So, I had experienced my first day as a substitute teacher, with no training, or preparation what so ever. It was horrible. Literally, this was the state of each of my classes during the day:
Kindergarten Cop.
To explain my day, I had little sleep, as I was nervous. I did the most last minute preparing I could do. I went to the school at 7:08 AM. Teachers and staff were arriving, and one let me in as I told them I was a substitute teacher. No signing in or what so ever, though. I sat at the front near the secretary station, until 7:30 AM. She led me to the class around 7:40 AM. So, I went there early to prepare, but had to waste that time to simply wait anyway. Great start.
I’m led to the class. I get in, and look quickly, and I sit at the teachers desk. I find the busy work. The kids come in soon, and their first reaction is “Oh we are having a substitute teacher!” My plan was to give out my rules and introduce myself, it just didn’t happen. I lost myself in the chaos to be able to transition smoothly to that part. Then I started to do attendance, but was not able to complete it since home room was over, and I had to bring them to their next class.
So what I learned from that is, that I can’t really diddle dawdle at that period, it went by fast. Then the actual class periods take long and tend to have dead air. When the dead air happened, naturally, kids got bored and chaos ensued. Kids ran around the room, kids chattered, yelled, didn’t listen to instruction, asked to sit elsewhere, fought each other, jumped on their chairs, etc.
Now, there were a slight few who were helpful, and had behaved, and had done their work. At least, I was able to get them to work with a work > reward system at least. I had to adapt. Yet it didn’t last for long. They blew through the activity sheets I had them work on, and some of them had trouble with a few parts of them, which I had them skip instead. I realized that I was not equipped to help them at all. The tens are easier to do with adding. Yet the 7s and 8s are harder, but I don’t know how to show them how to actually do it. I saw some of them plop out books, and honestly, I think I entirely forgot about the books.
During Prep and Lunch, I simply sat there. I was trying to gather myself, before getting two back to back classes before the day ended. Hopefully, if I could learn how to deal with the classes in a more effective manner, and can get them to listen, and enjoy their day, I would succeed. This is for next time. Today did not succeed. Even a class that does not misbehave usually, misbehaved with me. So that tells me, I’m a very bad rookie teacher. I have learned that the true nature of children in a group, is un-orderly. It is literally Lord of the flies.
Near the end of the day, some were asking if they could pack up. I said yes, and they excitedly got their things. Even though class is soon to be over (if I could call it a class), they were still chaotic near the end. My tactics have eroded. After a while, it was not a lesson or class, but more so glorified baby sitting, trying to make sure they are occupied in some way, and attending to their needs as needed. I had trouble lining them up.
I’m currently trying to prepare for this in a better manner. I’m reading up guides, and looking for resources that I can have on hand. Originally, I had some supplies that I bought for myself a long time ago, pencils, erasers, etc. I brought those to class, and there wasn’t as much pencils or erasers. I had to give those out, I got 2/3 of the erasers back. I’m not sure about the pencils. Really, it’s probably what I deserve as I’ve probably taken one home or not as a child. I can’t remember. I’m not trained in this field, and now I have to use my own wisdom, the internet, and any resources I can find and simply learn on the job. Hopefully my second day will be less terrible.
What my goal will be is to prevent any extreme behaviors like yelling, jumping around, and fighting each other. If I can do that, I’ll feel a lot better, as I feel I can definitely come around to the activities and learning parts. The behavior is what worries me the most. I’m not the best at moderating or being an authority. I can’t determine for sure if getting a few high fives at the end of the day is good or bad for me.
Genuinely, I like those kids doing that at the end. I’m sure a few may have thought I was unfair. A few of the students were coming up to me asking if they could be my helper. Honestly, at times, I had some distrust. I can’t tell if there are that many helpers at once, and sometimes when I did allow it, papers that were supposed to be passed out didn’t make it to the students. I don’t know the guidelines or what is usually done. So for me, it was going off the rails and I’m sure for the children, it may have been a bit jarring as it may have been much different then what the teacher does. Of course, my helpers were sitting in my own seat and I told them to go to their seats, and they refused while saying “But I’m helping.”
At the end, I took them down the stairs to the yard to wait for their parents. I was told by a co-worker of MES that I don’t need to stay, at that time I can leave. Either way, I had to stay since the door was locked. Yet it was in these ending moments, that I got those high fives, and had seen the interactions from teacher to parent. The company I work for doesn’t provide over time. Yet, I feel that I should make it a point to stay a little bit, to bond with the students. Hopefully this will get them to get adjusted to me. I saw a kid doing a fortnite dance, and I said ‘Ah, that’s a dance emote from Fortnite, isn’t it?’ and his expression was that of being caught in a silly way.
After that, I got my coat and bag, and went to my car, feet hurting. I should wear comfortable shoes next time. I was tired. Over the whole day, it was reacting to chaos and while trying to keep the chaos low, I had also had to react to children raising their hands to sharpen their pencils or use the bathroom. By the end of the day, both passes have been broken.
That is all I have to say for now. I’m now going to have to take on a Gym assignment on Monday. This will be interesting. What I fear most is the reaction of the teachers and staff of me, now that they know I’m a incompetent teacher that still needs to grow.