I think that's kind of a depressing way to look at **** man. If you don't like school don't do it. You have to learn that doing things that make you happy is what is most important in life.
As i said before, nothing really makes me happy but Lets be real, having a degree in ANYTHING is safer than not having one. Many many times it auto guarantees you a minimum of XYZ pay grade than when compared to a person without one. Hell, if you get on any major job website, a bachelors degree is pretty much the standard for most of everything above working at Mc Ds. Though i hate school, i have to get SOMETHING under my belt and im working on it. It is just a very slow process. I dont wanna bust my ass the rest of my life at the plants/factories like the rest of the people who come from Santa Fe like i did.
Do what you have to do (work a job to feed yourself and provide for your daughter) and then enjoy the rest. **** Allan of all people I know you can just tell everyone f you and f off and do what you want.
When it comes to non important stuff like games, yes you are right, i have no problem telling people to DEAL WITH IT or EAT IT but in real life i dont like doing that. If you have ever been around me in a serious situation i dont troll. Especially after the divorce i learned (well, i mean i have a deeper understanding) people legit have problems that shouldn't be treated carelessly or made fun of.
I do "do what i have to do." I pay the w_h_o_r_e (and i dont even get services they should provide
) monthly, i pay my bills/loans, i pay for claire when i have her.....etc. I do my thing but its not fun, not getting me everywhere. I feel like im just cruising in life until i die. Im in no hurry to die of course but that is how it feels when i have no direction.
I know the divorce and all that bull**** is a nasty taste in your mouth but man you have to move forward and focus on what's going on right now.
Ive most def moved on from the actual cheating part or divorce. I never think about it. its the temp/perm "side effects" that are still very real and present. You wouldnt understand. Not because you are not smart or whatever but because you have not been with a girl for 6 year, took her out of poverty, got the money to pay for her education, married her, had a kid with her and then have hurt cheat on you all because she "shouldnt have to work to fix things." Due to that trash, im stuck with a child support payment that only goes UP over the next 14 years. Im stuck with my child being in a broken family where one member slings leg like a rotating door to every guy she meets (how will this F up my daughter?) and i cant do anything because my visitation rights are restricted. Im not saying its impossible (many do it) but ts extremely hard to focus on "whats going on right now" when this kind of stuff hovers over you 24/7.
Enjoy your time with Clair and enjoy your time playing your game and quit worrying about how people act around you and just do your own ****.
I enjoy time with Claire and am not worried about others around me but smash 4 still sucks, man.
Quit listening to people that get you down and quit going to school if ultimately you're never going to enjoy it. I know people are going to mark what I'm saying as naïve but I really don't give a **** because their opinions mean nothing to me and they can deal with it.
A lot of it is truly you not knowing. but its not cause you are not smart. its because you have not been there (i hope you dont either). But the school thing, man, i have to get it done. i have to.
Get a job, manager your money well, be happy with Clair and just do **** you like.
I have a job, it sucks.
I can manage money....if i have some left after bills/loans.
I am happy with Claire.
Id love to do **** i like but most of it sucks currently.
Don't feel bad/pressured just because you're currently at your dad's house. Many men have fallen way further than that.
No hot woman/man/lawnmower wants a dude who lives with his dad. I also dont want my kid going to 1st grade "career day" and tell the class "MY DADDY LIVES WITH HIS DADDY"
And tbh i dont really tell most people all this stuff because yeah my position, though bad, is light compared to homeless or deformed or half a dozen other scenarios. Im simply voicing what has stemmed from the discussion of how poopoo smash 4 is and how i dont like it.
Focusing on negative got no one anywhere. Focus on what you want to do and what ways you can take yourself out of that situation and learn from the past and not dwell on it.
You have to focus on the negative in order to beat it. And i and trying to improve stuff. Ive bought more useless college classes and am looking for a girl/guy/lawnmower to live with so that i can get out of this house.
Edit: Having hard times/being depressed is always on you (unless you have a mental problem which god bless your heart you can't do **** about that other than drugs) to change by your own hands. It's okay to sulk every now and then but a strong man finds a way to learn from his experiences and move forward ALWAYS.
I know with 100% certainty that there is a difference between "hard times" and being depressed. In fact there are many forms of depression. Some people go through hard times and become lazy about fixing it. This laziness can lead to depression and a sense of "oh well i cant do it. ill guess ill just rot here in the mud." Im not like that, i know i can fix it and im actively seeking ways to fix it (doing school i hate/working a job i hate/allowing amanda to live another day). My issue is that at every turn i am hit with a road block (be it Amanda or something else) and the few times recently i need to step back and do something for a quick escape that i KNOW will work.....it turns out to fail (smash 4). The sad thing is, once you reach this level, there is truly no one who can help you. Its all on you. Pretty sad.
Jumping in here, but...
Allan, it seems to me like you have two conflicting goals. You say you want to be the best at a lower-tier character, which is certainly possible (I saw you do it with Samus in Brawl), but then you find a lower-tier character you like (Palutena) and gripe about how Palutena doesn't have the tools to beat high-tier characters like Diddy.
You had the same problem in Brawl. You were a god at Samus, but could never win an event because of Meta Knight. But like you said, you got past it and settled for doing well in mid-tier side events and doubles or what-have-you (been out of the scene for too long). You can do this again in Smash 4.
It seems to me like you want every character to be viable at the highest level of play, but this just isn't going to happen in any fighting game, ever. Look at Melee standings: it's almost always going to be a Fox/Falco/Jigglypuff winning events. Look at Brawl events: it's almost always going to be an MK or IC. There will always be tier lists, and there will always be tier *****s.
So basically you have two options, and you've already laid them out yourself. Give in to tier whoring and bust your *** to be the best and win events, or "settle" for a more relaxed approach and do well in mid-tier events. With your schedule it sounds like the latter is more viable. So find a character you like, learn their ins-and-outs (regardless of whether they can beat Diddy Kong or not), and start hosting mid-tier tournaments at your events.
I know I haven't been around in the scene for a long time now and may be out of touch, but I hope this helps. I have ALWAYS been terrible at Smash, so I know how it feels to be lost and frustrated with results.
My problem is finding enjoyment in the game. Be it using top tier or using poop tier, i just dont like this game. I am still trying to find ways to like it though cause i dont wanna admit ive wasted 2 years of waiting/2 years of letting brawl die only to find that the new game is poo.
Again, as with many things smash related, this game(brawl or melee too) plays a minor role in yalls lives. You all can drop this stuff in a heart beat and never look back. Ive built scenes, ran events and put a bazillion hours into these games over the last 15 years so i cant just drop it like you all can. I have very little passion about things in life but smash is one that i do. I guess its hard to understand when you aren't as invested as i am.
