Hyro
Smash Lord
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- Jul 31, 2008
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Wow, ^^^^ soooo badassThe dopamine. But yeah that happens to me all the time in terms of wanting to just live my life to the fullest. I am glad to see I am not alone when it comes to that. At night I just like sit up staring at the cieling feelling like I am just wasting my life and am not living my life to the fullest. Nothing is more painful in life than having a crapload of regrets, but when you just live life the way you want to and say/do what ever the hell you want whenever you feel like it life would be a bajillion times better. I can just imagine walking down the street and seeing a hot chick and being like "Excuse me ma'm, but you are fine as hell" then moving on with my day, but I think I have a problem with wondering what could have been with a lot of things, but I feel like living my life like that might end up doing more harm than good.
Sometimes I feel like I get lost in my thoughts and think about my own thoughts all the time and that is WITHOUT drugs since I have never touched drugs before, so I am kinda scared to see what will happen if I do take them. i feel like my brain would just effing explode from the activity or something. I have tried to just say whats on my mind whenevr I want to lots of times, but I end up punking out at the last second because I am scared of consequences and messing something up. I am texting this one girl as I type this and I wanna just ask her but I am nervous as hell because if she is like "nty" things would be all awkward and stuff, but if it DOES work out who knows where it could go.
tl;dr: Do what you want when you want to Hyro, be more ballsy than me when it comes to it. Nothing is more annoying than spending countless hours wishing you could go back in time and try things differently. Even with the small menial stuff like buying extra fries/juice at lunch. Seriously.
At night is the time to be thinking. To get lost in your thoughts, enjoy it, don't think you're wasting your life. Generally there's nothing you could be doing anyways. So just dream. It can be good or bad. With me I usually focus on the bad thoughts and try to find solutions to them.
That whole hot chick on the street thing reminded me of this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8PTDv_szmL0
hahah but for real, thats what you gotta do.
And I DO do what I want to do, when I want to do it. But my main concern in life isn't only me, it's others as well. I would never want to hurt or bother anyone else. That's why the only time I'll truly be FREE is when I'm literally only around people I'm extremely comfortable with and people that are comfortable with me. Or when I'm alone.
But as long as you're a truly good person, all your intentions are good, you only want the best...then being your completely uncensored self and doing whatever it is that makes you happy, is acceptable. When you're an *******, when you hurt other people, when your intentions are bad? Don't be yourself. Fix yourself, then be yourself. IMO.
P.S. I alwwwwayyyyyys get the combo hahaha I need to put the fries on my big mac and the sour cream n onion lays on my subway hahahaha i ****ing love food
P.S.S. that's another thing that always happens when I'm high...I appreciate life more, I appreciate the small things...and I let that carry over into my sober persona. I love appreciating everything