As a scrublord who has never been part of the smash community before, I've come to enjoy playing Smash Bros. as a casual game, at least for a little while. When that while came to pass, though, I became super into competitive smash while still keeping my jovial and bantering personality, so that I don't completely devolve into a blubbering mess whenever I lose a game. That's a little bit of a problem for me; I usually take things too seriously, even when I don't actually show it. It tears me up inside when I lose and it's especially noticeable when I play For Glory, specifically against people who are better than I am.
Now, hear me out here. I'm not saying I'm pissy because of lack of skill; I know I suck at smash, and I'm trying to get better. What irks me the most and completely takes the wind out of my sails in smash is when I go up against a string of people in a row who are multitudes better than I am. I mean 'I have no ****ing chance' kinda out-of-my-league. I've played a LOT of people who are better than I am; friends, rivals, assholes who have nothing better to do than sandbag, but when I play Sm4sh, I'm not expecting to get so angry I want to just turn it off and call it a night.
Unfortunately, this is the case more often than not.
Now, to reveal a bit more about me to make my perspective a bit clearer, I'm extremely self-conscious, even in friendly games. I try to make sure I do good enough to not only entertain me, but to entertain my opponent as well, even if I lose, because it makes me feel a bit better about myself when I lose during a good match. I've tried my absolute hardest to get better at Sm4sh, but...it doesn't work for me. Sure, I can enjoy a friendly game or two with someone I know, but there's always this lurking feeling of 'You're not good enough, you filthy casual.'
To actually get to what exactly made me want to post here, I played almost 30 straight rounds of nonstop humiliation, desperately hoping there was that one oddball I could enjoy. Spoiler alert, he/she never showed up. I wasted almost 2 hours of my life playing on a game I'm trying my hardest to genuinely enjoy, only to have to deal with something like that; to make matters worse, I go to For Fun, and there's THE SAME ****ING PEOPLE. I couldn't escape it, and it was at that point that I decided to just turn it off and stop playing for a while. I don't like Online mode anymore, and it's not only because of this. I've been dealing with this for quite a while now, and it gets old on day 1. It frustrates me to no end because I KNOW there's a good game to be had, and all I have to do is look, but so far, I haven't found ****.
That is my story. Apologies for the amount of expletives within my post.