Maybe you see me as the problem because I'm the only one thats trying to do ****. It's not about having a life, becuase we all have one. Mo does alot with College, football, poker, chillin with friends, drinking, whatever. Murn I know you are like borderline alcoholic so I know you like to go party when theres a chance. Leon has more hoes than anyone i've ever met in my life. Smeesh does alot for his family and is always trying to make his job work out for him. Here I am attending college and working as little of shifts it may be, but also with my gf and other friends as well. I have no idea what Mike does, and Yosh is living with some friends in GI, and has gotten a new job. I also know that Aaron is living his life as happy as he could want it, and he is busy with his new life, too. Uli and his friends are still in high school and just living life as such, and Quen is always under his mom's rule 24 hours a day. So you see, everyone here in this forum has a life, its stupid to say anyone that smashes doesnt, besides obvious people around the world. To say that I don't expect you to have a life is a completely void statement, and shouldn't even be thought. If you have any idea why i'm trying so hard to get you people to get into smash in a bit, is because theres actually a chance now, where there wasnt before. We actually have a chance to go out and do better ****, and have a great time traveling to these tournaments, especially MLGs. Murn, you mention that its about fun, its a game. Do you think I don't think that? Do you think when I try so hard to get people to go to SMYM, or FOB, or anything like that, that I expect to win? Of course not, and I don't see why its so frustrating to everyone when I want to get you to come to a tourney. I never say you specifically have to come, theres plenty of smashers here in this state, for us to form a carfull. Over a year ago I came up to your house, Murn, to just come up and have a good time enjoying this game that I finally had found other people were playing. Sure it might not have went so well for me, but even with having a life, I still thought it was alot of fun to play, and to better myself at it. The more things I did, the better I got at this game, the better I felt, the more fun I had. And I know thats how everyone here feels, the better you become, the more fun you have, thats why everyone wants to get better. Sure I've been a little round to people lately, especially Mo, but thats because any other approach you take to the dude, goes unnoticed. The only last approach was to call him out. If it doesnt work, then i'm sorry I must of hurt all of your feelings, making you think I want you to ditch your entire life to play a video game.
So you think i'm more problem than solution, do you not even realize half of the **** that I have done for you guys? Maybe because i'm a modest enough person to not take credit for most of the **** I do, but do you think I've just sat around and done nothing in the past year? Who was the one that planned all the recent trips? Who's the one thats even trying to keep an active tournament scene to you people. You want to call me out as a problem, because you're not going to get to do **** yourself? You're not going to get to take credit for the one that does something? Grow up. All I have tried to do for you guys in Omaha is help, I'm 100 miles away from you right now, but half of you could consider me a close personal friend. All of you here met me because of a video game, but it wouldnt even look like it from any other glance. When I first introduced Devon to my mom, she thought he was a buddy of mine from high school or something, not someone you just sit around and play a video game with, someone that doesnt even live in the same town as me. All of you here in this forum have all formed close relationships with atleast someone, and could be one of the biggest factors that is keeping you into the smash scene. What does that have to do with anything? Alot. Everyone had been in a close tie between eachother, and no one was a rival to one another. People just got together to play this game that we all loved. Then people started backing out, mainly because of the same issue: Money. Financial problems are the most common reason anyones going to try to lay low on the smash scene, and its the biggest factor in us not going to any out of state tournaments. For some reason it all grew into personal conflicts between eachother, and who are you going to blame that on. Well... I guess from the looks of it, you're going to blame that on me. Well, lets see what I've had to do with it all...
Ok so let's go way back. I mean the legend of King Murn, where he ruled all that was Smash. You also had who, Shem, Shea, Tank, Mike, Mo, Devon, David, Yosh, Aaron, some of those people you're still seeing today, although some of them left early enough to where I've never even met them. Murn beat you all. Don't even try to deny that for a second, i've heard every story that any of you have ever had. Murn owned you guys. What happened? People got better. People wanted to beat Murn, and they wanted to go somewhere with Smash, because they were having alot of fun. They probably had more of a desire for it than Murn did, sure... but thats besides the point, the point is that they did it. Murn eventually dropped out of the scene, pretty much where I was coming in, which is a shame because it really was great when everyone got together in murns house to just play some games, where now its a hassle to even get 4 people together. So who rose to the top... Mo? Mike? Devon? Rumor had it that it would have been Mo, though from the looks of it, he was in a close run with Mike. So what did they want to do then. They wanted to go to bigger tournaments, they wanted to travel, they wanted to see SMYMs, they wanted to see FCs, they wanted to do it all. You didn't stop them then, did you. You all wanted to do it. Sure it was more of a mutual feeling, that everyone wanted to go. But everyone that had been playing at the time, was going to do it, its what they wanted to do. So whats the difference now, is it the fact that some of you arent active in it any more, and you don't want people to do **** without you? Is it really jealousy thats causing all this? It'd be a pretty sad thing if it was... The fact is, with you or without you, people here still want to be in the smash scene, and you're not going to tell those people, not to do what they love. No one would have told you that 2 years ago.
But back to where I was in Paragraph 2. The fact that you want to blame me for every trouble that is occuring in the smash scene today. And why... because I try? I'm sorry that you dont want to drive 5 minutes to someones house to play smash, while I have to drive 2 hours. No that cant be it, thats not my fault, you can't blame me for that. Is it because I like to see others improve? Well that could be it, because some of you *******es from Omaha are the most self-centered people that I've ever met in my life. I've never seen anyone ****game somebody like Mike has. He doesnt give a **** if you are killing yourself to do something for him, he will just think about himself. Thats taking it a little personal I suppose, so lets take it smash related, since thats what this site is all about. He's 2 minutes from his house, and he's about to go to a smash fest. He wont even drive the 2 minutes to get to his house to go pick up his controller that he forgot, probably because he is too busy picking off all the ****in lint off of his T-shirt, to make himself look good, infront of guys! Nevermind I take that back - I mean, he's obviously thinking of you, becuase he wants to look perfect in front of you. And theres been plenty of times where I, and others, have been left outside of Mo's house waiting for him, because he wanted to just go play some poker. But again, getting personal... wow i'm pretty bad at this. Ok so lets take it smash related. Again i'll use Mike and Mo as examples, not because I hate them, but because they happen to be on the top of my mind at the moment. Mike and Mo, never want to see you improve. They always want to beat you. Makes sense, right? Why would they want you to beat them? Shouldn't they want to be better than you? Sure... but they've never tried to help someone else get better, to see them improve, and improve as a crew to represent Nebraska together - or have they? You tell me, because I don't know. Personally, Mike or Mo has never tried to help me, smashwise anyway. They've never tried to help me out outside the fact that they've even played against me to consider it practice. So if they have helped you before, keep that in mind - because thats trying to see others improve around you, thats trying to see a crew work together to get something accomplished. Do you hate on them for that? No. So why are you hating on me? Its exactly what I'm trying to do, is get something together, to have fun but also to improve with eachother, and not be so individualized as a crew.
If you want to do it or not, then don't. If you see me as a problem, then no longer consider me part of your crew, if 5 Guys and a Yosh even still exists. I guess i'll just be a free agent, and why not, I'm not in Omaha anyway. I'll do my own ****. After all, it's always been my idea whenever I go to a tournament, and I've already been planning and had in mind, the idea to attend every event of next seasons circuit. I've also been planning to attend some MLGs. So if you're just going to accuse me of being a problem, then I wont bother you any more. Not like any of you are giving me **** in return anyway. Every time I've tried to help, or get something organized, I've either been ignored or outspoken. I'm sorry if no one else here wants to do **** with their smash game, but I'm gonna go somewhere. **** some of you wouldnt even give me the credibility for winning the past tournaments that we've had. You think its just a fluke, in fact you'd probably just say you let me win. Well, its not. Maybe if you're going to hate me becuase I beat you that one time, I apoligize. I'm not sayin i'm the greatest, but I have the desire to be it, and maybe thats whats seperating me from the rest of you. I'm going to attend the next midwest circuit, and do nothing but try to better myself, and achieve a goal that I've been after for a while, and while some of you may be happy with just being a top player from Nebraska, thats not enough for me. Outside of smash I think you're all great and wonderful people, and I would wish that none of you would think otherwise about me. I love everyone that i've met from this game, and you know I consider you some of my closest friends, all of you. But if i'm just a problem causing the conflict for you between life and smash, then I'm leaving it. I'll start another crew, of people that are in persuit of the same goal that I am, and I'll leave the rest of you alone. And if I'm by myself in this, then I guess I'll have to do things solo. I never meant to interfere with your life, other than being one of your friends. Everyone here had been so close to me, and it could of been the reason why you saw me coming up to Omaha so much, but I guess that wasnt the case, I was being a bother. My only wish is that you would have said something sooner. I'm sorry that I ever tried. Much <3, Peace.
Mike
Surely you know how it is. Maybe he'll keep in touch with Murn and stuff, could be a kreeper.
