in myself, because when I play someone and I truly conclude that victory an unreachable object, it feels like my chances drop from slim, to hopeless(that's when I stop trying). So believing that digging deep enough will yield me with the skill to win could really make all the difference for me. That's just me though.
I did powershield almost every single missile you shot at me, game 2 you eventually stopped almost all together, all you did was dash dance and wait for me to do stupid ****(which I did haha). However, the reason I was talking about my ability to powershield was due to excitement, and not ego. I was just happy because that was the first tournament it really clicked with me(I had been working on it for over a month).
I didn't feel robbed, quite the contrary actually. I felt really good about that set as a whole. I even thought you might have been impressed with me(that's majorly why I wanted to play more, besides the fact I ask almost everyone to play after a tournament set win or lose), but I suppose I was wrong. Back then I was looking/hoping for that pat on the shoulder feeling more than usual(another reason why I was so loudmouthed about my powershielding to everyone). I needed some reassurance that playing smash(something I've spent countless hours on) was worth it, I needed to believe it wasn't all a pointless waste of time(sorry for sounding so emo haha). This was mostly because of my girlfriend taking her own life two months prior to that tournament, it caused me to look for reaffirmation in many aspects of my life.
I'm not sure how my desire to play you again after our tournament set drew you to the conclusion that it was out of rage. I ask almost everyone I play in tournament to do some more games with me after out set whether I win or lose =D(Unless it's someone I play on a semi-regular basis). If I looked upset or "robbed" it was probably because I was worried about not making it out of pools. I had to play with two more people, one of which I had experienced some trouble with in friendlies, and ironically enough I think the other person was Baka4moe. I did manage to make it out of pools though.
Even though all of this is true, there is a another important private and personal reason for the way I was acting at that tournament(it also applies for many other tournaments). If you're feeling nonjudgmental and even give a damn, message me privately.
TL;DR
So yeah... I pretty much dumped everything haha... I don't really expect anyone to read it all, but there it is. I guess you can enjoy judging me as a person if you decide to read it :3
