I'm no good at making irl connections either. I try to talk to people, but my social anxiety is just so bad it's almost crippling. I can't really see myself in a healthy relationship either, so I don't really see a marriage in my future either.
...That's why after I move out and start living on my own, I'm going to adopt pets. Most dogs are friendlier than most people anyway.
Pets can help. Good pets are good companions. Still, there is a human element we all need to be healthy. Even if you stay a single loner like myself, there are community groups or activities you should attempt to partake in (depending on what sort of person you are).
If your anxiety is bad enough that you don't even think you could go to church or go to the park (if you have those in your area), then maybe you should consider counseling. I've done a certain measure of counseling for quite a while now (on and off -- long story), and it always helps me a great deal.
I personally don't what to get married. I feel that if I'm going to be unable to support myself in the real world, then I certainly can't support a nagging woman who I'll just end up questioning as to why I haven't divorced her yet. I'm not patient like my dad; if I end up with a woman like my mom I'm just going to go mentally insane. I have no trouble making friends for a kid with asbergers, but even I say that once high school is over I'm not going to see them again until the high school reunion that I'm more than likely to not know about.
I'm sorry you grew up in a home with a dysfunctional marriage.
This is getting very personal but I'll let you peek a bit into my own life: my father and mother both have their own problems. They both came from horrible, abusive families and all things considered turned out to be very loving and caring people... but that baggage takes a toll. My mother for years was overly critical of my dad. My father developed into kind of a rage-aholic, though he has never once physically struck someone. Both are traits they picked up from their worst parents: my grandmother and my grandfather (opposite sides of the family of course). Both came from families that divorced but remarried later. My father has threatened to leave my mother many times but he knows he shouldn't do it so he hasn't.
My dad's anger and inability/refusal to be self-aware in certain kinds of situations has resulted in him wounding my soul (and my mother's soul) over and over again. I refuse to blame my father for my personal choices but the choices he has made have not often been helpful for me at all.
With all this going on, you'd think I'd never want to get married, right? Well, wrong. In fact, the only things really holding me back from seeking out a potential mate in life has been an addiction I have developed to cope with my pain, and me being poor and homeless. I wasn't always this destitute, it's just that crippling circumstances over the past couple years keep making it worse and worse.
I don't want to find the lady of my dreams and be a burden for her, so I want to get a new job, a place to live, and work on becoming financially free. I can't properly love her until I recover from this addiction, because it would tear us apart. Really, the ball's in my court. I'd say the same thing to you, Sensane. Counseling, mentorship, and forgiveness cannot be stressed enough in life.
I can relate to this so well.
None of my 'friends' from high school cared about video games, let alone Smash. I actually discovered Melee at 18, so I was a year out of school when I first learned about Taj's Mewtwo. I'd never played SB64 or Melee growing up so it was all new to me and I mainly bought the game for Mewtwo.
I'm 25 and so many people have just come and gone. I make friends but usually its me always asking to catch up or do things, and every single time it's the same, they're always too busy with other things. I think asked a 'friend' at least 7 or more times (over a span of a year) to do something together and she would always say she was too busy, yet I noticed her constantly going out to the movies, or social gatherings with other friends. In the end I just stopped caring.
It does take a lot of effort to make a friend. So many people just let you down.
Most of my friends nowadays are in the Smash scene we have here. I get along far better with guys than other girls. But I'm more of a tomboy I guess.
Mewtwo inspires me a lot, especially his personality and story. He's just one of those characters that 'clicked' with me and has for the past 6 years. I met my best friend through Mewtwo (who is also a Mewtwo fan).
I can't wait for Pokken!
Sounds like you and I have a lot in common then, based on what you've shared. Taj was the reason I got interested in playing Melee seriously, and I still respect him to this day. I have had friends outright betray me, let me down, and drop off for years. Sometimes people just get so busy that they can't spend that quality time with you any longer... people you really love.
Mewtwo, depending on how you look at him (and when I refer to Mewtwo as a character, I almost exclusively refer to movie 1 Mewtwo), can really be sort of inspiring. But to be inspired by Mewtwo, you need to realize his faults as well: vindictiveness, vanity, violence, manipulation, and unforgiveness. Yes, at the end, Mewtwo learns from his mistakes, but don't emulate his vindictiveness or vanity. I have found myself to be prone to thinking too highly of myself at times, unforgiveness, and the like. I am only human and I make mistakes. If I were to look to Mewtwo for an intellectual push, it'd be to his final realization, apology, and (sequel movie) atonement.
For me, though, there are much more inspiring people in my life than Mewtwo. I like that character, and it brings me joy, but people like my younger sister inspire me to work hard, forgive, and that I too can "make it out" and succeed in life; people like Jesus give me hope that no matter what, I at least have one person I can call on who cares about me.
And yes, I AM EXCITED FOR POKKEN!~
I can't play it because my Wii U is broken and I have no TV, but I AM EXCITED ANYWAY!~
Holy cow the feels in this thread right now. I definitely want to improve on my social life this year. My social anxiety gets in the way of me and my friends a lot, plus I've got a speech impediment irl which can be really embarrassing even with friends I've known for years. As of right now most of my friends just finished high school and our lives are not really busy at the moment but my main issue is actually putting myself out there just to say "Hey, wanna hang out sometime?". Like I said, I would really like to see myself going out more this year. Just thought I'd put that out there.
Also, to anyone else here going through a tough time right now, remember that you've got friends right here on this thread.
I've met many people with severe speech impediments. I can relate a bit to the struggles and embarrassment, and I know how frustrating for you it must be at times when you struggle to get your words out and people look at you funny.
I don't have a speech impediment, but I know what it's like to be bullied, mocked, brushed off... I was, for whatever reason, an awkward child that always seemed to say the wrong thing and get ridiculed for it by other children or even teachers or family members. As such, I always have a great deal of respect and patience for people who cannot talk well for whatever reason.
Back when I sold steel carports, I had a woman come in who had a severe stutter. It took her a lot of effort just to get one sentence out. I just looked her in the eye, listened, and helped her any way I could. It took her maybe 3x as long as a normal person just to get a quote, but I didn't mind.
We all should love and respect each other, after all. That gets tricky when you have people actively attacking you, but that's another topic altogether.