The Unhappy Thread

[VreyIsGrey]

My mom's been battling stage 4 cancer for years but now it's moved to her liver. She has under six months to live.
Edit, my mom died.

Damn, my condolences

 

[Hex D. Jess]

Two of my best friends are in a relationship now, another one of my best friends is moving to a new city to get his dream job, and my childhood friend who's like a cousin to me has been living with her girlfriend for a few months now.

Meanwhile I'm still single and still stuck at my parent's house. I'm trying to get into higher education while also somehow balancing work with that, but who knows if I'll make it this year.

 

[Deleted member]

Similar to Jondolio, I'm also in a close situation with my IRL friends.
All my IRL friends have their couples and whole life shenanigans right now, we haven't been able to meet up or even talk through phone due to how busy they are. We were planning to meet up this week as they finally had free time... But bad luck hit me and I got Covid, so I couldn't meet with anyone.

Meanwhile, I'm trying to get into college while trying to learn to live as someone who has Asperger, Social anxiety and ADHD. A lot of efforts... But sadly not enough in my eyes to make me feel I'm making enough progress with my life.

Doesn't help that I have people here for example (whose names I won't drop publicly) Who do nothing but make me feel worse for having issues and trouble keeping up with the world... Because according to them I am nothing but an inmature kid who has no close future.

 

[Mushroomguy12]

It's so rare for me to have genuine days off that when I finally do get one, I sometimes spend the whole day worrying about not enjoying it, which in essence, makes me not enjoy it.

 

[Linkmain-maybe]

I ate half a loaf of wonder bread and made the mistake of drinking water with my kingly meal. Unrelated to my profile post earlier.

 

[Michael the Spikester]

I've been feeling empty and lifeless but never the less going on with life.

A result of worrying where the world might be heading (Nuclear war). It's at that point I just can't seem to enjoy life anymore or get excited for stuff I look forward to whether its movies especially. Even when doing outdoor activities like hiking, kayaking or walking the dogs, spending time with family and friends or writing for that matter I just feel nothing...Especially being I haven't played my video games in such a long time or get much excitement out of them anymore.

 

[Mushroomguy12]

I find that being so addicted to social media sometimes means my mood can flip instantly on the flip of an algorithm. Here I am, enjoying a perfectly fine day, and then my feed of "insert social media website here" recommends me something depressing or gross and I spend the rest of the day bummed out and trying to forget it.

 

[CrusherMania1592]

The frustrations of a friend and mentor that you call one of your best friends is leaving to another state, possible shifts within a board I'm involved in, and pushing 30 soon.

I think it's time for a major change, but maybe I'm taking too many baby steps for a long time. I'm trying to hang around more with people my age, but the common themes are "work, life, family, "I'm busy", etc." to where I feel like I'm stuck around the senior citizens all the time.

 

[Hex D. Jess]

I've moved ot of my parent's house into an institution for autistic people. It's pretty cheap and the place is supposed to help me become more independent... Thing is, I'm already pretty independent compared to most people in this institution, and if anything it's restricting me somewhat arbitrarily - I have to report whenever I leave or come back, food needs to be thrown out after a day in the fridge, I have to call the doctor if I'm feeling even a little unwell, and overall I feel like I'm being looked down on for being autistic. Not to mention one of my flatmate is extremely rude, egotistical, and leaves the most unholy smell known to man after taking a **** and is overall the most unpleasant person I've ever had to live with. All of this is making me consider finding a roommate and moving proper, I'm fairly independent and I probably have enough money to rent an apartment.

Unfortunately my friends don't seem to be interested. In fact, they don't respond to most of my messages and I haven't seen them in over two weeks. I was supposed to once but I got sick and haven't been able to plan a hangout ever since. It's making me feel pretty lonely.

 

[Rie Sonomura]

Everything’s fine now disregard this post

 

[Gatlin]

Got bored and randomly remembered this thread. Just got done reading some of the cringe posts I made in here 12 years ago for ****s and giggles and then realized that that was 12 years ago and I am old now. For a legitimate unhappy thread contribution, I have been working roughly 70-hour weeks since the beginning of October, and I kind of just want to die right now.

 

[Michael the Spikester]

wrong thread

 

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Got bored and randomly remembered this thread. Just got done reading some of the cringe posts I made in here 12 years ago for ****s and giggles and then realized that that was 12 years ago and I am old now. For a legitimate unhappy thread contribution, I have been working roughly 70-hour weeks since the beginning of October, and I kind of just want to die right now.

It's cool to see that you're still around.

Sorry to hear about your working conditions. Is it all for a certain project your company is working on or lack of staff?


To stay on topic a bit though, work was really rough yesterday. I got stuck on helping a single customer for about two hours straight to resolve an issue our company didn't cause and ended up missing lunch.

 

[Gatlin]

It's cool to see that you're still around.

Sorry to hear about your working conditions. Is it all for a certain project your company is working on or lack of staff?

Yo! Nice to see a familiar name. - I work in public accounting/auditing, and right now is just our "busy season." To spare the messy details, it's essentially just a large pile of reports and due dates that can be difficult to achieve without sacrificing a lot of your free time. Should only last for another month or so, though, so there is a dim light at the end of this tunnel, at least.

Sorry to hear about your missed lunch

 

[Hex D. Jess]

My country is slowly but surely turning into a dictatorship. I was going to attend a protest march today but then I heard the police is using shock grenades and tear gas against the protestors so that won't be happening.

My family is planning to leave the country and it seems like I might have to join them. I'm moreso worried about my friends who are mostly LGBTQ+ and likely going to have a hard time as the government establishes more and more anti-LGBTQ+ laws. I always knew I wanted to leave the country when I got older but not like this

 

[Rie Sonomura]

I’ve been anxious as hell this week. Worried about my job performance, a long time friend leaving me in a very vindictive nasty way, other things…

For that now former friend, it was a long time coming with her but JESUS of all the “I don’t wanna be friends anymore” messages I got from ppl over the years, that one was the WORST. so vitriolic…

 

[Deleted member]

Been having some weird days recently.

Had to leave university/college because of trouble with some partners (again) who also had social anxiety and at the slightest thing they didn't like dropped me out of their group and made It too uncomfortable for me to stay, been trying to enter a degree on 2D and 3D animation but another person with mental health stuff like me also signed up and got preference over me for having a bachiller on science rather than social sciences like me, declared to a friend who I used to have a crush on and now she doesn't really talk with me a lot... And yeah, all in all while I still have some IRL friends and supportive family members I keep having this weird feeling on me that I just will never be able to fully fit in society properly.

I talk with all these persons online and IRL who
have similar conditions to myself (ADHD, autism, bisexuality, polyamorous preferences and so on) and yet they seem to be in more stable relationships of all sorts and progressing with their lifes... While I feel stuck, unable to make any progress with my life no matter how hard I try and unfit for society's standards.

These likely are all meaningless and meh stuff to the average person... But idk, as someone who has social anxiety all of this worries me, I don't want to grow up alone while having nightmares each day about how people look and feel about me...

 

[StrangeKitten]

My country is slowly but surely turning into a dictatorship. I was going to attend a protest march today but then I heard the police is using shock grenades and tear gas against the protestors so that won't be happening.

My family is planning to leave the country and it seems like I might have to join them. I'm moreso worried about my friends who are mostly LGBTQ+ and likely going to have a hard time as the government establishes more and more anti-LGBTQ+ laws. I always knew I wanted to leave the country when I got older but not like this

(This is late but) Yeah, it's very scary at the moment. I don't know if you're in the US, but I am, and the same thing is happening here. I just wanted to let you know you're not alone, and acceptance for us is rising. It's just that the bigots are at their loudest and most awful when their numbers are waning like this.

 

[Deleted member]

My country is slowly but surely turning into a dictatorship. I was going to attend a protest march today but then I heard the police is using shock grenades and tear gas against the protestors so that won't be happening.

My family is planning to leave the country and it seems like I might have to join them. I'm moreso worried about my friends who are mostly LGBTQ+ and likely going to have a hard time as the government establishes more and more anti-LGBTQ+ laws. I always knew I wanted to leave the country when I got older but not like this

(This is late but) Yeah, it's very scary at the moment. I don't know if you're in the US, but I am, and the same thing is happening here. I just wanted to let you know you're not alone, and acceptance for us is rising. It's just that the bigots are at their loudest and most awful when their numbers are waning like this.

Yeah, here in Spain and the Canary Islands we got a scare because the political right (basically the "Partido Popular" or PP in short) won the elections, and everyone was scared they would ally with VOX (to have an idea, VOX is Spain's Donald Trump or Bolsomaro). Luckily, It seems they don't have plans to work with VOX, and there will be elections again in July, so there's still hope.

 

[Rie Sonomura]

One of my exes, one I had a bad experience with and cut off all communication with them… might be trying to worm their way back into my life after I said it was over. Gonna have to be vigilant for the next few days… ugh.

If the ex is reading this (they know who they are) I want them to know to please leave me alone and respect my wishes. I’ve had a bad year so far and don’t want anything else piling on to it.

 

[Deleted member]

Today I went to my grandpa's house and I had the tough luck of my aunt being there. A few weeks ago she did some really ****ty stuff which a few people on the site know she did to me and hasn't even dared to apologize.

She is basically ghosting me, not saying any single word to me and acting as if I didn't exist, only talking to my mother and everyone else. I have had that kind of thing happening to me online a lot of times, but It hurts to see It happening IRL too with a family member who supposedly should be rooting for my better future.

Sigh It is what It is I guess.

 

[Rie Sonomura]

My aunt has to go back to the hospital. She was admitted literally last month. I’m worried…

 

[MCFL]

My hands hurt. My soul hurts. It hurts to live.

 

[StrangeKitten]

Earlier this year, started talking in an old channel on Discord some of my old friends were in, because I was going out of my mind with loneliness one morning. It felt so good to reconnect. I was finally having a good time being social, only for the channel to up and vanish one day. I only had one person from the chat actually added as a friend, so I asked him about it. He said it just felt awkward that I was suddenly part of a chat that had become just him and his two best friends, and that they had been thinking of deleting the chat anyway. I was hurt, because nobody told me told me that or discussed deleting the channel, and I now had no way of contacting the other two members whatsoever. My friend didn't get too upset at me being hurt, and seemed understanding.

Today, I went to send him a pic of one of my cats, only to get an error message that my message didn't send. It said the possible causes were that he was only accepting messages from people he had added as a friend, or that I had been blocked. I was unable to add him as a friend, meaning he probably blocked me. So I guess that's just how our friendship ends, with no explanation on his part. I guess I'm not worth talking to now and again.

And it's made my mind wander to a couple people I met on IMVU this past year, who I pretty quickly had fallings out with. This other guy I had been friends with for a long time, until I finally took a stand because him always calling me "beautiful" and such was, frankly, creepy. But he kept insisting that he be able to call me such things, refused to see my side, and threw out accusations against me, my mental state, and even one that reeked of homophobia. So I ended our friendship.

It all just kinda fills me with a sense of emptiness. Loneliness. Loss. I suppose I'm lucky, because I still have a good amount of friends, and three partners who love me. But still, this stuff just hurts. A lot.

 

[Deleted member]

Yeah, here in Spain and the Canary Islands we got a scare because the political right (basically the "Partido Popular" or PP in short) won the elections, and everyone was scared they would ally with VOX (to have an idea, VOX is Spain's Donald Trump or Bolsomaro). Luckily, It seems they don't have plans to work with VOX, and there will be elections again in July, so there's still hope.

Some really good news: these new elections in Spain went really well. The PSOE (Partido Socialista Obrero Español) is in charge again and VOX (the right wing party basically) lost A LOT of members from congress since less people voted for them.

So yeah, as I was hoping back when we got the last elections the left is once again ruling in Spain.

 

[Rie Sonomura]

One of my exes, one I had a bad experience with and cut off all communication with them… might be trying to worm their way back into my life after I said it was over. Gonna have to be vigilant for the next few days… ugh.

If the ex is reading this (they know who they are) I want them to know to please leave me alone and respect my wishes. I’ve had a bad year so far and don’t want anything else piling on to it.

bittersweet update: they mutually blocked me on Twitter (and likely Discord)

on the plus side, i never have to hear from them again; on the minus side, it confirms my suspicion that they never truly loved or cared about me. i feel like i wasted years of my life with them and was too blind to see that they were just fake.

it's cathartic but also... sobering. i felt used and manipulated. they...changed me in ways i don't like and im trying to undo those changes.

 

[Perkilator]

Can I be totally honest for a second? I've been slowing way down on my creation threads because when I try to make an interesting case with my prompt, most of the time people only vote for the option they already know and sometimes, I feel lucky if they give my submission any thought.

Sorry for making this about me but I've been meaning to vent about this for years.

 

[Deleted member]

Been having quite some tough days recently, ngl.

Don't wanna go into details, but It all has lead to me spending most of the day with a really huge headache and non-stop dizzyness.

Wish I could just fall asleep throught the evening... But yeah, that ain't happening with my ADHD.

It's a weird feeling, ngl. As if you were to fall to the floor but just don't do It, all while having flashes of thoughts going on in your head.

 

[Mushroomguy12]

I've underwent a lot of major negative life events in 2023, and as a result have lost of lot of motivation in daily life. Feels like a lot of the stuff that used to bring me happiness just.... doesn't anymore.

 

[ssbashworld]

I tend to not post here because idk, sometimes i personally feel like i have no right to complain when things can be so much worse. Honestly right now i just need to vent about how much i hate winter.

We got a bunch of snow a couple days ago. Tried to dig a path for my car yesterday to go to work but some of it was solid ice i couldnt break but thought i did enough so i can get out. I did not & got stuck in front of my neighbors driveway. Not even exaggerating that they remote started their car right after i texted my boss (who is really good & understanding) the situation. Anxiety & andreline kicked in out of fear of some sort of confrontation & somehow in minutes i dug enough snow so i can at least get my car out of the way. I later dug up a spot for myself & was able to go grocery shopping but of course in the half hour i was gone someone else took that spot.

Then today thing were going normal as i head to work (except someone else was in my assigned parking spot so i just took the next one) until i fell (i think on black ice) while walking to my workplace. Initially couldnt stand staight & felt like i was about to throw up but luckily can move fine now & am just sore. I dont know much about workers comp but i assume it would be helpful if anything gets worse but of course i am ineligible because of where i fell specifically (not that i was looking for it, just want to feel better & am worried of the potential financial issues medical bills can cause). Also is kind of depressing that i remember taking 1 or 2 similar winter falls in college & was fine.

 

[Deleted member]

I wish Depression could just be a monster I could un-alive like in Resident Evil. Unfortunately, today, I feel like I ran out of ammo against it and that it's attacking me.

 

[Deleted member]

I think the Smashboards Social Thread is getting too much into my head, ngl.

I made this really dumb Spider-Man post over there , and for some reason (I guess that thread has too much of a passion for Marvel stuff) It is gaining a lot of traction. Everything I posted after that got like almost zero attention or interest.

So I make another post asking them to stop giving the Spider-Man post attention so I get less anxious... And right after that I get another notification of someone liking said post.

Idk, am I in the wrong for thinking that's rude behaviour from their part? Like, they basically got someone who was getting anxious by something they posted and asked people to stop giving attention... And then they proceed to keep giving It attention. Seems kinda ****ty from their part in my eyes, but idk.

 

[Deleted member]

I still fee like an outcast on this site.

 

[Lamperouge]

I think the Smashboards Social Thread is getting too much into my head, ngl.

I made this really dumb Spider-Man post over there , and for some reason (I guess that thread has too much of a passion for Marvel stuff) It is gaining a lot of traction. Everything I posted after that got like almost zero attention or interest.

So I make another post asking them to stop giving the Spider-Man post attention so I get less anxious... And right after that I get another notification of someone liking said post.

Idk, am I in the wrong for thinking that's rude behaviour from their part? Like, they basically got someone who was getting anxious by something they posted and asked people to stop giving attention... And then they proceed to keep giving It attention. Seems kinda ****ty from their part in my eyes, but idk.

I just thought they were really cool figures.

 

[Deleted member]

I just thought they were really cool figures.

That's fine, they are indeed quite cool.

I do feel I may have overreacted a bit when I wrote that.

 

[Venus of the Desert Bloom]

That's fine, they are indeed quite cool.

I do feel I may have overreacted a bit when I wrote that.

Yeah, that’s an over-reaction. You can’t not stop people liking a post and asking to stop liking a post is….. well…. a bit controlling. It’s like putting up a huge Christmas light display only to yell at people passing by “STOP GAWKING AT THE LIGHTS!”.

Also, posting personal content involving pictures of your personal life is 110% going to give you more attention and reactions compared to “I just ate a doughnut. It was good”-type posts. Expecting the same amount of attention over a “doughnut text no pics slightly unfunny” post won’t yield the same amount of thumbs up as your awesome picture of Marvel memorabilia.

 

[Hex D. Jess]

I'm having an existential crisis about my gender identity. I was basically convinced I'm trans for a week and then suddenly my mind did a weird turn and now I just don't know anymore.

I know it takes time but man, I've been questioning my gender for years already and I really wish I could just know, because if I am trans this year might be my only opportunity to start transitioning in the next half decade

 

[Mushroomguy12]

2023 already had a lot of terrible life events for me, but I'm especially scared of 2024 because leap years in particular have been absolute s*** in terms of my life. 2020 and 2016 both were awful in terms of so many horrible events in both the world and my personal life, and I'm really not looking forward to another one of those years.

 

[Mushroomguy12]

I've been having this recurring dream/kind of nightmare throughout my life, earliest I can remember was since college. I'm in an enormous super hotel with 100s of different stores, restaurants, and casinos (sometimes it's a mall, sometimes it's a school with hundreds of libraries and classrooms, the point is that it's a giant building).

I'm given a straightforward path to the room I've booked (or the store I want to visit or the classroom that I have class in), and it seems quite simple to get there at first. But the building has so many winding hallways, sometime enormous crowds of people that push me in every direction, sometimes massive winding stairways or confusing elevators that only take you to some floors or giant escalators that take me every which way, that my journey quickly becomes a confusing mess.

Everytime I think I'm about to reach my destination, I somehow end up in a completely different room, on a completely different floor. Sometimes the elevators take me to a completely different wing or floor of the building that I was expecting, and I magically just end up farther and farther away from the place I'm trying to visit, meanwhile the clock is ticking, because the store is about to close or the class is about to start or the room is about to run out of booking time, and I get more and more stressed.

Then I wake up, most of the time it's before I found my destination, and I spend my morning feeling unsatisfied. Recently, I've tried to analyze it though, as my subconscious creating an analogy for my goals in real life, where no matter how hard I try working towards some of my goals, there are always circumstances outside of my control that prevent me from reaching them.

So yeah, just wanted to share, maybe some people have similar dreams.

 

[ssbashworld]

I've been having this recurring dream/kind of nightmare throughout my life, earliest I can remember was since college. I'm in an enormous super hotel with 100s of different stores, restaurants, and casinos (sometimes it's a mall, sometimes it's a school with hundreds of libraries and classrooms, the point is that it's a giant building).

I'm given a straightforward path to the room I've booked (or the store I want to visit or the classroom that I have class in), and it seems quite simple to get there at first. But the building has so many winding hallways, sometime enormous crowds of people that push me in every direction, sometimes massive winding stairways or confusing elevators that only take you to some floors or giant escalators that take me every which way, that my journey quickly becomes a confusing mess.

Everytime I think I'm about to reach my destination, I somehow end up in a completely different room, on a completely different floor. Sometimes the elevators take me to a completely different wing or floor of the building that I was expecting, and I magically just end up farther and farther away from the place I'm trying to visit, meanwhile the clock is ticking, because the store is about to close or the class is about to start or the room is about to run out of booking time, and I get more and more stressed.

Then I wake up, most of the time it's before I found my destination, and I spend my morning feeling unsatisfied. Recently, I've tried to analyze it though, as my subconscious creating an analogy for my goals in real life, where no matter how hard I try working towards some of my goals, there are always circumstances outside of my control that prevent me from reaching them.

So yeah, just wanted to share, maybe some people have similar dreams.

Actually kind of had a similar recurring dream that kind of had a similar analysis from people ive told. Basically i dreamed that i was dealing with sleep paralysis. Id fight & be able move, sometimes able to walk to a new room only to have all progress lost with me instantly being brought back to the starting point until id finally wake up for real.

Luckily in a better place now & havent had said dream in probably over a year (& hope it stays that way, not a fun dream).