It's not like I have a problem with being called out, because I do try to be fair. I'm someone who can be really disorganized, and it's not because I don't care about things that I'm responsible for. It is precisely because I care about it and want it to be fun for everyone that I also wanted to communicate very clearly before we started this tournament that it should not take priority over other life commitments, because logically, I know it's difficult to coordinate individual schedules.
I know you're upset, rightfully so, because I handled some things sloppily and it ended up interfering with things on your end. I took things to PM more because of idiosyncratic clutter and notification reasons, not because I intended for anything to be hidden. I really want you to understand that by nature, some of my biggest personal problems that I've had trouble with in all my life are being easily distracted and disorganized about my own schedule, and I do feel bad that I ended up dropping the ball on you.
That being said, I want you to participate when it works for both of us (I don't think I have nearly as weird commitments any time today or other days this month, meaning most times that are not around 9am-4pm when I'm more likely to be running errands or participating in a local orchestra, I could feasibly schedule a time to play, but of course, I don't know as much about your life schedule). I wanted to run and be a part of this tournament because everyone in this community is an interesting, unique person to me.