Thank goodness this thread is around I really need to ease some of this pressure off of me and talking about your problems is always good mental therapy.
As of last night I have put myself into a really really sticky situation that I've never been before.
Long story short I've been good friends with this girl for about a year now (we're both 18) and we've always been flirty with each other. Nothing major just harmless teasing and such that a lot of people do. I've always been physically attracted to her but I NEVER thought for a second that we would end up being where we are now.
Well just last night she had a little hot tub party with about 8 people there. Me and her were REALLY hitting it off and being a lot more flirty than normal, especially when we started giving each other massages. I can't even explain how but she was really giving me those "fuzzy feelings" that you only get for people you really like and I haven't had that feeling in a looong time. Plus I've never had that feeling with her at all up until that point. I was also getting positive signals that she was feeling the exact way I was.
I wanted to see where this would lead so I stayed behind after everyone else left. It was just me and her in her basement and we talked for about half and hour about nothing really while we were on opposite sides of the couch. But the whole time she was still in her bikini so I'm sure all you guys out there know what was running through my head. I wanted her more than any girl I had ever met... But with one of my best friends? Where did these feelings suddenly come from?? My mom called and told me to come home and I knew immediately it was the moment of truth. We gave each other a big hug and then stared into each others eyes. I knew what was coming and I wanted to kiss her SOOOO BADLY but I turned away right as she started to lean in and I rushed back to my car.
Most of you are probably thinking "Dude why didn't you just kiss her??" Trust me I would have in a heartbeat but there is a major issue with this; she has been in a long distance relationship with this one guy in college for over 3 years now. That's not even the worst part... I'm currently talking to (as well as going to prom with) one of her best friends.
After I got home I texted her immediately and asked her if she was feeling everything I was. She was and after that response I know that if we gave in last night it most likely would have led to some form of sex. We talked about it for about an hour and we pretty much agreed that we would just "let it happen" if the situation ever arose again. We also promised each other that this would STRICTLY stay between us only, and we also wanna "hang out" next weekend. We both feel really guilty about our feelings but there's a LOT of sexual tension between us right now. Are we really doing the right thing?
I've always been against cheating and I think it's wrong but I can't even explain the feeling of knowing that there is someone out there that shares your passion and also has really good chemistry with you... Plus I'm not even dating the girl I'm talking to so it's not like we're married. The feelings incredible I'd compare it to one of those perfect teenage romances that you always read in books or see in movies. I don't wanna pass this opportunity up but at the same time that doesn't help the fact that I'd feel really, really bad for the girl I'm talking to since I'm getting intimate with one of her BEST FRIENDS...
IDK what to do at all and I have nobody I can talk to about this since the consequences of anyone finding out are waaay too high...
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.