Nevermind, I don't even want to play you. I have been so good to you. Your lack of respect is disgusting.
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oook, so now ur taking it outside of smash... see, i was saying i don't respect the way you play, but no problem, i'll address this too. ****, time for personal **** coming out on the internet:
ok so.. yeah idk, i've wanted...TRIED.. to keep things chill between us, so i've kept my mouth shut a lot of the times that i've wanted to say something in person, but you pretty much crossed the line now...
ok so..."good to me"? like coming over and doing some (EDIT: )green **** with me? or offering this and that? bringing ur speakers from home that one time at that smashfest that you blew up at? allowing me to come in ur house and ****, or giving me a ride to raleigh in your car those 2 times? or rides when you're going places that you'd be going to whether i'm there or not? that one time you payed for my chipotle? materials? nice man. those things are pretty insignificant to me, to be honest...cool to have them, equally cool to not have them. thanks a lot, but a lot of that **** i didn't even ask for.... could have done without, especially when i can't even be real with you in another context without you referencing what i "owe" you.... right here, i mean....
hell, michael harrell, besides the green greens which we're about even on anyway, has done even MORE for me in that sense, you know, $$-wise, material-wise... just saying... i owe that dude... lol
but uhh... yea so let me get to why what you said is so infuriating.... and i've been waiting for this for a while
josh...
for someone who considers (or i guess..consider
ed?) me one of his better friends in the community, a "smash friend" who you can chill with and "not smash," you've done very little to show what that really means to you.... let me explain:
have you ever asked me about ME? or ever tried to get to know me on any deeper level? no. you've never done that. dude.........you just talk about yourself. 24/7. joshjoshjoshjoshjoshjoshjosh. and i'm cool with it, honestly.. i've gotten used to it. and i think ur an alright guy, sometimes we can laugh about some stupid ****, but usually you're self-absorbed to levels that i just don't comprehend, so i never (at least NOT ANYMORE) try to get
me involved in
us because honestly, i'm afraid ur so about josh that you just simply won't give a ****. and i'm right. because i've
TRIED, on MORE than one occasion. and you didn't give a
**** haha. you didn't even NOTICE!!! i just smiled and continued being in your company... pretty ****ing goddamn discouraging. i have to act like i don't care about anything, in fact, i have to make an effort to...because otherwise i'd be so depressed around you. do you understand this? do you realize the state of our relationship now?
so please. don't tell me that you're SO GOOD to me. like you've done SO MUCH. made SUCH A POSITIVE DIFFERENCE in my life. if all those material things that you GRANTED me had never occured in my life, it would make no ****ing difference. all i remember is the times i was ignored/neglected, kept a straight face despite feeling so morbid, and still called a "friend"... so maddening, it's been.... and the worst part is you were never even realizing how neglectful you were being..... you, APPARENTLY, thought you had always been a GREAT friend! who's been so F*CKING good to me!
yo man, you haven't done **** when it comes to the important stuff. you haven't done squat **** to try to understand me or truly be a companion of mine.
so yeah...
as usual, you're giving yourself WAYYYYY too much credit, but this time it's so undeserved that i don't know whether to get mad or vomit... or cry. because honestly i'm so frustrated right now that i'm at the brink of it.
thanks for all the good times?
psh, guess not. see ya around darksyde.
yeah....