The emo is gone. but still have a problem. Dammit....

[Dark.Pch]

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Ok so as many may know. At Apex the Emo was lifted from me and I been alright. I won't go all wild and crazy as U use to back then with tournaments or just dealing with idiots of brawl. So you think I be fine right? I did too. But I have another stupid problem. I think some remember from back in the melee days, I had depression. Thus lead to the Emo. I got rid of depession the year brawl came out cause I was doing good with Peach and was known as one of the best Peach players in the USA. And to think I had it for 8 years (wow that is all that it took?)

While I was cured from dperession sort of,I was still Emo, and I know what keep it there. I'm Bi-polar and and It seems it is another form of depression. To learn more about this, check this link out if you want:
http://www.psycom.net/depression.central.bipolar.html

It is some sort of depression. But nothing as serious as the one I got rid of. For thoses to lazy to read up on the link or don't know what this is, Bi-polar os some condition that one has to not have lil to no control over thier emotions. You can be happy one min, then next min, you could be mad at something that happened like months ago. And nothing at all triggered it. it was just like (BOOM) it happen. Thats just the basic but that link has the full story on it.

People tell me to have fun at tournies and all. And I try too. But when I play like crap when I know waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much with my main, it triggers it and the fun dies. back then I would go insane and drop my controller on the floor and stuff. Now I just get upset but just say god games, shake hands and move on. In a match, my mind can't stay on point. I play my beast and become a freaking moster when having fun. Even if I am losing a fight, i would make a comeback and win or just make it close as hell when I lose. I can have fun for long. Really with this game. But its many cause my emotions just change in a match and I can't do **** about it. Thus the fun dies. And play like a beginner.

This crap is really hard to deal with. I tried so many times. Just aint hapenning. To be honest, i say I be the damm best Peach player in the world with all the stuff I know on this character. but can't never seem to play like it. Fun triggers the beast in me. And this bi-polar condition triggers it. And then I can't stand playing like a noob and losing to people I can beat no problem. And it gets me upset. now Emo Dark.Pch upset. Just upset in the head, but not with actions or words. you know, the typical ****. But of course with this ****ty condition I have, I can't unleash the beast. I can't play and show the world that I could just be the best damm Peach main on this planet.

Then what people say with my tournaments results and the trolling and being ***** to me for no reason don't help. I handle it better now and don't go insane. But seeing that does not help. This is another reason I quit tournies. if I don't play in them and do nothing. People can't say this and that about me. it is a waste of time going on about a player who has not done ****. So they would most likely leave you alone. But I don't wanna do something and fail at it when I seriously should not be. people just add on to the fire like it is cute. Take all the fun out of it, and while people say its nothing with what these losers say, this condition triggers so much from it, to I can focus, can't play and my emotions just change rapidly or out of random. I can be cool one min then the next min I have this memory come into my head about some ******* who hit my car last week and my mood changes, cause I loved my damm car and now I can't use it for a while. just an example.

People will keep being *****. Even after I made this post I am sure people will come in and make fun of me for it or w/e. or well I'm not gonna go crazy over thier post like I would when I was emo. But it does not help and triggers stuff with this condition. That is why I can't do any more tournies and why I can't play the way I should be. I must say though, i give myself a whole lot of credit for having all this on me and still able to do my thing before I started getting worst at this game. So tournaments and the people trigger lots of stuff. so good way to deal with my condition is to deal with one of the stuff that trigger it. Just here to just officially debate with Peach and help Peach mains out with all that I know with her.

Kinda sucks, but I tried. what can I do. If I can just get rid of thiscondition for good I be just fine, back to how I was, and hopefully, prove that I would be the best Peach main alive.
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Might be best to ask if anyone has anything similar to this and how they deal with it. I would also like to ask some pro players this.

 

[DTP]

This is your 7th blog in like 3 months
All with similar topics......

Slow down buddy xD

 

[SuSa]

Sorry, I stopped reading at "dperession"

 

[00000]

Don't worry about it.

 

[nevershootme]

I've seen players going through pissed off moments at every stock they lose... on a daily basis... i used to get mad actually when i lose stocks, alot of times are stupid crap occurring in the game, I knew my character sucked and I had to switch mains to fit my style (from olimar to snake, snake to mk, now snake/mk and a bunch of others for various matchups). no one is freaking godly perfect. Not everyone can be such and such pro player and **** faces like taking candy from a baby. I'm not a pro myself, but i know i made progress getting there with a strong mindset.

The mantra of being the best *character* in the world shouldn't be on the top of your head, otherwise you pretty much lose focus in performance, you mentioned it countless times and in the end you get knocked out early. I'm not telling u to stop, but that is an observation i read when u post this stuff. Anger makes the player lose focus alot, confidence prevails in success.

My typical mindset is always focused on the current game and survive, never focusing on character. Think for yourself and know yourself, Think 2 steps in flow of your enemely (know your enemy). Know their patterns (players do have patterns you know, like bosses in a video game). Know your character's limits and spacing patterns, those will be the key points. Have a flow for yourself, never let the nerves lock your hands up in the middle of the match. In the end, open your eyes wide to see the stage. I took the feeling of seeing invisible patterns of my character and opponent to project possible paths I can do, I think of every situation and react and punish accordingly.

I once played a match in toruney was vs ice climbers, it was the 1st time i've ever faced one in tourney and i haven't had any practice with one since my friend dropped him (knew the chain grab basics) several months ago. I played snake in that tourney, I knew myself and the limits, I knew what to focus on the matchp and carefully execute and watch his patterns. my objective was to take down nana fast and quick and i'll gain the upper hand. when he grabbed me, I knew I was screwed, but I stood calm and mash accordingly or observe his CG pattern, I knew myself thinking where to DI or when to Tech in time to avoid getting locked for good and fall behind. I won by successfully executing the mindset and looked carefully in what to do.

another match was vs Toon Link, which I had 0 practice on that matchup. the player camped like a mother****er, repeating the same patterns and never approaches forcing u the player to do so while getting hit. my mindset for that matchup is to time and space well planted grenades to throw him off and rush into the approach when he's hit, that was his weakness when I saw it. I had to walk slow and power shield every projectile like it's DDR (good thing my fingers have good reflexes from playing beatmania, but putting that aside). I won the match by being patient and look for openings carefully.

Nowadays in tournaments for me, I survey the location and players, I think ahead and survey the players participating, if it's like 16 with 50% good players, I'm not gonna participate and waste money. Tough times really for the economy and my money should not be spent in tournaments where I know I'm not gonna gain any profit for going through 6 hours, I knew myself that I won't win the money if I participated with a low turnout. you can MM people sparingly and earn a buck or 2. if it's a huge turnout, i'll participate and know i'll do my best. abuse smaller tournaments un-advertised.

In the end you can either blame the character, the game, or community. Typical responses would be it's just a game and crap. but what i'm trying to say is that you should try to develop a mental focus in which you yourself can acquire. when you reach that point, you have a flow of controlling the match without ever knowing wtf just happened. being inhuman can occur at any moment in time. my heart BPM goes so fast I lose focus, but if i keep it low and calm, I can stay focused.

 

[Teran]

Stop talking and actually prove your worth with actions.
That's all it takes.

 

[ndayday]

I've always looked at your posts with respect and all that Pch, and I always wanted to say something concerning the way you act and stuff on here. Heck, I wrote a really long response to this a few days back, but decided not to post it.

You're a cool guy, and a great Peach player. Having obstacles like that is hard, but try not to let them get to you. You'd be surprised at the amount of people who have obstacles equally as bad as yours, and they try to combat them. If you beat your depression, why can't you try to beat this? I know you're thinking that you can't do it, or that the doctors say you can't, or whatever, but you can. If you really try, you can. It all sounds cheesy, I know...but you can, and even though it doesn't seem like it, people are always supporting you, and they are infinitely better then the people who troll you and are *******es, just try to focus on the bright side of things, even though it's hard.

On a side note, have you ever read Sirlin's Playing to WIn?

 

[RyuReiatsu]

Being bipolar is very similar to having a depression, you should maybe get treatments.
Not that I'm saying you're crazy, since I am bipolar myself... But somethings just don't go down when dealt alone. I'm bipolar and was always a depressed kid ever since I was born. There's only one person that makes me feel real' happy and stuffs. Try finding the thing that helps you. Ever since 6 days, I haven't had any moodswings. Or at least, I felt down like for a couple of MINUTES.

If there's nothing that can really make you happy and stuffs, just go get treatments.
If you live in Canada, many things regarding health are free. I'd say, try.

 

[Smith]

I stopped at "I can say I'm the best **** Peach player in the world." Because your ego covered the rest of the post.

 

[RyuReiatsu]

I stopped at "I can say I'm the best **** Peach player in the world." Because your ego covered the rest of the post.

Where was that written?
Found it, never mind.

 

[PhoenixoKaZe]

*stares at the crisis* *gives a hug* o-o

 

[Jim Morrison]

I kept wondering how you could ***** about Peach when I beat people with my Peach I only played 2 times.
RD3 found out playing vs Peach is gay. All it takes is lagless fairs <_<

Also, good luck with it man.

 

[MarcBuckley]

this isn't bi-polar this is called being a sore loser it is what it is don't try to cover it up wih medical condition

 

[Deleted member]

^ Missed it by a month dude.

 

[RyuReiatsu]

this isn't bi-polar this is called being a sore loser it is what it is don't try to cover it up wih medical condition

You're one sore loser for calling a helpless guy a loser .
Oh and, you've revived an old post. Ain't you loser enough?

 

[Virgilijus]

Please don't bump threads that were on their way to dying, please. Even though a month isn't that long of a gap, your necropost didn't really contribute. Thanks.