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My mind is hyper active. I can't get it to stop, I can't sleep, I can't pay attention I feel as if I am going crazy.
I am curious about everything and spend my time memorizing art, history, culture, science, language, Brawl, writing, weapons, aeronautics and music. I am writing a book series, making a song, studying Smash, watching history documentaries, learning math, studying science and converting Smash physics to memory. I find myself watching a Smash video and talking my way through of shift in momentum, button command and mind game. I watch footage of WW2 and make myself each character. I think about why I am here, my family back at home and what I will accomplish. I even go far enough to close my eyes and picture myself running up a beach. I even hold conversations with up to 5 people in real time. Once I got mad at a character I made. It was funny. lol
I have become obsessed with weapons. I converted using my knife to muscle memory. I can have my normal Schrade knife drawn, open and turned backwards in 3 seconds. I have made 1 Bod, several spears and 3 blow guns. I also designed 4 ways to make ninja stars and built 3 of them.
I know how to take apart a M16 rifle and how to take apart a Mosin Nagant (Russian WW2 sniper rifle.. its mine). I once attempted Dynamite.... failed though.
I have put the statistics of shooting into my head and can cut a playing card at 30 feet. Once I took a 22 rifle and shot the ace out and then turned it on its side and cut it in half. It took me 3 shots and the 4th time I hit it. I carry it in my pocket as a trophy.
Right now I just finished plans on how to make a toy car using a mouse trap as a way to trigger motion.
If I pay attention to what someones says to me I can memorize the conversation. I then for fun replay it in my head and try to think what the person was thinking. I switch positions and see what I would have done if I were them.
(I once wanted to beat myself up.)
I have learned some fighting techniques from watching them and then applying them (playingly) to my Marine father. He has also taught me stuff.
The book that I am writing I have evolved since I was 5.
I am very paranoid about it and don't like to tell others what it contains because I am afraid they will steal it.
I also taught myself how to do this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8H1inbRFas
I will accidentally memorize whole songs and then play them in my head. It usually take hearing it 3 times to memorize the sounds. I can't sing with it though cuz I usually don't understand what they are saying. I did memorize Bleed it Out and will sing it from beginning to end. Even though I get told that I skip parts. lol
When ever I work out I picture looking into my body, I see blood rushing, muscle's moving and nerve's with what looks like electricity moving down nerves (signals from my brain).
I memorized every reptile species in my area and can tell you what Snake/lizard that you have after looking at any part of its body after a few seconds (I was a snake handler for 4 years or so). (I have only tangled with a vemous Snake honestly twice, but if you asked me it would be more like 30... j/k.)
I can look at a picture, close my eyes and repicture it in my head.
When it comes to science I have trouble walking w/o trying to learn why I am doing so. I want to know how every thing works. I have studies plasma, zero point energy, alternative dimensions (more like theories lol), aura (.. I'll expand more below), dark energy and dark matter.
I believe Aura is an energy source that is a part of each molecule that is wrapped into everything, however it is nearly poking this dimension. I believe that Aura holds as gravity. The more stuff you have in an area the more aura you have and aura tends to circle its host object because it is trying to bond with more aura but it is stuck with its matter. Thus it is in a constant circle trying to escape. That is why we have a solar system.
I also believe that is there is an area of nothingness that it does escape and form an alternative mass all of its own. Thus forming dark matter. However, dark energy is the matter trying to tug it back and thus forming the universal war.
A black hole is simply aura that has collapsed upon itself and is escaping to the center instead of the out side. Thus making a whirl pool type thing. I do believe that when there is enough aura at a certain point that it will push through because it is a sup collapse. When this happens it acts like a gun with two barrels and will force energy out in two directions. Causing a rip in the fabric of time and space. aka a worm hole
I feel as if I am losing my mind.
What is your opinion? Is this normal cuz this is the first time I have ever asked this (it's easier on the internet cuz people can't give you weird looks).
My mind is hyper active. I can't get it to stop, I can't sleep, I can't pay attention I feel as if I am going crazy.
I am curious about everything and spend my time memorizing art, history, culture, science, language, Brawl, writing, weapons, aeronautics and music. I am writing a book series, making a song, studying Smash, watching history documentaries, learning math, studying science and converting Smash physics to memory. I find myself watching a Smash video and talking my way through of shift in momentum, button command and mind game. I watch footage of WW2 and make myself each character. I think about why I am here, my family back at home and what I will accomplish. I even go far enough to close my eyes and picture myself running up a beach. I even hold conversations with up to 5 people in real time. Once I got mad at a character I made. It was funny. lol
I have become obsessed with weapons. I converted using my knife to muscle memory. I can have my normal Schrade knife drawn, open and turned backwards in 3 seconds. I have made 1 Bod, several spears and 3 blow guns. I also designed 4 ways to make ninja stars and built 3 of them.
I know how to take apart a M16 rifle and how to take apart a Mosin Nagant (Russian WW2 sniper rifle.. its mine). I once attempted Dynamite.... failed though.
I have put the statistics of shooting into my head and can cut a playing card at 30 feet. Once I took a 22 rifle and shot the ace out and then turned it on its side and cut it in half. It took me 3 shots and the 4th time I hit it. I carry it in my pocket as a trophy.
Right now I just finished plans on how to make a toy car using a mouse trap as a way to trigger motion.
If I pay attention to what someones says to me I can memorize the conversation. I then for fun replay it in my head and try to think what the person was thinking. I switch positions and see what I would have done if I were them.
(I once wanted to beat myself up.)
I have learned some fighting techniques from watching them and then applying them (playingly) to my Marine father. He has also taught me stuff.
The book that I am writing I have evolved since I was 5.
I am very paranoid about it and don't like to tell others what it contains because I am afraid they will steal it.
I also taught myself how to do this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8H1inbRFas
I will accidentally memorize whole songs and then play them in my head. It usually take hearing it 3 times to memorize the sounds. I can't sing with it though cuz I usually don't understand what they are saying. I did memorize Bleed it Out and will sing it from beginning to end. Even though I get told that I skip parts. lol
When ever I work out I picture looking into my body, I see blood rushing, muscle's moving and nerve's with what looks like electricity moving down nerves (signals from my brain).
I memorized every reptile species in my area and can tell you what Snake/lizard that you have after looking at any part of its body after a few seconds (I was a snake handler for 4 years or so). (I have only tangled with a vemous Snake honestly twice, but if you asked me it would be more like 30... j/k.)
I can look at a picture, close my eyes and repicture it in my head.
When it comes to science I have trouble walking w/o trying to learn why I am doing so. I want to know how every thing works. I have studies plasma, zero point energy, alternative dimensions (more like theories lol), aura (.. I'll expand more below), dark energy and dark matter.
I believe Aura is an energy source that is a part of each molecule that is wrapped into everything, however it is nearly poking this dimension. I believe that Aura holds as gravity. The more stuff you have in an area the more aura you have and aura tends to circle its host object because it is trying to bond with more aura but it is stuck with its matter. Thus it is in a constant circle trying to escape. That is why we have a solar system.
I also believe that is there is an area of nothingness that it does escape and form an alternative mass all of its own. Thus forming dark matter. However, dark energy is the matter trying to tug it back and thus forming the universal war.
A black hole is simply aura that has collapsed upon itself and is escaping to the center instead of the out side. Thus making a whirl pool type thing. I do believe that when there is enough aura at a certain point that it will push through because it is a sup collapse. When this happens it acts like a gun with two barrels and will force energy out in two directions. Causing a rip in the fabric of time and space. aka a worm hole
I feel as if I am losing my mind.
What is your opinion? Is this normal cuz this is the first time I have ever asked this (it's easier on the internet cuz people can't give you weird looks).
