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You're telling me that you'd rather wallow and cry and not even once try to improve as a person, and instead sit there and devolve to let yourself think that you're worth nothing when you haven't even gotten the chance to do something on that level of an atrocity? You're telling me that you'd rather try to pose off as 1.) lust incarnate, 2.) a self-aware edgelord incel, 3.) a sympathized oblivious child; instead of doing your best to adapt as an individual?
This does remind me of a time where I met someone similar to you. He didn't want to change. He always pleaded that he'd leave, come back like a day later, apologize profusely, and then mess up all over again. He eventually left because of me.
No, seriously, he did. I'm not kidding. Here's the thread.
That does reveal where I started off my mod shenanigans, and it's kinda cringy to see what the actual place was (and how I acted, but I was like 15 at the time so whatever), but I did do stuff for that website for a solid 3-4 years. It's enough proof to know that I'm seeing you break down like he did, and it's totally not OK, but it's also totally preventable if you just accept your flaws. Accept your weaknesses, and instead of using them as a motive to elevate yourself as a person, use it as a reflection of what you can become when you let yourself drown in your own pool of bad thoughts.
EDIT: Turns out I was 14 when I wrote that post. Bet I thought I was hot **** back then lol