Those are things that will come with time. We all get destroyed a lot before we grow. Nobody starts off winning tournaments, unless you're Ally, but like... there's countless pros who struggled for YEARS before they got anything done. The reason I look up to NAKAT so much is because he would talk about his early journey, about how he started off getting double 3-stocked and going 0-2, then hearing about his work over time. Now he's someone who wins tournaments. M2K was awful, but he put in thousands of hours to, at one point, become the #1 Melee player and #1 Brawl player in the world at the same time. I have not put in anything near that and really need to step it up before I can keep dwelling on the thoughts I dwell on.
My recent mental block is needing to represent Roy NOW, needing to be able to compare to Ryo's Roy NOW, and just feeling entitled over putting 9-10 months of Roy in this game and years in Melee and PM. I was really hard on myself lately for going 2-2 twice, when that shouldn't be my biggest concern or anywhere near it.
I'm still trying to work around it, it will take time, but I'm going to kick it and learn how to enjoy the game most and improve over time without trying to force or rush anything eventually.
I WILL fix this mentality that's continually given me issues, I know I can do better for myself and for those in the community. I will make this a better community and I will shape myself into who I want to be.
I'm willing to put in the months and years, and I'm letting burnout and laziness and entitlement keep a hold on me and drag me into low lows over and over. I'm working on balancing my energy and my highs and lows to accomplish this. I fail often, even now, but I'm getting better over time. I've had a lot of progress the last 3 days. I'm going to apply this to Smash.
I don't want to just prove to people I can do this, this is something I need to do for me, so I'll get it down regardless.
There was one point, where I played Project M friendlies with someone in 2013. Now, he doesn't play Peach. He picked Peach, only used side-b, and
3 or 4 stocked me. I will always remember that match. A little over a year later, I was already going to tournaments, making friends, watching sets, and labbing really hard to be good at Melee and PM. I really invested in Smash 4 when it was coming. I watched the invitational live, studied the official beta tournaments, and watched VGBootCamp's moveset videos. When the 3DS version came out in Japan, I watched streamers who put their matches on YouTube, and watched Shockwave when it first started. When the game came out, I was already traveling to play it, and putting in work even if my main didn't make it.
I played that same guy, and I was 2 or 3 stocking him consistently. Be it whether I used Marth, Falco, Sheik, Ike, Ness, DK, or Robin, I would really put the hurt on him. That's the most accomplished I ever felt with Smash, and the most I've seen come from my work.
I really got scrubbed on by a PM Ganondorf who was one of our state's best Melee/PM players at my first Smash tournament. A lot of people watched me go something like 0-22 to him in friendlies. I kept playing and playing because I wanted to see what he was doing to win. A while later, I was playing friendlies with him in Melee before he moved away. I was going even with him as Roy.
The difference between then and now? I've lost a lot of my constructive mentality and drive. It's still there, and I know I have to dig for it and get over a lot of recent stuff that's piled up first. I'm getting it back slowly. Once I have it, I'll likely be at that balance I'm striving for again.
But I believe in you. I will play you on wifi one of these days if you're willing, and I will do what I can to help. I find voice chat best for getting and giving advice on improvement, but if that's not ideal, I can jot down notes as we play. I think, by the end of the year, you could start placing a lot better as brackets go by.