Yep, it's definitely a thing. It's just that not everyone is willing to admit they're scared. I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels this way (though I'm not glad that there are other people with the issue per say, it's a relief knowing that I'm in good company).
We tell ourselves that we don't have anything to prove, no one to impress, and just play. Deep in though, we're absolutely compelled to succeed. At least, I am, but I'm not going in the right way about it.
I just...
*laughs*
If you guys had any idea how much effort I've been putting into this game, you'd probably think I was losing my mind. This is with me still on the job hunt and taking evening classes too.
When I'm not doing life-related stuff, it's all I think about. By the time my classes are over, I'm literally just rushing to get home, because I absolutely
must practice something as mundane as Down Tilt > Upsmash with Greninja, or Nair spike > Up B as Zelda. Then I will sit there for hooooours practicing complicated combos/strings with either character (especially Greninja), knowing the unlikelihood of pulling them off in a real match. I don't care. I want to know them all.
Then I try to pick up other characters to get a better understanding of them, but lol that doesn't last long, because I end up going back to my two mains. And then I go on wifi, and try to play smart, try to make reads... but ahah, playing smart on wifi. Yep.
/manic rant
TLDR; I'm trying to take steps that are far too big, and as a result, I get scared when I'm not getting where I want to be yet.