Dutch Raikuna
Life's a sweet bitter beauty song.......
So it's been a mixed week.
Counselling has still not came back to me, I've had a loss of appetite, one of my IRL friends still hasn't answered a basic question and as you guys clearly know, my mood swings are still there, Still I got Sakura Wars and made a small step forward in employment.
And to my friends on the Discord, I'm sorry about last night and keep bombarding with text and stuff. Was trying to continue the conversation but then I started panicking a bit so that's kinda what led to it. Admittedly I wanted to continue talking about stuff but it felt like I failed in it.
Having friends is a weird thing and I'm still in a way, kinda new to the online world of making them. I can't change people, I know that.
And as mentioned last night, this is still the start of a very long road for me so I'm asking to try and keep by me on it. About 10 of you people have been a massive pillar of support this year; during the pandemic and my breaking of ties with my family. I still see joining this forum as one of the best decisions in the past number of years I've made. As much as I sometimes want to delete my account and not come back for a long time, I think the cost would be a bit too much.
A part of me is tired of having to plead and remind people and I know I can't change it at all. Days like this will continue and that is why I have went into counselling. As the doc said, once that, getting a job and slowly starting a routine will be key to stopping it. It's just patience.
I know this social thread is meant for light-hearted stuff but this so I can say to my friends on both here and on the Discord group.
Counselling has still not came back to me, I've had a loss of appetite, one of my IRL friends still hasn't answered a basic question and as you guys clearly know, my mood swings are still there, Still I got Sakura Wars and made a small step forward in employment.
And to my friends on the Discord, I'm sorry about last night and keep bombarding with text and stuff. Was trying to continue the conversation but then I started panicking a bit so that's kinda what led to it. Admittedly I wanted to continue talking about stuff but it felt like I failed in it.
Having friends is a weird thing and I'm still in a way, kinda new to the online world of making them. I can't change people, I know that.
And as mentioned last night, this is still the start of a very long road for me so I'm asking to try and keep by me on it. About 10 of you people have been a massive pillar of support this year; during the pandemic and my breaking of ties with my family. I still see joining this forum as one of the best decisions in the past number of years I've made. As much as I sometimes want to delete my account and not come back for a long time, I think the cost would be a bit too much.
A part of me is tired of having to plead and remind people and I know I can't change it at all. Days like this will continue and that is why I have went into counselling. As the doc said, once that, getting a job and slowly starting a routine will be key to stopping it. It's just patience.
I know this social thread is meant for light-hearted stuff but this so I can say to my friends on both here and on the Discord group.
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