Yep, I can relate to pretty much all of that. I especially hate u-tilt combos, although I guess I shouldn't talk because sometimes I use'em with Jiggs. Maybe I hate them for the same reason you do- sometimes I get a nagging feeling that my opponent thinks he's good b/c he's u-tilting me into death. I try not to let it bother me anymore though.But I know that theres some friggin pubby out there laughing his *** off at me because he just killed me with a backthrow to forward smash edgeguard with pikachu after I comboed him for 120% and barely missed the kill, that infuriates me.
the lack of DI
and how i have to watch myself get comboed,
knowing exactly whats gonna happen and knowing I cant escape it,
knowing the guy on the other end is thinking ''Wow what a NOOB. Im owning this guy. he sooo sucks''
The worst is when you're playign someone you KNOW is worse than you but you end up in a bad situation and he ''combos'' you with
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That also makes me feel like breaking things.
I dunno I think its because SSB give you the illusion you're good because of 0-death comboes, you do 1 or 2 of them and you feel like you're the best in the world. Then some LINK comes by and schools you.... Im still embarassed about that one. sigh.
Look, just don't play on Kaillera every day. Take a break for a few days, come back and mess around for a few matches. Pick other characters, play on other stages (not Yoshi's Story though ), just have fun doing whatever you can. Then go back into a serious match, and you'll be impressed at how far you've come. I used to play as often as you, and I developed the same criticisms (lack of DI, broken utilts, knowing what will happen but can't escape). My solution? I just play every once in a while, or when someone here wants to play. It keeps me focused.
Actually, it's the same thing with Melee. I only play now when one of my friends come over. And yet, because I play so infrequently, my mind is completely refreshed during each session, and my mindgames are always top-notch (for me) and getting better. I would argue...that this applies to Smash 64 as well. Hell, if you need to, switch between the two so you're not playing too much of one or the other.
Anyway...sorry for repeating myself over and over, but don't be too hard on yourself. Let your mind relax.