Teeb147
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Hello everyone.
I'm just awake here mid-sleep, haven't heard from dylly again (may just be sleeping or not)
And I'm not all there energetically, but I thought before anything else that since all this happened, you deserved to know a little more about Dylly's condition.
Dylly focused alot of little energy there was yesterday talking with me, if you didn't know. I made sure this was ok and he said it was helping him to talk with me so I spent a lot of my day trying to understand and answering in the best ways I felt and could. Dylly surprised me with the last posts here, because that wasn't how he sounded with me before that, and I can tell you there was a LOT of pain and anguish coming through, that I was able to tell directly and indirectly.
Dylly has been struggling with something for years, and it was very hard for him to face some aspects of it directly--I can't go into specific detail on some things for private reasons, but from what I gathered, this was caused by incredible and unfathomable anxiety and panic attacks over long periods, over years. I also feel that a big harm to the body was also the immense amount of resentment that dylly held in, for some underlying reasons. It's very heart breaking and I don't wish anything like that on anyone. I'm sorry I can't say very much more, and please understand he did not fully understand it either, and also may have felt a lot of anxiety and (self) resentment about the condition itself, from what I could tell, or something like that and had trouble talking about it.
He also said it wasn't impossible to survive, but that there was a very slim chance. I'm sorry this came all out and about at once, it was getting overwhelming and the anxiety was even spilling into this thread, and his body almost shut down at some points. There's not much more I can say for now, but if there's more I can say, I'll see about that tomorow, and whatever may or may not be said to others.
Thank you for understanding. I'm sorry we had to lose a friend like this. (unless he can somehow make it back..)
I'm just awake here mid-sleep, haven't heard from dylly again (may just be sleeping or not)
And I'm not all there energetically, but I thought before anything else that since all this happened, you deserved to know a little more about Dylly's condition.
Dylly focused alot of little energy there was yesterday talking with me, if you didn't know. I made sure this was ok and he said it was helping him to talk with me so I spent a lot of my day trying to understand and answering in the best ways I felt and could. Dylly surprised me with the last posts here, because that wasn't how he sounded with me before that, and I can tell you there was a LOT of pain and anguish coming through, that I was able to tell directly and indirectly.
Dylly has been struggling with something for years, and it was very hard for him to face some aspects of it directly--I can't go into specific detail on some things for private reasons, but from what I gathered, this was caused by incredible and unfathomable anxiety and panic attacks over long periods, over years. I also feel that a big harm to the body was also the immense amount of resentment that dylly held in, for some underlying reasons. It's very heart breaking and I don't wish anything like that on anyone. I'm sorry I can't say very much more, and please understand he did not fully understand it either, and also may have felt a lot of anxiety and (self) resentment about the condition itself, from what I could tell, or something like that and had trouble talking about it.
He also said it wasn't impossible to survive, but that there was a very slim chance. I'm sorry this came all out and about at once, it was getting overwhelming and the anxiety was even spilling into this thread, and his body almost shut down at some points. There's not much more I can say for now, but if there's more I can say, I'll see about that tomorow, and whatever may or may not be said to others.
Thank you for understanding. I'm sorry we had to lose a friend like this. (unless he can somehow make it back..)
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