Will say it suck quite badly to come back to...this.
I have seen situation where youtuber were proven to be awful human being and others were they were proven innocents, but I won't lie when the former as proven to be more likely than the latter.
I want more info on the situation before I make a call on what I do about chugga. I stopped watching his videos for a while, mostly cuz his current LP wasn't for me, so I feel I shouldn't be affected very much by this....but it's sadly not that simple as he's still someone who helped discover plenty of games and his stories about his early life resonated more or less with me as I am autistic (more precisely I have dyspraxia). What he has done is pretty damn bad, and I don't want to make excuses for him. Being on the spectrum or having stories of abuse doesn't mean you can't do bad things period. There's a part of responsibility on you when you treat other badly, especially when you are a adult and even more when you have a BIG, long-lasting fanbase that you can't deny.
Really, I just need more time to process all of this, both mentally and feeling wise.