I feel I've left bits and pieces of my arguments but if it takes a full, cohesive wall to lay down my thoughts I'll do it. Whatever you have against me in my mannerisms, emotions can be discussed post-game, but I assure you from this point forward I'm leaving all of that at the door. I will preface this by saying a good way to relieve stress is sometimes to just let it all out in one big explosion, but I understand how that may seem messy.
Let's get into it.
On why I distrust the current gamestate -
I'm going to try and not talk about myself because I'm tired of doing it, rather I'm going to talk about everything surrounding me. I find that scum are more than happy following the direction of town if it means it doesn't detour into one of their mates. I think what has me most puzzled is the fact people have been one of Lore/Spak should be scum, but this just confuses me. I don't feel scum have felt anything close to pressure right now and correct me if I'm wrong-- there's not many powerwolves in DGames. I think the typical norm and the reason town loses so much is that in-fighting happens and all scum has to do is write agreeable posts. This can be attributed to how people felt about Gorf in the last game, to which he admitted to the same effect.
I believe this game is getting close to the same scenario as that one, and it's been my concern for a while. I've yet to latch onto many strong townreads, even admitting to my own bias of people who agree with me. I start to wonder this fact though: Are people just giving each other passes because they are in line with their own thoughts, or is it something more sinister? I've probably directed this question in many ways but somehow it's gotten ignored, and the least I can do while in the spotlight is try to explain why I feel this way. Scum don't exactly need to create chaos, their job is to either intervene when opportunity strikes or continue to press forward in the (wrong) direction town has laid in front of them. Biased as it may seem, I really do think a good chunk of scum are down with me dying, and if I may exclaim that perhaps my poor attitude and outbursts has attributed to that, I know how easy it to fake a read on me.
Am I saying all scum are on me? No, but I know for a fact that trying to justify my lynch is far easier than anyone else. I dunno why, but people seem to like..doubt themselves sometimes. Why the **** is Ryker/Marshy/Tom/Kevin/Kary all close to being townread? I've yet to get in any of their heads and for marshy's example he hasn't even followed through on his thoughts with Lore. Is it because he's marshy that he is held to a standard? Maybe that makes sense in hindsight, maybe that's why most of you have trouble with me, but I think playstyle doesn't compensate for genuine interest. I'm like, almost certain one of those people I mentioned or maybe even two of them are just letting town make bad decisions and playing it off as nothing. My vibes on marshy haven't gotten any better, but it's disappointing he takes so much effort to lynch or even read (can maybe say the same as the others listed). I just don't understand why this is an excuse.
Does anyone have a reason to townread them besides them doing what town perceieveably wants? I'm not saying it should be a scramble, sometimes town really syncs up and makes a right decision, but I know for a fact I'm not the right decision so I can't but feel I'm getting played, as are all of you. Why does scum want to do something that will backfire on them? Powerwolfing (marshy knows what this means) exists only in circumstance, and I think most scum do things for two reasons: 1) To be townread 2) To sell their opinions as truthful. I understand that might be simplistic, but given I'm the highest wagon, I don't imagine many are comfortable with going against the consensus. If there is a lynch to happen on me, do you know how easy it would be to just like...wipe your hands of it? Is that at the behest of my own play? Perhaps, but I don't know why people think this is the right call and why many of you think I'm scum.
I've made some shortsighted posts, and I've probably done some stupid ****. But you know what? At least I'm not afraid to. My apologies to the people regardless of the game who are upset with me. I promise I'm not a douchebag I just sometimes have a hard time explaining myself when under pressure. I get that it's easy to attribute that to scumplay in a textbook definition, but I just have a tendency to not compromise and just yknow, let out how I'm feeling on the spot. I think it makes it less contrived, but it's certainly not the best way. I'll be getting into my reads on the next post.